Sunday, May 1, 2005

   :\\I Need You Like Ben Affleck Needs Acting School\\:

[Playlist] "Traveling" - Utada Hikaru "Kokoro" - Yasunori Mitsuda - Xenogears OST "R O C K S" - Hound Dog - Naruto OST volume 1 [Snippet] We play together as one, Peace B is my network ID. Now I know for sure, I can make my choices on my own. Log in together as one; Connecting to the neverland. Chuka, Chuka, Chu! Getting closer in the name of peace! - ID Peace B - Boa [Continued Existence?] Jai thinks that I should cease to exist, and wonders what's taking me so long to go through with it. It doesn't sound like sarcasm. . . [Pain andAsianPeople] OMG I am in so much pain from last night. It was a long night, but it was a good night, especially since I have 4 days off in a row. We played around all night long, even setting tables at the end of the night. I worked with a good crew on my D-level(because it IS my floor LOL:) Nia, Sang, Catherine (everyone calls her Nicole, I'm the only person who calls her Catherine.) All of our orders went smoothly, Mr. Yount was happy and his wife was so sweet to us all night long, so it was a very very good night. We didn't have any accidents, either; All of the jockeys and horses left in almost the exact same condition as they arrived. We had no meetings, and no one got fussed at unless it was by me (just to make things interesting LOL) and at the end of the night, we played a game where the four of us working D-level raced to get a glass or silverware or a napkin and run to put it on the table before everyone else sets it, otherwise you'll have to carry the respective item back to the station! The work FLEW by and we were all out of breath at the end of it. Speaking of work, Sharonda was talking to me, saying that she wanted to leave her boyfriend and be with me LOL. She asked me, "If I leave him, will you be with me?" Well me being me, I said "oh yeah I sure would," but not really serious about it. I mean, if she left him tomorrow, I wouldn't mind giving her a chance if I'm in a situation where I can do that, but when she said that she wanted me to wait for her until she finished with school (which is about a year,) I felt that she thought I was more of a fool than I let people think I am. She CANNOT expect me to just sit here and wait for her, while she keeps on going on and having fun with the person she's with. I really don't play that way, hell, for some reason Heather comes to mind when I think about that situation (I've never spoken about Heather on here, but she's my worst burn evarrrrrrrr.) I'll always be sweet to Sharhonda, and I'll always think that she's pretty and has a great personality, but there are just some games I refuse to play with people. NOW, while were on the subject of hearing messed up/upsetting sh*t, Jai was really pissing me off yesterday because of her ignorance towards people who live in mobile homes (because I live in one.) I mean, sure, she's lived an easy f*ck*ng life in New Orleans, LA, where you HAVE to have money to live, unless you stay in the projects (there's really no in-the-middle,) but there's really no excuse for what she said and how she said it. It'll be really hard for me to forgive her for that and I may end up holding that against her for a very long time. Oooooooooooooooooooooo yeah while its on my mind (and in notepad.exe where I write down keywords of my day,) I went with Scott to a flea market (I used to go with Darren and his dad before he went to Iraq) and I ended up remembering why that place is SO GREAT! I got this really cool Batman knife, shaped like his bat symbol (like a bat-a-rang) but the outward sides of the wings are razor sharp. I'll have to take a picture and put it on here. . . . .I also scored some 200 disc cd cases for 5 bucks a piece and a bracelet (it was blue, I had to buy it) but the damn thing is too small for my wrist, so I have to find a girl to give it to LOL. Man, I love the flea market again! We have some new Asian owners at the store. They're very nice people and I think that they're awesome, especially their daughters who are sooooo pretty and soooo sweet LOL ;)! They moved the store around, like every other owner did when they acquired it, and after shopping there for almost 12 years, I'm about to start scolding the new owners about moving the godd*amn aisles because I can't find what I need anymore LOL.

