Thursday, June 16, 2005

[\\:Don't You Just Hate It:\\]

[Playlist and Snippet] Like a cat in heat, stuck in a moving car A scary conversation, shut my eyes, can't find the brake What if they say that you're a climber Naturally, I'm worried if I do it alone Who really cares, cause it's your life You never know, it could be great Take a chance cause you might grow Oh, ah, oh Like an echo pedal, you're repeating yourself You know it all by heart Why are you standing in one place Born to blossom, bloom to perish Your moment will run out Cause of your sex chromosome I know it's so messed up, how our society all thinks (for sure) Life is short, you're capable Oh, ah, oh - "What You Waiting For" - Gwen Stefani - Love, Angel, Music, Baby [Profile] Second in command of the elite Public Section 9, Major Motoku Kusanagi (known often as "The Major") operates an advanced cyborg body created by MegaTech as part of her contract to work for the military police, equipped w/ a nearly unhackable electronic brain, and a type 2902 Thermoptic Camoflague. She is extremely skilled at operating her body due to the fact that she's been operating since childhood, having to give up her human body when she contracted an illness. - From the popular Ghost In The Shell Series [Not the End!] When one day things are going well, then the next you find out that its not what it seems to be? Well idk why I wasn't told of anything BEFORE I got paid, but apparantly I just found out that were having all kinds of problems and mom's here losing her mind, crying rivers into the floor, like its the end of the world, because that's all she does when we have a dilemma. . . its going to be a long, stressful end-of-the-month, or until I come up w/ the usual solution. . . . . . . .

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[\\:I've Seen The Future and Christina.:\\]

[Playlist and Snippet] I stand alone, and watch you fade away like clouds High up and in the sky I'm strong and so cold As I stand alone Goodbye, So long, Adieu. Oh how I love you so, lost in those memories And now you've gone I feel the pain, feeling like a fool, Adieu My love for you burns deep Inside me, so strong Embers of times we had And now here I stand lost in a memory I see your face and smile. - "Adieu" - Yoko Kanno - Cowboy Bebop OST [New Friends] DarkRosesSea Forest Sage Saint2005 [Digital Media] I've seen the future of media worldwide, and its fascinating yet scary at the same time. I went to www.albinoblacksheep.com and found this flash movie that predicted what would happen from the beginning of the internet onto the year 2015. I sure hope this guy (or gal) is right about the things they predicted. It showed The Google Grid, establishing a news service that anyone can contribute to if they have real news, tied in w/ keyhole's advanced mapping service, tied in w/ gps. It showed a ipod capable of broadcasting voice and video + gps showing what's going on exactly where you are, in case of a wreck, sale, etc. It's all amazing. [Christina] I've seen Christina and I didn't even know it (now I've forgotten what she looks like too.) I was working in the buffet when I noticed this beautiful girl sit down in the first side booth closest to the entrance. I kept looking at her thinking, "man, she's pretty" and she kept catching me looking, so I eventually just made myself ignore her as not to start anything in the buffet. Come to find out that she was Christina. I said, "I'm just upset that you saw me all ugly and busted up for work!"

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Wednesday, June 15, 2005

[\\:I'm a busser by nature:\\]

[Playlist and Snippet] What's wrong with the world, mama People livin' like they ain't got no mamas I think the whole world addicted to the drama Only attracted to things that'll bring you trauma Overseas, yeah, we try to stop terrorism But we still got terrorists here livin' In the USA, the big CIA The Bloods and The Crips and the KKK But if you only have love for your own race Then you only leave space to discriminate And to discriminate only generates hate And when you hate then you're bound to get irate, yeah Badness is what you demonstrate And that's exactly how anger works and operates Nigga, you gotta have love just to set it straight Take control of your mind and meditate Let your soul gravitate to the love, y'all, y'all - "Snake Eater" - Norihiko Hibino; Cynthia Harrell, vocals - Metal Gear Solid 3: Snake Eater OST - Very James Bond-esq, while maintaining that MGS atmosphere w/ Cynthia Harrell's strong and commanding voice! Today work was slow. . . .I had lunch with Brandy in the EDR. Pretty much any kind of day I have lunch with Brandy is automatically a good day. It really wasn't haveing lunch, it was mroe of her having lunch and me eating her pears while talking LOL. I found out about this dirty online game too, where you trade your real friends for better friends. . . its messed up. I've heard about problems w/ one of my ex's from her mom. . . its blown my mind. . . .

