Monday, June 27, 2005

[\\:Disappointments:\\]

[Playlist and Snippet] Cold fire clenched to my heart In the blue of night Torn by this pain, I paint your name in sound And the girl of the dawn With eyes of blue, And angel wings The songs of the season are her only crown Broken mirror A million shades of light The old echo fades away But just you and I Can find the answer. And then, We can run to the end of the world - "Small Two or Peices" - Yasunori Mitsuda(composer,) Joanne Hogg(vocals) - Xenogear OST (Ending Song) - I'd advise anyone to download this song. It's a beautiful piece. [Almost Over?] I just want to sit down and cry out of relief, because all of the negetive things that's been happening in my life are starting to slowly turn around. For starters, I'm back in the clubhouse, mom starts her new position on the 13th of this month, I got to talk on the phone with Con, AND Darren's on break from Iraq for (not ONE) but two weeks. Now don't get me wrong, I (personally) still get my fair share of negetivity, with bills and other things in my life that I'm worried about right now, but with the ratio of good things to not so good things looking the way it does, I don't think its worth worrying about the negetive things. [From the Cover Page (Disappointments)] Doesn't it REALLY suck when you lose respect for someone you really had a really high opinion of, and/or really cared about because you found something out about them that you didn't find acceptable. . ? It's always got to be someone who'd seem like they'd do no wrong. . . [First Clubhouse Day] It was a long day at the clubhouse, for such a short amount of time we worked. We worked about 4 and a half hours, but not everyone wanted to work. . .some wanted to stand around and gossip, or be crazy. . . until Christine (my Manager) came up and got "stoopid" on everyone! Then they all wanted to work quietly as if she was the bad guy. It's crap like this that keeps us with problems. It's just too bad we didn't start cleaning and such earlier, where we could afford to get rid of the people who aren't willing. Now, were stuck with them because were about to reopen, and it'd be just stupid to fire people at such a critical moment. [Moonshine and You (or should I say me)] Darren brought some Moonshine from Ireland on the way home. Its 110% alcohol. . . .so strong, that when I took a gulp (straight, of course, the only way I drink something), and started talking to Darren again THE MOONSHINE CUT ME OFF LOL! It took a second or two, but it was pure FIRE WATER! It was as if I swallowed some gasoline, and placed a mop on my tongue. . . . WOW! I brought some home for mom to try, and Darren insisted that she doesn't smell it, just take a sip. . . .she'd liked to die by the expression on her face LOL. [Social Acceptance?] Reading Kristen's myspace.com blog, I came across something she was talking about, saying that when you have sex you gain a sort of social acceptance from other people. I've always felt as though I stand out w/ my peers, whether they be friends or co-workers, or just people I see down the street. I think this is the reason. . . .

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