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Friday, April 29, 2005

   \\:Got Milk and Mr. Bubbles:\\

ACCORDING TO HOLLY RENEE DAYTON, WITH HER 12 KIDS, I LOOK LIKE A PIMP! [Playlist] "Spanish Guitar" - Toni Braxton "Sakura Saku (Cherry Blossoms Blooming)" - Megumi Hayashibara - Love Hina OST "Birthday Cake" - Cibo Matto - Jet Set Radio Future OST [Snippet] I miss you more than Michael Bay missed the mark, When he made Pearl Harbor. I miss you more then that movie missed the point, And that’s an awful lot girl. And now, now you've gone away, And all I'm trying to say, Is Pearl Harbor sucked and I miss you - "The End Of An Act" - Trey Parker - Team American OST [Got Milk?] Its 3:33AM, and I went late night shopping with Sallie again. She picked out some pajama pants for me, and I ended up taking home these really cool "Got Milk" pants with designs that look like real cow skin! I also got some "Mr. Bubbles" pajama pants too LOL. I got a 250 disc cd case and a pack of 50 CD-R's so I can archive my anime collection (which grows slowly but surely every day) and some more AXE (you know, that crap never works for me like it does in the commercials . . .women only grab my butt. . . . not that its a good thing.) I got a change jar that says "Vacation Fund," even though I don't intend to go on a vacation until the end of this year or maybe next year (but that's bound to change LOL,) I bought it because it was blue and that's my favorite color LOL, just like the expensive-for-its-capacity blue "cool cube" storage cube. Sallie got all kinds of goodies too, like ice cream sandwiches and stuff like that. Thank god for a 24-hour Wally World. Work was pretty productive and everyone left happy, which is always a good thing. Everyone helped everyone out, and at the end of the night we were all able to knock out the tables in about 45 minutes, instead of a couple of hours when we had those slackers there. My tip came out to 15.00, which wasn't bad at all because I worked under one waitress on D-level (I worked with Sharhonda, she's SO PRETTY!) Also, I MANAGED NOT TO BREAK ANY WINE GLASSES OR CATSUP BOTTLES! So we were talking about Joe taking a smoke break, because sometimes Joe comes back sweating from smoking, no one knows why, so I say, "maybe he was masterbating." They roar with laughter and everyone looks at us funny in the employee dining room (they always look at us funny because were "crazy,") but they just don't know how serious I was LOL. Speaking of laughter, I was told that I am the "coolest ever" by the ladies behind the betting windows, because I spend all night long making them all laugh. Since I work on D-level (which is the top floor in the 4-level restuarant,) I have the luxury of shooting the sh*t with everyone who is really interesting. . . .and I get to do it again tonight . . .

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Wednesday, April 27, 2005

   \\:Zero: The Final Chapter:\\

ACCORDING TO HOLLY RENEE DAYTON, I LOOK LIKE A PIMP! [Playlist] "Butterfly" - Tsukiko Amano - Fatal Frame 2: Crimson Butterfly OST "No Reply" - Steve Conte - Cowboy Bebop OST "Thank You!!" - HOME MADE KAZOKU - Bleach OST [Snippet] gonna get you i'm your space boy dive into your heart baby gonna get you like a space boy! wowowowow I need you babe - "Space Boy" - Dave Rogers - Initial Drive OST (one of MAAAAANY) (this is where I got part of the idea for my user name) [Vocabulary Modification] +Chillaxin - I intend to wear this word out like a twenty-dollar whore. . . . . [Add Familiarity?] Song, "Somersault" by Zero 7 - Jai [Stats Alert!!] +HTML Level beta N00b - I now consider myself an accomplished HTML n00b (those two words, accomplished and n00b, REALLY don't go together LOL,) knowing merely beans about HTML, but enough to make some words in bold and this description in italics. No overall level up for this virtual experience. [Feelings For?] Jai just called me and asked me a question during our conversation. I don't know if there was a particular reason, though I feel like I was set up into accepting the question. She asked me if there was anyone I even at least had a crush on. I told her that when I look at women nowadays, I only wonder what they'd do to piss me off; what they'd do to make me break up with them. She really doesn't know that THERE ISa person that I have a crush on (and there may be another), regardless of the fact that she f*cked up with that whole boyfriend ordeal (and I really shouldn't give her any leeway because of that.) I think the biggest reason why she doesn't know is because she doesnt ever read my blog LOL. Oh well to her, she may be trouble to me, just like the rest of them, anyway. . . . . [The Final Chapter?] OMFG I have just read that Fatal Frame 3 is in the making (actually its over 50% completed. . . I'm so late lol) AND I HAVE LINKS TO SCREENIES! I wanted to piss my pants out of anticipated fear and splooge my pants (big first for me lol) out of sheer joy and pleasure when I read the plot and saw the screen shots. Ok, here's the plot from what I've read so far: The heroine, while visiting the haunted mansion, sees her dead fiance (who, if you remembered, died in the mansion.) She then starts to have nightmares and develops a tattoo on her body that matches tattoo's work by the "unfriendly (to say the least)" apparitions who dwell there. There will be 3 playable characters and 2 worlds to play in, the sleeping world (where the nightmares occur) and the waking world. . . I can't wait for it. . . [Back To Work] Its another three days of my jo-bizzle (does that word exist? I'll have to ask Snoop Dogg.) I'm taking my morning sloooooooow in anticipation. I've only had a cup of coffee for breakfast and I'm now here (HTML book at my lap) trying to make all of this awesomeness work out. At 12:00, its off to cut the afro (so my pores can breathe OMG,) and then take 1:30-3 to chillax, shower/shave/dress/smell good from 3-4:30, and its off to work to clock in for 5:00. Awesomeness, indeed, eh?