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Tuesday, June 14, 2005

[\\:999-999-9999:\\]

[Playlist and Snippet] What a thrill... With darkness and silence through the night What a thrill... I'm searching and I'll melt into you What a fear in my heart But you're so supreme! I give my life Not for honor, but for you **Snake Eater** In my time there'll be no one else Crime, it's the way I fly to you **Snake Eater** I'm still in a dream, Snake Eater! Someday you go through the rain Someday you feed on a tree frog This ordeal, the trial to survive For the day we see new light! - "Snake Eater" - Norihiko Hibino; Cynthia Harrell, vocals - Metal Gear Solid 3: Snake Eater OST - Very James Bond-esq, while maintaining that MGS atmosphere w/ Cynthia Harrell's strong and commanding voice! I just got a phone call from a 999-999-9999. Being the fact that I'm not very stupid, I didn't answer.

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[\\:SOOO so bored:\\]

[Playlist and Snippet] Well I was layin' out wire on number 9 Now when she come down to earth And she was talkin' real loud All about she was gonna save the universe I went and snuck a lil' peek in her blue eyes And words just aren't enough She had me off and runnin' Could it be that I got bored and lonely Could it be that I'm just dumb and horny Could it be that Lady Luck has smiled herself on me She wore rattlesnake boots, a sassy mood She had me laughin' in my tears The most beautiful thing, so young and sweet A little green behind the ears She took me higher then I ever been Lordy what have I been missin' Now she is all I'm diggin' Could it be that I got bored and lonely Could it be that I'm just old and horny Could it be that Lady Luck has smiled herself on me She's smilin' down on me, yeah - "Diggin'" - Yoko Kanno - Cowboy Bebop OST [It's Going To Be Great. . . ] [01:19] Dustin: did i tell you about our bob saget site? [01:20] Genocidic187: nope sure havent [01:20] Dustin: me and my friend cody are going to make a complete bullsh*t site, called bobsagetonline.com [01:21] Genocidic187: thatt's gonna be awesome [01:21] Dustin: lmao [01:21] Dustin: yeah basically we will have crazy and idiotic stories about bob saget [01:21] Dustin: and i want to make sure its legal Thats right, otaku's, Bobsagetonline.com is COMING! Featureing images, soundclips, and stories about the man himself, Bob Saget. Don't miss out on something so great, which is basically anything pertaining to Bob Saget!

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Sunday, June 12, 2005

[\\:Long Nights and long morning after:\\]

[Playlist and Snippet] something that you do i really can't explain the way you make me smile the way you make me love you when you're shining... diamonds don't make promises or decieve me they don't lie all they do shine like the sun stars up in the sky i see them in your eyes can i see them now? yes, i see them now little diamonds please don't go away let me love you can i keep you near? let me hold you dear ever more don't know what it is your magic sparkle kiss little diamonds i'm yours - "Diamonds" - Ilaria Graziano - Cowboy Bebop OST: COWBOY BEBOP Tank! THE! BEST! - Another song featuring Ilaria Graziano's beautiful voice [Ice Cream] [20:09] Genocidic187: trade your dead snake that you KILLED IN COLD BLOOD for some ice cream [20:09] Holly: it was trying to eat me [20:09] Holly: gosh [20:09] Holly: i had to kil it [20:09] Holly: kill [20:09] Genocidic187: I know thats what I tell people too, dont worry [20:10] Holly: shut it [20:10] Holly: ! [20:10] Genocidic187: lol [Crappy Night] I spent the end of the night talking to Brooke for a good hour or so. She wanted to go out, but no one else would go w/ us, and I have work at 10am (which is 8 hours from now.) She should consider herself special, because I gave her some extra information about myself and my life that no one else knows over at Evangeline Downs. . . . . .I on the other hand learned a few things more about her, and that's always awesome to know a little more than everyone else does about someone LOL. She looked awesome tonight dressed up to the nines, its just a shame that no one went anywhere. . . . I didn't get to talk to Con tonight like I wanted. . . .I hope she's getting some much needed sleep, because I sure won't get any until Sunday evening/Monday. . . . ***UPDATE*** I did get to talk to Con, but she doesn't seem very cheery. . . . I'm worried about her . . . .

