Friday, May 2, 2008

Mood: Sick
Date: 12:00AM 3/5/08 (DMY)

Today I felt weird when I got up but still went to school as normal. I felt like I was going to throwup all day but it wasn't my stomach that was bothering me. I am still not exactly sure what it was that was making me feel so bad but as it went on i noticed it got to being my throat too. ...yup once again I am catching strep probably. I normally get it 3 times a yeah and I hate it to death. Last time I went to the doctor they nearly killed me giving me this 'extra medicine, incase' (BAH). I took it like average then lied down and got on the computer. and in no time I was getting very drowsy but i couldn't keep myself awake and I couldn't breathe after awhile. I will never take that stuff again for what it put me through.

Tonight at work was the worst time I've had. People kept blaming me for everything and people that are coming in the door are staring at me expecting me to take them somewhere and I was told I'm not allowed to seat tables because I screw it up.
Well Bren wouldn't tell me what her rotation was and I couldn't figure it out watching her... She kept jumping all over the place. people shouted at me "Menu counts!!!!" "SEAT ME" "STOP SEATING ME" "buss my table-" and by the way i'm not their damn buss boy, that's the waitress' job not mine! "take this to-" "SLOW DOWN" that one i got most of the night "Stand up" When we were dead slow..
I was in tears by the end of the night. My boss was always repremanding me and I couldn't do anything right. You know, I can't walk because of my right foot right now, I hurt it, and right when I walk in the door. I mean RIGHT when i walk it, bren handed me 10 tables to sit, 4 to buss and I can't do all of that. I got back to her and told her "Hey i can't run around and do your chores for you all night while you sit up here doing nothing." she got a little pissed off and later carol told her to take a break. He does not ever tell anyone to take a break. we do not get breaks...
What was wrong with her? She's miss fabulous and because she's stressed out the world's got to stop for her. Myself.. I can't walk very fast, I can barley talk because i was losing my voice, everyone's screaming at me because I don't know what's going on and no one will tell me. It took me near an hour to get control of everyone. I told my mom tonight and she told me i was quitting. They don't treat me right, they don't pay me right, and so on and so fourth...

Questions:
1) How many jobs have you had?
2) Are you assertive?
3) You're in your house and you see someone standing in the corner. They don't talk very much within the time you get to know them and when ever someone in your family passes by you they don't notice that person. No one can see him but you. What do you do?

You guys are terrible at answering number 3 on the qustions... No one comes up with a good statement. I mean yesterday everyone's answer was "oh they wouldn't do that" ... yeah that's why i put the word "if" infront of the question...

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Mood: Intimidated
Date: ---- 2/5/08 (DMY)

I have never once in my life ever given into peer pressure with people my age. I know what it's like to go 7 years without a single friend. I know what it's like to have friends that think you don't belong with them and yeah that's true.. I'm not like any one. I don't belond to a group, i stray from each one, a little like one and a little like the other.
Once I moved here I stuck with one group to try to make myself stay with people so I would have good friends not just "Hey i know you-".

I was invited to a bon fire last night and yeah it was a lot of fun. It was for Katie and mel's birthday. So I was going to meed brittney at the Piggly Wiggly to follow her because I didn't know where it was. Well she pulled beside me and I rolled down the window and she starts laughing because I have to roll them down by hand. Nothing in my car is electric... a lot of it doesn't even work and it's an '02 with 100,000 miles on it already. I felt like crap all night because my car... does suck even if i love it because I have one. But the people I hang out with, a lot of them are ... 'well off'. if you're understanding me. New cars.. huge houses.. etc. I'm not exactly pretty in my opinion, i don't care about guys, i just do not fit in for some reason and I really want to.

Questions:
1) Have you ever given into peer pressure? if so what about?
2) Do you drive a car and are you satisfied with it?
3) Your 'bestfriend' or 'husband' or 'boyfriend' suddenly decides to kill you. You're in your home with them for two hours before someone will come home and save you- Where do you hide so that this person doesn't find you for a total of two hours?


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