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   :\\My Evolution as a Human Being and That Extinguishing Fire Inside (Part 1)\\:

--Note: This is the moment in time when I start learning and experimenting with HTML in order to make this thing look awesome. . . .or at least stylish, so bear with me!-- [Music (or what I'm listening to right now)] "Down Without You" - by P.M. Dawn - Boomerang Soundtrack "River of Crystals" - Kimiko Itoh - Ghost In The Shell 2: Innoscence "There'll Never Be Goodbye" - Toshiyuki Honda - Metropolis Soundtrack [Snippet] "I still remember the ways that you touch me, now I know I don't mean anything to you." - Easy Breezy, Utada Hikaru [Self Evolution] I feel very proud to say that as an individual, I've come a very long way. From the child who wanted to become a scientist, to the teenager who wanted to become a fighter pilot, to the person who is writing this now, trekking across that vast threshold into the working world, where the cruelty of reality awaits to slash my childhood and teenage hopes and dreams. When it comes to goals, being older and wiser, I've focused my career goals into computers, something I hold a deep passion for, and something that's more realistically attainable. To be honest with you, I can only remember two people who are either in pursuit of their childhood dream, or is living their dream job. The rest are pursuing other dreams, for a number of reasons, whether it be a simple interest change, or because of a person they hold dear to them (I no longer have to worry about that LOL.) I wonder how things would turn out if we all followed our childish dreams. . . . .I guess there'd be a great abundance of doctors, astronauts and lawyers LOL, and positions opened all over for less desirable jobs. I mean, who actually DOES want to work retail, or work food service [whether fast or a restuarant, like I work,] or work civil service, where one works long hours and gets less money? There's nothing wrong with working these jobs, hell, I love my job working at Silks Restuarant (in the Evangeline Downs Racetrack and Casino,) but I'm trying to pursue something I'd enjoy more, and I really can't imagine anyone who's lifelong dream would to be to work beside me LOL! [Extinguishing Fire] One part of my evolution that's changed for the worse (and I mean WORSE) is what is probalbly that most easily maullable part of the proverbial human soul. I can remember first likes, not loves, because when I was younger I always considered myself too logical to indulge in something as stupid as love. But, like everyone, as I got older, I gave up those ideas in exchange for the belief that love was always true, and everyone, no matter their history or who they are, is trustworthy. Reality has to be either my worst enemy, or my bestest friend, because it sure has a bad habit of crushing whatever makes me happy, yet at the same time showing me the true ways of the world. Nowadays I believe in the verification of anything I'm told, especially if its told by a so-called "significant other." I think its truely a shameful thing that I cannot trust anyone, short of my friends (just the guys) because I've known all of them for such a long time. That fire inside that burns when you see that person you consider to be "the one" is near extinguished, and I find myself checking someone out, figuring out the many secrets they may keep, or how many ways they may hurt me if I let them inside. I wonder just exactly where is that "right person" I'm always hearing about, because my fire's almost out, and I'm becoming extremely impatient . . ..