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Saturday, June 11, 2005

   [\\:Underappreciated:\\]

[Playlist and Snippet] With every lie that I lived Part of me would fade Into this empty shadow I've become And now I feel so numb I no longer know myself But I still know you I call And there is no reply Like some phantom cry On ears too far away I close my eyes and watch as my life passes by The only thing I see is you For all the times you walked the line for me and standing by my side I say thank you Here lies my life It never felt that real to me - "River Of Crystals" - Kimiko Itoh - Ghost In The Shell 2: Innocense OST - GREAT SONG, I recommend that you hear it many many many many times over. I'm sooooooooooooooooooo not appreciated when I try to do something sweet! I just took a catnap and had this weird dream that I was living in a world where this king had made some sort of pact with powerful machines who helped him conquer the world. As usual, I was part of some resistance trying to overthrow him. I remember escorting someone important as deep underground as I could because the machines were on patrol. The look of the world was as if we'd just came out of a big war. . . .it was in shambles and I never got to see exactly what one of those monster machines looked like, but the 'known' feeling was that them as a species were immensely powerful.

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   [\\:Work, Myspace, Holly, and I'm becoming my mother. . .:\\]

[Playlist and Snippet] And I'd give up forever to touch you 'Cause I know that you feel me somehow You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be And I don't want to go home right now And all I can taste is this moment And all I can breathe is your life 'Cause sooner or later it's over I just don't want to miss you tonight And I don't want the world to see me 'Cause I don't think that they'd understand When everything's made to be broken I just want you to know who I am - "Iris" - Goo Goo Dolls - (no idea) [Work] Well work was hell. From around 6-7 to 10 the line never shrunk. Morons **cough** I mean customers were sitting down taking their sweet time, while we have angry people wondering why its taking so long to be seated. I worked the floor ofr those hours that it was so busy, while Chris 'worked' the back, and when we swapped places, as it turned out, he DIDN'T do all that I thought he did. . . there was a sink full of glasses not put away for the dishwasher to clean, and like 5-6 tubs FULL of dishes to be taken to the dishwasher. It was horrible, doing all of that work when there were THREE bussers on the patio, the SMALLER side. Yet another slap in the face by this job. . . the good news, though, is that the racetrack will be open in about TWO WEEKS! I can't wait to go back! [Myspace] I established a myspace profile, after shunning it for so long, it seems to be beneficial for networking. [Holly] Well after establishing my profile, I noticed that Holly sent me a message that she posted new pictures. I went over to her myspace and saw these FINE pictures of Holly. I was like, wow! She also said that I was fine too (she said it first, and I looked at hers afterwards), and that made me happy LOL! That's got to be the BEST visual compliment I've received in a long time (since I left the racetrack, actually!) I mean sure she's FINE and all but OMG she's so tricked too. When I told her that I was writing this blog, she wanted me to write some good things about her, so I asked her "well when do you ever write about me?" and she told me that she already did. . . . .but after she read what I wrote, she said that she tricked me and that she never did write about me .. . . . so now I'm sad and hurt. . . :( [Mother] My mother is afraid (and I think she's right) that I am becoming as cold and bitter and untrusting as she is. I'll elaborate on that later. . .

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Thursday, June 9, 2005

   [\\:UBUNTU and Mac, lashing out against the wrong people. . . !:\\]

