Wednesday, July 25, 2007

Mood: Tired
Date: 12:01 July 25th


So no one broke my rules yesterday... pink came close XD. ah well. . .
Thanks for yesterday guys,

Today............I do not know what i'm doing.
does this count as a post? ... well it's back to 3 sentence posts... mission accomplished.

*screams at bitTorrent* COULD THIS THING GO ANY SLOWER?! i've been downloading Death Note the Last Name for the past like 3 days and omfg it's only at 56.9%.... *dies* but i want the movie SO bad. .... blame pinkchii XD

In other news

• ... I already forgot it but it was hell funny. *sighs*

Comments Back: PinkChii009- *glare* you are SOOOOOOOO lucky- haha J Briones- yes contacts as in the ones i wear... randomized05- omfg... what i hate is i wear like a small in T shirts and a medium in like american eagle or places like that but omfg i go to a department store and i fit into a large there and pratically cry ;_; kitt-e7- glad you're back!^^ kitabug69-you didn't miss me the day before lol i wasn't here Lifes burden- you know you make it pretty obvous if you don't want to get cought and keep the guessing game going. .... and i about killed you because i accadently clicked your name AND It CHANGED THE PAGE but i pressed back and it was still here... phew.... but serious don't comment me off that name unless you want people to know it's you. as for the tape.......... ommm LE KUN! HELP!!! *runs*

Avi of the day: #89

XDDDDDDD

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Tuesday, July 24, 2007

Mood: Ecstatic!
Date: 6:48 Tuesday July 24th


So I did what you all said and took a break. I did not visit anyone that last post i just needed to do some comments back. First I would like to say... read the header that says "Note" above the post. If you're here on the 25th I can not get to you, That's a rule i'm starting now because i'm starting to think ahead. When school starts and I possibly post late I will have no time to visit people whom come by the next day. I really wish Myo would not have changed the highlight limit to where it turns back to white after a day.

In other news:

•My artist block is gone! *so happy*
•My father just handed me my new contacts and.... omfg they're in japanese. O.o
•I'm going to try to get my post back down to their usual length... 3 sentences. some people will be thankful haha
•Enjoy the new theme... okay it's not new just never before seen. It's fairly old. I used it on another account.

Comments Back: Zeit- your avi gets me dizzy XD SessLover18- I hope your PMs get fixed soon! awe don't blame adam... he does a good job! KimmehWolfwood- Kimmeh! XD haha the real yojimbo- ... I know you! ... ._. who are you again? sorry.... ask anyone my memory sucks... PinkChii009- I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *tackles and hugs* death note galore!!!!! whoot! yet again you are a good inspiration!^^ Le kun- I believe you can make me smile more then anyone else... and i will have to get some tape for Manuel's mouth ;} randomized05- you know how many people are teesing me about that rape comment? >> o and i saw your shirt at kohls! haha i didn't buy it though... was too streachy... and i was a little sad when i was there... lol you know how like when you're sad you don't want to try on clothes? is why....... haha FF 333- Hope you are holding up good lol though i'm glad you could finally spend time alone with your two sons. to the comment about my brother- it some times amazes me how many people read other peoples comments lol knightwolfgirl- I was out of town so i hope you got lazy on that poem! lifes burden- No actually i don't joke really about anything i say. I mean it 100% most of the time. I am not someone to tell you you are my friend if you are not. So if i say you are then you really are. The mistress is out of town till either tomorrow or the following day, not sure when. don't care actually. oh... and read Le kuns comment back- lordsesshomaru- *hugs the chris* you know you really know how to be serious and joke around at times, lol i could never do that. but you are very good at cheering people up without even trying.

Avi of the day: #88


i love this....... i could watch it over and over.
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Friday, July 20, 2007

Your will to come; I can not get to sites.