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Tuesday, April 26, 2005

   ://Love's Endless Possibilities (whether slack-jawed, missing teeth, or dumb as a box of rocks)//:

Well, its so great to have 2 (not one, but 2) consecutive days off RIGHT AFTER PAY DAY!!! I've spent the morning/early afternoon with Scott and Mikel (instead of Rae, Sallie, Danielle, Brooke, and Cindy {Brooke Momma lol}) paying bills, looking for trucks, and scoping out places to live (he's got a place that his aunt and uncle want to rent out to him, and he wants a roommate. Hmmmmmmm sounds good) So on the way back, I was dissing Scott's potential next place to live (which may be MY next place to live) because its in the boonies: W: "Well of course no one crazy would want to come back here, we probably live around crazy people! We'd have a neighbor named Cletus who'd always visit us and lives on the bayou." S: "Yeah, I can hear Cletus now: Mayn, yew guys are da cooliz eva. Yew can use ma boat anytyme ya'll want. But if that n*gger messes wif my daughter. . . **immitates cocking a shotgun, single handed style** He wouldn't want you near his Emma Lou! And you know she'd be all lined up, perfect for you man, even a virgin!" W: "Yeah, of course Emma Lou would be fine as hell, I mean like BLA-BLOOW **motions hands, shaping out a figure like an hourglass, but I quickly grabbed the steering wheel** because that's how it always is in that situation. She'd have ocean blue eyes, golden blonde hair. . . .sh*t ALL OF HER TEETH, but she'd be dumb as a box of rocks like her father. (Immitating Emma:) HEEY WINN, HOW YA DOIN?!" S: "(Immitating Cletus:) EMMA LOU, WHA-CHEW DOIN COMIN OUTSYDE WIF NO CLOTHES ON?? GIT BACK IN DA KITCHEN!" W: "Hey, I'd give her a shot. I'd be like (Immitating myself:) This is my lovely wife Emma Lou **snickers**. Sure, she's in her twenties, and in elementary school, but hey, SHES LEARNING BABY!" Mom has always joked that because of my personality, combined with the fact that I live in the south, and want to move to a southern state (whether it be Florida or Virginia,) I'll end up with a white redneck girlfriend, but Scott said: "You know what would be REALLY ironic?! If you ended up with a BLACK TEXAN REDNECK GIRL!" W: "Her daddy would own a ranch, wear cowboy boots, and drive a Dodge dualey. . . no wait, a FORD dualey, because rednecks HATE Dodge vehicles" But hey, if it happens, it happens. As long as I'm happy where I am at the time, right? I mean, I don't discriminate, I'll give anyone a chance (just look at some of my ex's LOL,) I just so happen to favor white girls with blonde hair and pretty blue eyes! P.S.: I saw Joni today at Bank One, as I was going through the drive through to deposit my check, she was going inside. She acted like she didn't see me, even though she shot a quick peek and quickly looked away (she knows she's guilty,) so if you're reading this, yeah I saw you too. Scott was cracking Ja Rule jokes. . . . "If Ja Rule opened a bank, you know Joni would drop Bank One like a bad habit, Winn!"

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   ://Spilling Chardonay, Breaking Glasses, and My Cigar://