[Playlist and Snippet] Late at night, I think about you sometimes I don't cry, I wonder if you're alright Late at night, I think about you sometimes Wonder why, I wonder if you're alright, Thinking of the love we made Round and round, Now you're gone Now you're back again Confusing true love and pain Threw me down Now I'm back on my feet again Are you asleep Or are you still afraid of the dark? Hugs and Kisses, pictures and romances, Things that I wish I could do without How many nights did I wonder in the dark, Counting secrets of my heart, Now and then, I wonder 'bout, Whose seeing sleeping with you now, How many times did I kiss you in the dark? Watching memories depart Then again I wonder 'bout But I don't give a damn about you. - "Wonder 'Bout" - Utada Hikaru - (no idea) [Ruling the WORLD With Linux] [16:59] Genocidic187: i keep dreaming of a HUGE fileserver, accessible by me and my beautiful Ubuntu . . . ruling the world. . [16:59] Dustin: lmao [17:00] Genocidic187: lol [17:00] Dustin: me and you join forces [17:00] Dustin: to make the most powerful linux server [17:00] Dustin: and dominate the world [17:00] Dustin: and distrubte p0rn to every catholic family [17:04] Genocidic187: lol [17:04] Genocidic187: YES [17:04] Genocidic187: YEAH! MUHAAHAHAHAH [World War VI War of Winn and Truc!!!] Truc drew me this picture of us going to war with one another! [Ubuntu, Mac, and YOU!!!!] A snapshot of my Ubuntu desktop, Grenadier background. Ubuntu - Well, I just remembered earlier today that in the midst of running out of space on the 40GB partition (and freeing a few gigs of space,) that I have a linux operating system (distrobution) laying dormant and unused. The reasons why it wasn't used pertaining to sound drivers (that I plan to figure out later,) I decided to throw caution to the wind, and w/ help from Dustin, successfully reinstalled Ubuntu 5.04, "The Hoary Hedgehog" distribution, AND overcame my problem with it, which was mounting (then AUTOMOUNTING) my FAT32 and NTFS's filesystems! So I'm a pretty happy Linux user. . . .at the moment. . .and no, I'm not going to use Linux entirely over Windows, its just too popular and I run alot of critical applications. Now, I was VERY impressed with the fact that Ubuntu INSTANTLY detected mom's Windows 98 PC on the network, so that's pretty awesome, and the fact that it runs 2 to 3 times more efficient then Windows XP does on the same system. Mac - I read a really interesting article about Mac suing some of their fansites for "predicting" some of the Mac products to some (that have come out) and are demanding the names of the people who have been leaking information. I think its outrageous that they're doing that to THEIR FANS . . .the people who support their products, just because they're announcing products to come, I mean that's the best FREE media attention to have to the perfect audience. I myself predict that Mac's not going to have a very good financial future unless they fix things like that up. Another good indication that they're not doing well is the fact that there's a rumor going around that they're going to modify their proprietary hardware/software to run on Intel architecture instead of the IBM PowerPC processors. That's going to cause them to lose alot of hardcore Mac customers. . . .on the other hand, it may make it possible for them to drop their prices and draw in a new flavor of customers who are willing to try out the Mac. I've never had a problem w/ Mac myself, but when I do eventually get one, I'd like it to be the more efficient PowerPC architecture over the lameo Intel architecture. . . . You - I also read that studies say that IQ ratings are going UP, instead of down like people have predicted due to the growing population playing video games and enjoying digital media in their spare time. . . . .ummmm my opinion . . . . IN YO FACE, YA B*STARDS!!!! That is all LOL!

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[\\:Yet Another Boring Day:\\]

[Playlist and Snippet] I see ya blowin' me a kiss It doesn't take a scientist To understand what's going on baby If you see something in my eye Let's not over analyze Don't go too deep with it baby So let it be what it'll be Don't make a fuss and get crazy over you and me Here's what I'll do I'll play loose Run like we have a day with destiny - "Crush" - Jennifer Paige - (no idea) (1:41AM. . . ) Con says: Uhhh, I mean... *totally innocent eyes* Winn says: no fooling me, Con, you've got to wake up PRE-TEE early to fool Winn Winn says: that or be incredibly smart .. .you may have something there, Con Con says: hmm.. and it IS early! Winn says: wow Winn says: i guess you got me! [Works Ups and Downs] I went to visit Chris and Rae before I started working and we had a good talk. I almost left w/o giving Rae the usual hug and kiss, too. . .actually I did leave, but I turned around and ran back into the office LOL. She knew why I had turned around. Work was dull. I was the only busser on the floor because the other one left and someone decided that Winn should get f*cked. Unfortunately for them, IM STILL OK! I worked things out and got the job done, w/ the help of the servers. They even helped me break down my (two instead of one) stations. I made 12 bucks in tips tonight! I also got to see Brandy as A BONUS (Brandy yay!!) She got my email and asked me about my Spaceboy2501 (myotaku) name. I explained it to her, but she hasn't gotten that deep enough into anime to understand, but its ok, I will school her. . . Hmmm what else about work .. .Brooke branded me w/ her name again. .

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