Comments Back: Zeit- I am sorry I missed your site yesterday. littlemiko11- I am sorry I missed your site yesterday. kitabug69- Thank you for the hug. But I am sorry I missed your site yesterday. lifes burden- ... You are probably one of the best friends I could ever ask for. Your comment, really, meant so much to me you would never understand. I did not tell a lot of things in the post yesterday or what happened last night for that matter. but for some reason i feel like i am able to talk to you about anything. true he is my father but he does not feel he has to give me any respect because I give him none opparently. Though I do not understand what respect he asks for. I do everything he asks but one thing which is to talk to laura. I do not wish to at all. the poem is only written when my mind is right, and lately i haven't writen anything. But i'm more worried when i lost myself soon hopefully(le kun knows more about) that i will not be able to finish it. but then again if i wasn't so afraid i wouldn't have ever begun it either so something good comes out of fear. you could say, it was not written by me... lol i only have one art work page because i do not like to flip pages. not separated from everyone else. there is about 30 homes maybe on the island. maybe more i'm not sure. If i thought hard enough i could count them in my head but i really am not in the mood right now. how am i perfectionist and a rapist? that makes no sense..... i am sorry for not getting to your page yesterday either. angel kat- i can never tell when he is drunk so i can not say, but if i ever talked to him like that he would kill me. I fear my father a lot so i can not look at him half the time. i am sorry for missing you yesterday as well. Talim-of-the-Wind- I am sorry for missing your site yesterday. guddosyal- It is good to meet you guddosyal. thank you for your nice comment. Ordinary Girl- I tell him many times when i am gone i am gone. never to come back but he does not believe it. he treats me as i am seven because he does not want me to grow up i guess. he was never around when i was a kid so my mom thinks he is trying to make up time. though i do not normally write poems. that just came to me in english class. knightwolfgirl- i will try to come see you tomorrow to see your poem. The layouts i enjoy doing most is when i am inspired by them. that is the only time i have been my best. if i am not inspired i have a very hard time. Kikyo27- I can move but it is like this. Would you rather be home where you belong unhappy or rather be somewhere you don't belong 'okay'. my room and this comptuer is all i need. my family is here. my friends are here. i love you all as much as i love my family. my family consists of 6 people. My two cousins Jessica and Joline. Their husbands Ron and David and their two children, Kinsley and Logan. this is my family. i once sent a text message to all the people in my family. it said "i love you" the first answered "?" the second answered "Are you okay" knowing something was wrong. the third answered "who is this?" the fourth did not answer because he is busy defending out country. Roiben- that is the exact reason i write in another language. it's more comfortable and no one can read it. Google "Font symbol" that should help you. the characters are fairly easy to remember. randomized05- thank you for the shirt lol twilight samurai- still in shock. lordsesshomaru- Give her the doctor bills not me................ oh... and they're trying to take me other brother from me too. he got a letter saying that they need to see if he's still physically capeable of being sent to Iraq. If Ron goes I don't know what I'll do. he is all i have left. MiasmaMoon- you and your small font at 9am my parents split when i was 12. I'm 16 now. but it's in teh divorce papers, they split because of my stepmother. i can't get closesr to them because i hate them. ever one of them. I have no tolerance for insufferable ignorance. The Dark Hero- I am sorry to hear that your father died. though you are right. when you feel alone and everyone else is smiling it's a mask. very good artwork yesterday as well. Redblaze- you know we seem to help eachother one after the other. PinkChii009- thank you so much pink for telling me how to find the death note movie. I watched it till about midnight and finished it. I don't believe I have ever cried so much during a movie. That was the perfect ending but at the same time, one too terrable and so sad. SessLover18- I now have a mother whom is two years younger, that will look great and pecular. hishyama shark- I would say yes but I would be lying. FF 333- I hope you enjoyed your off time. Go get some rest, you must be tired.

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Thursday, July 19, 2007

Mood: Crappy
Date: 12:00 Thursday July 19th

Believe me when I say I wish my stepmother would die. If it wasn't for that 50 year old chainsmoking aneroxic alchoholic whom still wears Victoria Secrets my life would be a hell of a lot better. Yesterday I had to work. They know that because It's the same week the same time. I came out of my room didn't see any lights on in the house, the doors in the same place they were when dad left the house so I figured she went with him and I left for work. I get there my dad's there sitting at the bar and the first thing he says "Did you tell Laura you left." ... No because I thought she was with you... I didn't see anyone. His only replly to me was "Oh bullshit, get away from me. Just get lost" You know I hate my father. I don't ask for shit from him or anything. I see him 5 minutes out of the day and he treats me like I'm despare itself which he as told me before. I'm despare...
I remember I was depressed back in 9th grade and wrote a poem on that. Though I lose it saddly... Hmm let me see if I can find that because I have an idea of where it is.
Ohp, nevermind I don't even have to look for it. I forgot I wrote it on my memory box. Only problem is reading the smudged sharpie when everything it written in a different language. The language is hard enough... now that it's smeared it's even harder XD. [I do that so no one else can read it if you're wondering]

I feel like I am nothing but a mere blank page,
only here to contradict and question
I am despair. I am hatred. I am cold and heartless.
I am evil. I am worthless. I am..
a daughter...

These are the names I have been given.
Given by people.
People who demand but do not give.
Tyrants.

Who am I to give them a name?
I am despair, am I not?
Then they must be light.
are people of light actually dark?
are people of dark actually light?
It is a case of right verses right.

It's actually a hell long poem which drags on for about 7x that length still unfinished but it really said what I felt then, now, and always. It's an epic I call cat tails. lol

Thank you guys so much for your words yesterday. I will try to take a break from all arts though it is rather hard since I love it so much. Also sorry this is rather long too. I do not believe I have written so much in some time.