(writing this in "soooooooooooooosaaaaayyyy 9.1" right now) . . . . and what I'm going to do with it . . . . . Is it a crime. . . .that I still want you, and I want you to want me too?? Its 3:33 am right now, and I really need to sleep if I'm going to make to lunch with Rae, Sallie, Brooke, Cindy (Brooke Momma! LOL) and Danielle. I told them that I'm going to end up taking Mikel with me and they'll be able to see just exactly how horrible his behavior is lol. I got to get some rest. . . . . . . . . .anyway, tonight I was back on the party wagon, this time for an assorted group of companies belonging to some kind of association who decided to have a getogether at EVD. The party was a total success, and they LOVED every minute of it. To think that some of the waitresses were saying in the kitchen (Fred told me this, and he's never lied to me before) that I was losing my edge, that I was getting lazy, and how I wasn't working the way I used to/should. . . .they need to blow that sh*t out of their @$$es. They're just jealous because no matter how bummed out I may be feeling, I can still give people a great time (that's why everyone loves Winn!!) This is the part when Sallie would say, "wheres the valve that lets some of that hot air out of your head, Winn?" lol. I managed to spill some Chardonnay being the complete klutz that I am when it comes to wine glasses. Now I CAN say, no wait, I WILL just call the glasses racists, because they always seem to break when I have them on my tray, and never when white people carry them on THEIR tray LOL. "Whahahappenwuz" a party goer wasn't happy with her wine, because she believes that the bartenders mixed it when she wanted her wine plain, so I, with my SUPER NICE GUY persona, decided to find the (well what started out as "the" waitress ended up as "any ol'" waitress) waitress so she could fix the problem. This could have been avoided had SHE in all her gracefulness had taken the wine glass but NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO I decided to save her the slight effort and stoop down and pick up the glass from the table and as soon as I started to stand upright again. . . .BOING, the sumb*tch tips on my tray, SPILLING THE WINE all over me, the carpet, and the tablecloth, rolls off of the tray, bounching off of my stomach, and SMASHING onto the floor. This has got to be the 5th glass this working period (I say working period because I'm thinking in terms of a work week based on my schedule, Thursday being the start and Monday being the finished with 2 days off following,) and I'm getting fed up with wine glasses. . . . . I got a cigar from Sallie (even though I don't smoke) because a customer left her a box of some. I'm not sure at all what to do with it yet, but some answer will come up. Until then, it just sits on my desk, amongst all of my other junk (I really need to clean this desk. . . ) - - In other news, I am almost done downloading the newest Red Hat Fedora distro so I can see if its good enough (or n00b proof enough lol) for me to use AND I have a gentoo distro ISO (but I'm afraid to install it because I heard that its too difficult to handle the installation when you're a linux n00b like I am.) I ALSO (FINALLY) got mom her own PC so she can surf the internet and play "The Sims" and stay out of my hair FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE (I wish.) Lol, ok, maybe I can't have that, but at least she can leave my PC alone, y'know? Instead of having to shell out 1-200.00 for XP Home or Pro, I'm going to hook her PC up with Win98, so it can run at its fastest possible, connect to my broadband internet, via a wireless Linksys router and a wireless PCI card. As soon as I find the right distro for me, I'm dumping Windows and its security issues completely for Linux. Though there are alot of FREE Linux distribution images out there, I saw one distro in particular called Lycoris, but they want about 40 bucks for it. Its an awesome looking distro, and I think it may be worth that 40.00, so if I'm not satisfied with any of this free stuff, I'll buy that instead. Now I want to acquire a low performance PC to serve as a fileserver, then I will be all set!

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Monday, April 25, 2005

   ://Visiting family and Investments//: - STILL STRUCTURING POST!

:> Insert Linux line command here:\ I went to see Dad and the family this evening. It was refreshing to see them and to know that I'm missed by them. Before I left, he gave me some money (the amount I cant disclose because, "its just between me and you") and he wants me to invest it in something called a C.D. (Sallie says it has something to a Certificate of Deposit,) and he wants me to "forget about it." It made me really happy to know that he still worries about me and my future. I went to Sallie's house and stayed there until about 12:30 watching "Friends" on DVD with her (lol) :> Insert Linux line command here:\

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Sunday, April 24, 2005

   ://Miscommunication and Cats//:

Pimping out a Dodge Neon is like giving an ugly chick a boob job.. It's pointless, a waste of money, and its still ugly... Hmmmmm there seems to have been a little miscommunication between Jai and myself every time we spoke. It seems that she had a boyfriend but she NEVER told me about him. Today, I was on the phone with her (making the most of my time, like I always do lol) and she kept saying that she was sad. After hearing her say that "all men suck" time and time and time again, I finally got her to narrow it down to "Shane sucks," and I found that whomever that person was is the reason why she's sad, because they were together. I was under the impression that she was trying to be with him, and he went with someone else, because she never mentioned a boyfriend to me before, and when I started to say, "well, why didn't you tell me about him," she got all stupid with that, "so do I have to tell you every time I get a boyfriend???" line (which is nothing more than an indication that she knows that she f*cked up now LOL,) so its time to pull out the ol blacklist. That being said, I think I can solve the "I never hide anything from you, Winn, but I have to suddenly go without warning or explanation" mystery. Theres got to be something in the U.S. water supply that makes all women think and act alike, eh? WELL, were getting another freakin cat, and I could never be more pissed at my mother and sister, because its well known "'round the watercooler" that mom doesn't take care of animals, but she wanted another cat after we've been through a dozen of them already AND she just dumped 1300 bucks into a new sofa set because those little b*st*rds destoryed our last one. She insists that its "her cat" but that will change into "its everyones cat" once it starts sh*tting all over the place. Maybe I should move in with Scott after all . .. . .

