Sunday, March 2, 2008

Mood: Uncomfortable
Date: 11:40AM Saturday March 1st 2008
Days since last post: 1
Song of the 'Post': Grace Kelly

So it's our last day with Myo and Theo as a seperate. It feels weird like unbelieveable. Well that was the main reason I got on here one last time. I thought It would be good to see what made me so happy and kept me alive for so long again. Though I welcome vibrant with arms wide open till I figure out I'm unable to break the rules as much as I can now. haha.

I really... should not talk about this. I need someone to yell at me. Really I just do. A friend to be disappointed enough so I'd quit.
My sister wasn't hoenstly enough as much as that hurt.
a friend of mine came over to hang out and everything.. well it's like midnight and my sister is going right by my friends house and it's a long way to get there. she gets mad at me because i want her to take her home since it's right there. i didn't feel like driving 20miles to take someone home at mindnight. my sister's like "well maybe you shouldn't have gotten so drunk and you would take her home" that doesn't have anything to do with it but she's sort of right...
I don't know. She said I promised to take her home but I just do not remember saying that. That was earlyer on in the day too; I just can't remember.

Comments Back: Can't remember your last comment? Click Here! I just do not feel like doing comments back today guys.. I'm really sorry.

Comments



Comments (2) | Permalink

Thursday, February 28, 2008

Mood: Awake
Date: 5:12PM Thursday 2/28/08
Days since last post: 1
Song of the 'Post': Le festin

This is the first time I have posted three days in a row in months, it's a little astonishing to myself as well as other people I have noticed. haha
No one dared me to play Cho Large yesterday either. Which was strange-

I am excited to return to Charleston soon. This Friday I will be going there to see my sisters and brother. I cannot wait to smell the salt and see the water. It should be 70 or higher.
I've gotten much of my room unpacked and have gotten things put away but I am still far from being over. At the moment I am watching Rattatouille. I a in love with this movie to the bottom of my heart and it does so remind me of how much J'aime pari. haha
When I transfered schools I was put in the Honors french 3 class. This class is so easy It's unblievable. We do not have to have speak in french fully, we do not have homework and we do not do hardly anything en class! Some people would say this is wonderful but I see I will never learn anything and will only be hurt by it. You can only learn french if you speak it and are around it at all times. C'est vrai.

Comments Back: Can't remember your last comment? Click Here! Talimsoul- Ah that is fine, I can understand if you don't understand a post. That last one was a little confusing. I really don't think anyone understood it. Koon- I don't abuse drugs! <_< ima loser baby- I am hating it! Each day within this school I feel more lonely. Guddosyal- Ah why can I not annoy your sister? This is driving me up the wall Syal.

Comments



Comments (6) | Permalink

Wednesday, February 27, 2008

Mood: indifferent
Date: 4:26PM Wednesday 2/27/08
Days since last post: 1

I'm still making some attempt to put everything away in my room. It's not working all to well. Bill, my stepfather is supposed to be tearing out a wall in my room today so they can do something to the pipes that go downstairs, not sure exactly what that's all about but okay- I don't care.

Ever since I've started school here i've been misrable. I don't want to complain more becuase it seems like I complain no matter where I am. My wish is just to be alone. I know that sounds crazy but I don't want anything to do with my mom or dad. I just want to be by myself sometimes. I've realized I can't have that but I still try. I've done a lot of things I am too young to do. For instance, I was driving the day I was legally able to. I've smoked before, I've drank before, and most people know I have a problem overdosing with medications not intentionally. All of it was jst rebelling against people who are really not even doing anything wrong (my mom meaning). True I don't really do that stuff now or at least try not to but I think if people knew what kids wanted then they wouldn't be willing to rebell in other ways. I know some parents don't want their kids to fall behind but the way I see it is if they don't learn to do things for themselves and to push them selves then why are we all trying in the first place? What are they going to do the second they get away from them and are old enough to actually cause harm?

I just got the weirdest vibe to put Cho Large on here. Ohhh I think a few people would shoot me haha
So cra-cra-crazy haha
Someone's got to dare me to do it in order for me to do that. Haha

Oh I had forgotten to add yesterday about Crimson-rose's contest, I made a few banners and put one up at the bottom under the comments if you are intrested click it! it'll be fun haha. What if I say I'm not entered in it? *winks and elbows rose* haha jp

Comments Back: Can't remember your last comment? Click Here! kikyo27- I hope you're feeling better! *hugs* Erzengel Weiss- This I should be keeping to myself but i like knowing different reasons from everyone. Why do you comment but do not let people give you comments? Ryosuke Forever- were you related to Yensid? I'm sorry I'm just having a hard time remembering you. Jigglyness- Seems like I got a lot of people yesterday that I haven't seen in awhile lol I don't remember a lot of them though. Good to see you again Crimson-rose- ah i'm sorry about forgetting about announding your contest xD i'll try to go to bed earlyer now- it's getting really hard to do that lol koon- I scare you? BAH YOU SCARE ME! *tickles you back!* Master Kinkos- No you missed no post O_o dono why you'd care i mean com'on you're here for ALL of them! TOUT! C'EST TOUT! haha oh and i'm not going back to charleston to see my dad. i'm going there to see my cousins, i don't plan to talk to my dad much at all anymore.