Comments Back: angel kat- I don't recall you nagging but okay lol^^; lifes burden- The drawings were "okay". Though for my to be proud of something enought where I could post it takes more then what I had. Plus I wouldn't want to delete a better fan art for something of less quality. I don't like having more the none page of fan art so I delete one when I add another. The picture of the palm tree yesterday was one down the street. I live on... what's like a private island. Not many people live back where I do but you have to cross a small bridge to get to it and there are many palm trees there. I'm not a liar, i'm not a perfectionist lol you make yourself sound 60! PinkChii009- Why .... did you draw L eating a dead baby? ._. And you're not a bad dancer! XD JD Person- your theme is not bad! why do you say that?! The Dark Hero- I like to see what other people think though that is why I poll. I will kill you if you call me a nerd again >> nel- I know where you icon's from!!!!!! XD it's from the movie Hitch. knightwolfgirl- you FINALLY updated before commenting... wow... myricle. haha I can do layouts but honestly at the moment i'm dryed out. I have no ideas... THAT'S WHY I'M STRESSING WITH THIS ARTIST BLOCK. XDDDD randomized05- ... *runs away with your shirt* Rahahaha! =D ... you know if anyone else read this part of the comments back they'd think i was some kind of rapist.... and i should not be typing this because it'll only make it worse. haha okay go to kohls and get me that shirt! it's so cute! XD FF 333- you lost the poll..... XD you'll live! it's just easy to make you smile. Crimson-Rose- oooooooo draw miyavi! no stick figures! XD *pets the shinya* ... you know... you told me last night and i ALREADY forgot your name. haha *shall just be calling your Rose* meh.. i can't remember crap lately lol yes i live on a beach. Redblaze- I hope you're doing well or better then last night hopefully *hugs* lordsesshomaru- You are on this ice... *pushes you onto thinner ice* and Fondle Underwear to you too! XDDD and you know me chris. I couldn't stick with a theme for a month if it killed me. lol SessLover18- I tried those colors too but it didn't work out for some strange reason..... I don't know I'll try later. I will settle for yellow for now.

Avi of the day: #87

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Wednesday, July 18, 2007

Mood: Morose
Date: 12:00 Wednesday July 18th

I don't know why but for some reason I am completely dryed of every artistic thing in me. I tried to take pictures yesterday to put in the posts for today, nothing. Everything sucked (then again I didn't honestly try past two pictures). Then I tried to draw again.... yet another waste of paper. Last, towards the end of the day I started working on a new theme. The poll chose strawberrys so I started doing that. That was the most hopeless attempt of a theme I have ever done. Skipped the strawberrys tried to do umbrellas, which turned out just about as bad. Last I tried skys and am currently giving up because I'm tired of trying and failing. -_-
You know, I really really want to be a graphic designor but my ideas are all dried up. I can see them but I can't create them. I don't know what i'm doing wrong. On the other hand, html is so simple for me it's not even funny. I can type layouts out without looking at anything... insanely creepy and no i'm not a nerd I just can do it for some reason.


Oh, guys I have no problem with you taking my photography just tell me. Some of you already have and told me, I'm fine with that. I just like to know. Oh and the tree in the picture yesterday guys, that was the tree in my front yard.

Comments Back: lifes burden- ALWAYS have mood swings lol always. I'm not always a perfectionist but I am with most art related things. lol I'll try to do skys, Not sure though yet. kitabug69- ¬.¬ The theme's not new Kata... I think you said that last time you were here... lol twilight samurai- AHH! haha!^^ I missed you. Glad you're back. PinkChii009- Can't wait to see your dance video . Haha oh come on! you can't be that bad. No one's really bad at dancing.. Except my brother ron.... omfg. ._. but he does that little southern what do you call it dances haha Crimson-Rose- *pets the shinya* angel kat- Oh don't even bother.. My art is pure flukes.... lol Fantasy Hearts- Honestly you were the only person to vote for umbrellas. though I think people misunderstood me when I said umbrellas... What i meant was tropical drink umbrellas made out of tisue paper and tooth picks haha not rain umbrellas lol FF 333- You know what I think? I think it's just easy to get you to smile. take a poll: There.... we shall see! lol Yay or nay... lol I like that- Well It's nice to finally get to know you better. scorchbird12- pst... I chose flipflops too! XDDDD The Dark Hero- Having problem either way but I chose Flipflops. lordsesshomaru- you and your girlfriend back in highschool..... Chris lol I swear you should be a comedian! Come on it's so easy for you.... knightwolfgirl- *thumps you on the nose* No commenting till you post! XDD SessLover18- yay cookie... but yet again I am jealous of your artistic skills... *sighs* I still haven't picked a theme yet but I will let you know. I'm struggling with the colors on the one I have. Take a look at Somegirl2 if you would like to see what I mean.