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   ://Making up for last saturday, and I need a new body. . . . //:

Start:\> login.exe User:\> Spaceboy_2501 /routine "Post Entry" That's right, boys and girls, I need a new body. I've worn this one to almost zero functionality last nizzle, so if you know anyone on the black market who's got a body for sale, tell em I wanna trade mine in for a bigger, better (handsomer ;) ) one! We really busted tail last night, and did a great turnaround performance-wise over how we did last Saturday. I didn't expect us to do well, though, because the afternoon/evening/night sure as hell started horribly. We (well not all of us, the servers, Joe, Derrick, Brandon, and myself, I mean) were TESTED on the menu. I did 'ok' on most of the food, though I never served a shrimp platter in my life (at least I never noticed that it was a shrimp platter,) but I COMPLETELY bombed the part about alcohol knowledge. For god's sake, IM NOT EVEN OLD ENOUGH TO DRINK (I'm just 20 ppl **embarassed**,) so I really don't know any brands of premium beer, and I sure never heard of Merlot or Chardonnay before I started working here. So to justify the test, Christine said that she was told to let go of 10 people, and I wouldn't be surprised if my head isn't on the cutting board because of my lack of alcoholic beverages knowledge (though I heard that everyone did pretty bad,) so that put alot of people uneasy and in a bad mood. Rae was in tears ALL NIGHT LONG. . . . .it was like every 5 freakin minutes she cried because **someone** told her something mean (usually saying something that she insists the director says, so not too many people have respectable thoughts of him right now. . .I refuse to believe that he'd be so mean) So I busted my butt, hell, we all busted our butts and Mr. Yount was happy (though were not "there" yet,) and Rae stopped crying, so that's all that really matters, but I'm hurting ALL OVER MY BODY. I ran up and down the steps, cleaning wherever I saw we needed it, bringing food out wherever we needed it (I was bringing drinks out, but apparently that's a big no-no since like yesterday. . . . or some BS like that, and I JUST got my bar license to sell alcohol now.) Hmm, I'm starting to lose my place here, though I think I lost it a long time earlier in this post LOL. . ..well all in all we took all of our worries and anger and such and still made a great night out of it. Also, my legs are starting to look more muscular ;). . . .but the pain suxxors. User:\> Spaceboy_2501 /routine "Save Entry" Start:\> logout.exe

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Saturday, April 23, 2005

   ://Yesterday sucked. . . .//:

Start:\> login.exe User:\> Spaceboy_2501 /routine "Post Entry" Yesterday was ok, work SUCKED! When we got there, we had a meeting with Mr. Yount, where he fussed at all of us for crashing (and burning) Saturday, but fortunately he still has faith in us. So he was pissed all evening, and OF COURSE, I have to work that floor and his table. Well, when he got there it went well, but it was weighing on my mind that he was upset all night long, and I spent the whole time trying NOT to make it worse. Heather (the waitress I worked with yesterday) was also doing the same thing, and in the process forgot to ask him about the chef's soup and the chef's special (both change daily, so it has to be told to the customer.) In addition to that, his fries were cold AND his steak did not come with a steak knife. Believe "you 'n me," I DID NOT want to go to his table LOL. I want to see if I can work level A (the largest, craziest floor to work, but furthest away from Mr. Yount's floor) tonight, but knowing Rae she's going to say, "oh no baby, I need you up here with me," and I'll end up working level D once again . .. . .let's hope that nothing happens to piss him off tonight .. . . Oh yeah, I checked out the first few Trigun episodes. . . .wow is he goofy. . . User:\> Spaceboy_2501 /routine "Save Entry" Start:\> logout.exe

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