Comments



Comments (5) | Permalink

Tuesday, February 26, 2008

Mood: Dark/predatory
Date: 4:47 Tuesday 2/26/08
Days since last post: 6?!

It doesn't really feel like it's been 6 days.
Quick note this song is called Paradox by The Trax. It was on Grey_wolf page. I dono it was perfect for the mood i'm in right now. Then again I'm so sick is doing the same for me.
Hm, so I moved, never finished un packing and I'm already tired of this place. My stepfather and my mom are deff..... Just about if I'm not serious. They never hear what I saw then get mad at me because they can't hear. Not my problem, i'm not repeating myself 3 times over and over for your sake. Other then that it's alright, I'm not screamed at about chores constantly... I really miss Charleston though. I don't miss my dad in the slightest i just miss the saltwater. I can't wait till friday because i get to go back there.
I haven't been able to sleep at all lately. I'll try to sleep at 11:00 when I go to bed and end up lying there till 2am which turns to 5am and then I have to get up in an hour. Tired benadryl but I honestly don't feel like overdoasing on anything again. Ha, my mom catches me doing that and lets just say I won't even be allowed to touch neosporin. I'll be so tired during the day, i'll come home, get a shower and go straight to sleep then she'll wake me up for dinner, mad at me for sleeping then it starts all over again.

Comments Back: Can't remember your last comment? Click Here! Asuka-104- SHHH NO ONE'S SUPPOSED TO KNOW I'M SUPER GIRL! ima loser baby- <_< i'm moving with you- Erzengel Weiss- <_< some things you say remind me of a three year old (no offence) xD *was meaning my friend that acts three* *flicks her nose* xD pink timechaser- <_< I know I know the alchohol won't help but ever since my sister gave me that smirnoff I've wanted another..... ._. The Next FLCL- OH MY GOD YOU SPOILED THE RIDDLE! *tackles* lmfao hahah jp

Comments



Comments (8) | Permalink

Wednesday, February 20, 2008

Mood: Obiquitary
Date: 10:52 Wednesday 2/20/08
Days since last post: 2

I've been debaiting if I should post now or not. I know tonight I cannot get to pages since it is so late but tomrrow I have to finish packing. I still have so much left but it depends on what time. I will promise to get to all of you though. I know lately I have been neglecting that.
So I am moving to lexington on saturday. I am staying with my mom and stepfather. I am somewhat afraid to be there but at the same time I am excited.

This was some 4-page rant about my father which I just erased. I don't think anyone would want to hear it anyway. Man I really wish I had a smirnoff right now because I would love to toast off to never seeing him again for the rest of my life.

at the moment... I'm some one I'm not who is not even there. hmmm only about 5 people understand that- lol

Riddle-
A woman shoots her husband.
Holds him underwater for five minutes
Then hangs him.
15 minutes later they go out on a romantic date toghether. How is this possible?

Comments Back: Can't remember your last comment? Click Here! Erzengel Weiss- I can't quite put my finger on who you are but I feel like I have met you before. Ima loser baby- Oh this is so freaky how we're going to live like next to eachother <.< I had a feeling that would happen one day when i was younger because i never met anyone from SC. "THE FIRST PERSON I MEAN FROM SC WILL BE LIVING RIGHT BY ME! JUST YOU WAIT!" haha *slaps forehead* then again i'd never have guessed I would move to lexington. Randomized05- I can't believe you didn't give me that shirt! xD TalimSoul- You always love my songs lol Kimmehwolfwood- I hope you're doing okay, how have you been? I hope you are not too down still. *hugs*

Comments

Comments (16) | Permalink

Monday, February 18, 2008

Mood: Nervous
Date: 9:01 Monday 2/18/08
Days since last post: 1

I KNOW THERE IS A LOT OF WRITING =_= come on i haven't been here in awhile and yada yada drama.

Moving
My dad is giving one last attempt to make me feel guilty about moving. It's a little annoying. He told me to keep my car even though it's in his name. I told him I would only take it if it's in mine because i don't want anything to do with him anymore and that would be his way to keep a tab on me.. Then he told me no and said such: "if i put it in your name you'll think you're god and can do what you want with it. no because someone's got to tell you that you are not free and you're going to do what i tell you to" Something like that but a little harsher. I was so mad I told him to shut up and nearly walked out of the resturant on him. He gets on my last nerve sometimes. Do not ever tell me I can't do something. I will do it just to defy you.
I'll admit i'm afraid to move up there. The people are a little... well just say judgemental.

