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Vitals

Birthday
• 1983-08-05
Gender
• Male
Location
• Vancouver, BC
Member Since
• 2003-08-02
Occupation
• Writer; Part-Time Hero
Real Name
• James

Personal

Achievements
• Visiting eight different myO friends in person thus far
Anime Fan Since
• Winter 2001
Favorite Anime
• Neon Genesis Evangelion, .hack//SIGN, Naruto, Bleach, Beck, Peacemaker Kurogane, Ranma 1/2 (the guilty pleasure)
Goals
• Visit the myO friends I've missed thus far; complete a cosplay from 300
Hobbies
• Writing, Gaming, Kung Fu, Movies, Acting somewhat strange in general
Talents
• Can recognise most quotes from almost any movie/show on first listen; Can recite the entire 12 days of Christmas by memory

myOtaku.com: SomeGuy

Wednesday, August 18, 2004

SomeGuy Alpha: Rant for August 3rd, 2002:
(The following is the transcript of a hand-written thing made the night of the above date . . . it was very late, and I was very bored . . .)

Once again, I find myself hungry and staring at my ceiling. Leftover casserole aside, I'm stuck thinking about stuff again. The scent of medicated alcohol reminds me that I'm still persistant in making these medicated Clearsil pads work - so far, I haven't been impressed (maybe I'm one of those gene-dominated ones . . .). But yeah, let's get into the meat of my thoughts, huh?

Meat . . . I wonder what I'll do with those freezer-burned chicken breasts tomorrow . . . . . anyways . . . . .

But yeah, alcohol in my pores led to an old story I heard about someone throwing a drink into her ex's face, which somehow led to thinking about grad night which led to my conversation with Swedish-boy. If I knew how I made these connections I'd tell you, I swear. But yeah, during our heart-to-heart (kinda) he stopped to quote a passage from Hamlet. I'm sure it had a huge amount of meaning to him, but the fact was I had never seen or read Hamlet. THAT then got me to thinking . . . what do I actually know about anything?

You know how high school is, right? You start off a small fish in a big sea, then you get big and the sea gets small . . . . then when they're done taking pictures they throw you back. I know I'm not the only one to notice this, but once you get to the big school, you're a shrimp again. But yeah, you see these people and they give these really wild insights into stuff you're reading, and you can't help but be slightly awed by it. Then the crunch comes during lunch when your other classmates start talking about how full of crap that person was. I mean, though I didn't fully see where they were coming from, I figured that they must have at least had some sort of grasp on it. So yeah, I know Jack about that stuff.

Let's also face it, I don't read the paper on a regular basis. I also don't watch the news that regularly either. I don't know too much about how the world's doing . . . . . whoa, brainblast . . .

I just hit a huge epiphany. The people in the courses, the friends who read the papers; they speak so vehemently about it because they know about it! Seriously, when we got to "Paradise Lost" in Arts 1, pretty much everyone had already read a bit of it because of Lit 12! These people have already spent much of their time reading up on these people and their works! They already have a pretty good grasp on it (I, on the other hand, am actually going to school to learn about it - go fig, huh?).

As always, I start gravitating to an old argument with an old friend. I have a good feeling that that argument has hit home more than I realise. I really need to get back to that guy some time about it, this must really be bothering me. But yeah, as this argument went, I had this really bad feeling about it. I'm gonna paraphrase over-the-top, since I'm sure it wasn't how I say it was, but the way he spoke to me it felt like he was saying. "I read the paper, I watch the news, I subscribe to Time, I know more than you, you're not living in the real world . . ." Yeah, I have never taken lightly to patronizing/condescending people. And he was being frighteningly condescending. And of course I couldn't just say that or else he'd take the friendship hostage again. (Though at times, I really wonder . . . . .) But yeah, enough of that.

I know what my big problem is, though: I'm spread too thin! I know a little about just about anything, but should I pick a topic someone knows, I'm done for. I don't really see it as a bad thing; it just makes me wonder how I'll fit into the world of specialist-job-classes - last time I checked, you had to be a knight, thief, black mage, white summoner, or monk - not a combination.

I sucked at Psyc. I only mention that because of what I'm going to say next. I have always felt like I've understood people as a whole. I know their motivations, their reasoning, what sets them off. What makes them happy. I understand interactions and why people do the things they do. Why do I know this? I have seen a lot of it: in the streets, on the TV, on the movie screen, in my own home . . . it's something I've always been proud of. However, I don't intend to become a psychologist or councillor or something: like I said, I sucked at Psyc. Oh yeah, I'm good with kids too!

So I don't know - I've always been good with my choice of words, and on average people don't act hostile towards me . . . . . who knows, maybe I'll figure out some sort of philosophy out of it . . . but then I'd have to face the "smart people" ripping it up . . . . .

. . . Actually, that could be fun. Intellectuals, bring it on!

Booyaka! (I just might start using that . . .)
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