I listened to this song over and over and over again yesterday. And every single time i felt it more and more. That in some way every personality was me. Both the child, the main character, and the wife. I don't care if you don't like rap or not. If you listen to the lyrics of this song and can understand it for what it's really saying... it's just like someone knows you even though they don't.
It hit me yesterday very hard. you have no idea how that felt. to hear your lying father whom always told you you were more impotant then anything else to him tell you to leave your home because of his wife.
I've been crying for two hours now but nothing will ever get better. nothing ever got better. It only gets worse and worse. I promissed my friends and myself that i'd never go as low as suicide but when you're this down it's so hard to keep yourself from thinking about it. I keep Kensley my 7 month old cousin in my heart and mind all the time so if i get any ideas... I know she means the most to me out of everything.
My head hurts >>'
No I did not drink Icies....
Okay I got new colors + avi yesterday. Do you guys like it?
I know the songs are 'different' I like the thrid one most probably and 2nd haha They're in spanish.. get over it i like reggaeton.
So yesterday was quite boring. I stayed majorly in the same place all day... on the couch because I had nothing to do. This is why I hate lexington. There is nothing to do! It's basically a lake with rednecks and a small town 20minutes away. I'd go there but what's honestly there? ... K-mart.
I want to kill my father's fucking wife for kicking me out of the house. FOR TWO WEEKS TOO! god i've kept my mouth shut this entire time but i'm so damn mad not i can't anymore. I hope they both go jump off a cliff. My father never cared about me till i was 12 then everything screwed up. I wasn't alloud to do anything, go anywhere. I think i'll put my counter back up..
*sighs* have to stop getting mad at things like this.. It won't mater eventually some day. Why think about it...
Hello guys,
Thanks so much for those of you who commented on my fan art yesterday. I very much appretiate that and also thank you for the comments yesterday.
Yesterday was such a good day. At night i took the car and drove to blockbuster. I rented two movies; Epic movie and stranger then fiction.
Then I stopped at the grocerystore on the way home. The cash register girl thought i was a little weird buying Ramen, apples, yogurt, and pencils... *shrugs* lol
I came home. Got online, Got offline. Ate Ramen.
Went outside and got in the pool then laid out for 30minutes. Came back inside and changed clothes. Went out on the dock and sat there for awhile then came back in and watched Epic movie. It..... was random but very funny at times. Not something I would buy. Has anyone seen it?
Then I watched stranger then Fiction and that was a good movie. I think i'll probably buy that. lol
How's everyone today?
New fan Art. I would be very greatful if people would comment on it. I like knowing what I do wrong on my art or just opinions in general.
I'm really glad I only get about 10-20 comments/people now. It's perfect... I'm not too busy and i'm not to bored. haha What is the most comments you've ever gotten before? Honestly... mine was 108. I think i'll shoot myself If i get that many again. Haha that was back when I was getting paranoid because there were too many people.
Chao!
Wait! I just realized this is my 2nd(or 3rd I can't count[no i'm not kidding])year at myo! Somegirl's anaversary! :) yay!
Hey guys. I have some things say today so you won't be too bored.
Otaku ranks
why is it that otaku will give you all these ranks and never tell you!? I knew I was a senior otaku but I went to my portfolio yesterday and it said "Otaku legend" ..... stared at that for no joke five minutes then said "something's different..." oh duh... when did this happen? why and i never informed!
2nd under ranks is the actual rank number. I remember I was gone for about... 6 months or so with occasional pop in on this name. But I noticed my rank was 100 every single one of those days.. It just moved to 99. .... damn I was hoping to get it to say for the rest of my life. nvm 98 >>' keeps changing.
Fan Art
OMFG I ACTUALLY TOUCHED A PENCIL! i'm so like in shock... a pencil.. that last time i touched a pencil... besides school.. was......... a long time.. oh yeah. Haha.
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It's called Aeria Gloris. It's in latin but you can probably figure out what it means anyway.
I don't ask people to comment or rate but it is very much appretiated^^
Avi of the day
Anyone remember me doing it? Well guess what... I'm doing it again. Not picking up where i left off but where i left of on my other name.. You'll live missing 20 of them. It won't kill you.
Does anyone actually want me to do them or no?
Man once again though I'm trying not to talk about bad things so it doesn't get me down. It also saves you guys from reading lol
Alright Well I put up a playlist. The song Date of Rebirth is really good it's right after the first song. Tell me what you think about the music.
I'm having a really bad memory problem and I seriously can't remember half of you please don't take it offensive just my mind's been like... oh vacation for a long time lol If i can't remember something (Yumi Hardy you know what i'm talking about haha) don't kill me please.
Comments Back: Metal-Inu- You are my nerd get over it! XD jp jp Em Yeu Anh- Still jealous of you lol lordsesshomaru- To my kickass Ball o'fuzz, I missed you. twilight samurai- "Sorr-" that still counts as a sorry! you owe me $50!!!! evil...
dudududu... oh hi--
I'm mad.. but i'm not telling the story because i'll get myself worked up again^^
Congratulations to sesslover18... 10,000 visits.. she's got to be bored or something. lol jp
Okay i'm telling this to everyone right now. There is a note.. under my avi that says "Doing what I want this time around..." which means.. If you have a problem with me either get over it or don't try being my friend. I am tired of adapting to everyone in real life and online. I want to do what I want for once. If I visit your site, cool. If I don't visit your site it either means I didn't have time or I don't want to. It's rarely I don't want to. I have this problem with being to nice at times and one of my friends pointed that out to me recently. People take advantage of my all the time and I never really noticed it till my friend pointed it out to me. So... I'm tired of being used. sry if i'm offending anyone. Comments (13) |
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Tuesday, June 5, 2007
Today Was my last day of school... Yes.
I had an exam in my 8-9 class so basically if you had 2nd lunch you had to go to school; if not happy summer. >>' no fair lol
Well after that exam we played gamecube.. at school.. I know It was totally weird but David brought a gamecube and that's what we did. lol
Then I had to go to engineering class and take the college exam. That.. was pretty easy for the most part but it was a lot of work. Only like 8 people could take it because you had to meet the requirements. Out of 8 I got the highest grade 86... Not too proud of an 86... 44/50 on part A and 42/50 on part C. For the highscool credit I ended up getting a 95.
I keep getting distracted, It's taking me an hour to write this lol.
Last... thank you for the 7000 hits.. You guys... are still crazy, nothing's changed there. Comments (5) |
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Monday, June 4, 2007
Things always come at a price...
I miss this place so much, I can't stay away.
I want to be like old times making layouts all the time having fun.
But the price is being overwhelmed with people again..
I can't stand that however I will try once more...