Addiction
When you are in a family and have a family history of alchoholics or any other type of addiction the child has a better chance of becoming one as well and is a lot more vulnerable to addictions.
I've noticed... and this is really bad- that I am starting to get like them too. I always told myself, no i'll never drink, smoke or do drugs.
And I don't do the last two ....nvm the middle one (will explain) but i am just seeing myself headed that way and i'll get worse and worse.
I remember at first it starting out as just trying my sisters' drink that they would randomly make to try something new and most of them were too strong for me anyway. it started with just sips then to really having a whole one. I realized at a party last weekend at my mom's house that i'm getting exactly like the rest of my family which is not cool at all. I mean my sister basically took a smirnoff and put it in a red solo cup with ice and told me to call it a sprite. and I did. A friend of mine found out about it later then got mad at me because she couldn't have one. A good reason. First of all when I drink, it's not obvious. I have a fiveminute thing like i'm in a good mood then that's it. I don't get hangovers or to where i can't remember. She does. It's just weird and I know I need to stop because i'm only 16 and if i'm doing it this early then it's going to be really bad later.

and about the drug thing, i've noticed i've over dosed twice in the past two weeks. Not like on purpose but then again not on accident. Meaning not to harm myself but it turns out doing such. I need to quit doing that. I've just noticed that when i take like one pill for ambien, nothing happens. So I tired two and I will never do that again. It screws you up so bad. I mean just taking more then you should with benadryl killed me earlyer because I couldn't hardly control my eyes. The benadryl was for a spiderbite(maybe?) which is like swolen and getting worse and worse so I had reason to. I don't know.

Comments Back: Can't remember your last comment? Click Here! Someguy- ohh I love you so much for telling me about the commenting thing. I must have missed the memo. ima loser baby- Calculator BAD xDDDD Fantasy Hearts- Second nature... yeah but i mean people can still figure this stuff out <_< it's sad when I have to explain what an address bar is though. voiceinmyhead- with your cuteness you almost had me giving in but no xD you can do it! you are smart! hehe Master Kinkos- you're dising your sister! xD Koon- That's what I aim for sometimes >D auska-104- yeah that would be a good name haha d.e.a.t.h. b.y. c.a.l.c.u.l.a.t.o.r. Crimson-Rose- you are the only one to notice the layout change xD guddosyal- Why's your site turned off? innocent heart- *steals your calculator* xD Kimmehwolfwood- Kimmerz we all have days (in my case sometimes weeks haha) like that, i don't mind it even if you don't read them. I can understand, my post have been kinda long lately. Just way too much to say lol I hope you're doing well.

Comments

Comments (0) | Permalink

Mood: Numb
Date: 2:15am Monday 2/18/08

Pre-Question before rant:
Is anyone else having problems with their comment boxes because I can't comment people with comment boxes for some reason. There's like nowhere to write it, like you are logged out. Then I REALIZED AFTER SENDING EVERYONE'S COMMENTS IN PM MESSAGES THAT NO ONE'S GETTING MY PM MESSAGES. Well there went everyones comments... in davy jone's locker... lost foever.... damn *will be redoing those actually because it makes me feel bad*


PEOPLE THESE DAYS ARE SO LAZY!
*coughs and moves a few people to the side*

DISCLAIMER: Nata this is not just directed at you xD I've been asked this question a ton of times already.

Okay I do not understand why people have to be handed everything. @_@ Example: I see people CONSTANTLY say "I want to change my avi but i can't! there's no link!" or something like that. Just because there's no like to it doesn't mean it's not there. If people had a lick of common sense sometimes i think the world would explode from over excitement =_='

Say you want to change your picture:
Well everything starts out with http://www.myotaku.com/account/
just add picture on to the end.

Or say you want to delete your account
Just add delete on to the end.

Or say you want to change your password
Just add password on to the end!!!!!!!

It's so easy =_= I don't understand why people tell me that "They can't get to something because there's no easy link." LINK'S ARE LIKE CALCULATORS!!!! they will kill us all! people had to have a machine keep track of money in monopoly because people couldn't count the money out. It's just rediculous, we're getting so darn lazy. Doesn't anyone else see this? We're going to get so lazy no one's going to want to do anything at all! It's sort of like that now actually!

____________________________________________
Oh I forgot to tell you guys i'm moving.... I know- sort of weird last minute thing but yeah I can't live here anymore. The way my dad's treating me, he can blame the remote being stolen on the cats when i'm gone for all i care.

Comments
Comments (14) | Permalink

Monday, February 11, 2008

I think It's been far too long-
I've missed a few holidays and possibly a few new faces.

I feel extremely strange right now. Vibrant... fairish... ubiquitary... lol Especially that last one.

It makes me happy to know that there are people in this world.. But sometimes i wish away the lives of thousands just so a simple lesson desperately needing to be learned in learned and taught well enough.

Maybe I do not sound the same to you? I see you say that I have changed. Maybe it is you whom have changed. Nostalgic as I am I miss the past and wish for it to come back to me with arms wide open.

Comments
Comments (13) | Permalink

Sunday, December 23, 2007

Mood: Bouncey
Date: 12/23/07

^-^ *waves* Alright well I still don't have enough time to come back here full time. You guys can message me whenever if you want. I'll try to get to site this time but It'll take me some time.

I hope you like the new christmas theme! It's making me all hyper and Daniel and James probably want to kill me at the moment for bugging them so much today.

Comments
Comments (34) | Permalink

Thursday, November 29, 2007

I quit for now! Have a nice day^^


Comments
Comments (48) | Permalink