Avi of the day: #86

[this is perfect since the new harrypotter movie just came out. let it be known I got this avi when the last one came out lol that's how old they're getting to be XDDDDD If you don't understand it.... not my fault.]


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Tuesday, July 17, 2007

mood: Frustrated
Date: 12:00 tuesday July 16th

I got in the mood to draw yesterday but honestly I tried and tried and it never worked *sighs* oh well. I told you guys all of my drawings were comlete flukes. *sighs again*

I downloaded some more of my photography off my camera. Not the best picture in the world but not bad.



Hey guys take a vote:



and one more


Sesslover are you up for another background request? lol

Comments Back: Fantasy Hearts- thanks for the comments on the site! lol i've had them for awhile. sry i'm changing them though. kitabug69- *hugs* ... just wanted a hug lol I hope your day was good being out with dill. Tell him hey for me^^ Nightwolfgirl- I put the 3 things people hate most up because i thought it was funny lol I have never done an art trade before though lol mononokegirl96- I added your avi to my collection! lol it's number 294. You have a ways to wait.... lol lifes burden- yes that is CLEAN .... exactly why there's only one picture of one side of the room. .... that says nothing about the other half lol I hate xbox too. Ron's like "press X" ... i pressed B. Ron: X... me: *presses B again* Ron: X DAMN IT! me: OH! BLUE BUTTON! *presses X* lordsesshomaru- it's you, someguy, and ryocite that have some posessive power over me to make me laugh like crazy till i die.... -.- *glare* haha. have fun with the raccoons devilsadvocate- I added you icon to my avi of the day collection lol it's number 293... haha^^; SessLover18- YOU ARE THE MOST RANDOM PERSON IN THE WORLD! *hug* of whom i love. XDDDD you were the only one to notice the couch yesterday lol would you be up for making another "simple" and "plane" background for me again?

Avi of the day: #85




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Monday, July 16, 2007

Mood: Productive
Date: 12:21 (weird time) Monday, July 16.

whooot.... idk i sort of feel enerjetic too.^^ lol


I cleaned my room!!!! XDDDDD
Yes that is CLEAN.... if you think it's not... you should see it not clean. because I can't even walk when it's not clean lol and there is no floor when it's not clean.

Among other things... like... idk.
well i am working on the other painting though the picture below... I'm lying. I haven't worked on it in months lol (I have gotten much further in it then in the picture. it's fully drawn and painted some)

Comments Back: MiasmaMoon- Yeah everyone did seem upset yesterday. Love your theme!^^ MewMewstreet- glad to see you too!^^ knightwolfgirl- lol yeah you were one of those people that were late! though the time before i missed you site and two others as well so i felt very bad. lifes burden- no i don't mind if you download them and use them! lol i left the movie by accadent because ron took it out of the xbox so we could play ghost recon and.... i left it on the base of his sterio system... though ghost recon was fun i only killed like 22 of the guys while he wiped out about 70. -.- kill freak... you know that's why ron joined the army in the first place "I like to blow shit up" haha i don't get along with any of my family really, my dad's a control freak.

Avi of the day: #84


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Sunday, July 15, 2007

Mood: depressed
Date: 1:28 Sunday July 15th


Guys....... stop reading my posts if they are a day old. In other words if you're reading this on monday.... please don't comment because I can't get to your page. So many people did that last time! Like half and I couldn't get to anyone that commented before I went to bed. -_-

Well I am sad for many reasons...
list!

• I left my favorite movie at my cousins house... I know i'm never getting that back -.-
• I'm being used so damn much
• stepmother.... do i need an explanation?
• I'm back living with my father.... great;
• my mom never tells ME when she's taking me places which does not make me a happy camper.
• ... can't tell like 3 other reasons.
• BAD guilt trips and police I do not like anymore.

Avi of the day: #82 and 83



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Saturday, July 7, 2007

Mood: excited

Don't ask lol
Well I deleted that artwork I last put up here, you guys... are not so great at lying. lol jp You have to admit that was probably my worst drawing.
I have absolutely nothing to say;

I think i'll change the music;

Avi of the day:
I'll do two tomorrow


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Sunday, July 1, 2007

Sorry I haven't been here in awhile guys... I dropped in to answer PMs for awhile but just got busy... and i'm also completely lying. *shrugs* who cares *sighs*
I'm sorry I didn't get to site the last time I was here, ... I sort of got the computer taken away.

I don't really have anything to say, I put up a fan art but honestly I don't even like it myself.

Click picture to goto page
I know exactly what's wrong with it but possibly you guys can tell me other things as well. I like when people tell me what's wrong. It is hard to offend me, do not worry about that.

Avi of the day: #81



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