Friday, September 25, 2009

Meh.... We have a substitute today for Shelby Singers, so that means that I'm in charge to day...... I really don't feel like taking control right now. I'd rather sleep..... Lucky for me, everyone should be busy all day today! ^_^ I just have to make sure we stay that way..... I really dislike being president some days.....

I talked to Axline the other day! ^_^ I feel better now that I have some general direction to follow, but I would feel even better if I wasn't going to fail miserably either way. He said the only way to stop an attraction to someone is to (a) Find something negative about him and blow it up ten fold; or (b) Just let it happen.
Question time!!!!
Should I fight this or let it happen?
If I fight it, I guess I could find something negative, but everything I've ever thought of have all been things that I can easily overlook. I don't know if that's because he's my best friend, or if I care that much..... (if there's even a difference.....) I REALLY don't want to let this happen. It would be wrong on so many levels. If I fight it, there's the question of "what if?" If I don't, and things go bad, I could be losing the closest person that I have to me right now........ I HATE TEENAGE EMOTIONS!!!!!!!!! UGH!!!!

I feel like something out of La Traviatta..... Except Alfredo in this case isn't fawning over Violetta. The only thing in common between the two situations is that Me and Violetta are both fighting this attraction...... The thing is she went for it.
My friend just started playing this song on the piano, and it really has me thinking? Why am I suddenly so fond of him? Each day that passes we get closer and closer. I'm lucky enough to see a side to him that not very many other people get to see. I see the beauty in him, I see his true purity and the innocence that rests in that small child hidden deep within himself. When I look into his eyes, I can see the hurt and the saddness..... I can see his passion and his burning desire to let himself live. All these things I see only because he's allowed me to do so. He hates to open up to people and so do I. Yet, I've opened up more to him than I have to anyone. He knows me better than I know my self. I go to him for everything, but lately I haven't. I've been trying to sheild myself from this new found level of emotion....





AWKWARD!!!!!!!!!

~Marissa
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Thursday, September 24, 2009

They cancelled the blood drive. Too many people passing out.....
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I'm about to go to a blood drive.... I've never given blood before..... I'ev had it drawn, though, so it can't be too bad. lol

I'm FINALLY going to get to talk to Ax today. If I don't I will be highly upset!! LOL just kidding.

I have two rehearsals to day and it didn't even phase me..... I'm prepared, I just don't fee like it today (SHOCKER!!!!!!!!!)
The Opera was AMAZING last night!!!! It was so sad, but the best part was how there was a whole song about drinking! "We drink for pleasure! We drink for Joy!!!!!!" Lol Italian people..... ^_^

~Marissa
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Wednesday, September 23, 2009

At school again! ^_^
I'm about to go to a Junior/Senior Class Meeting in a minute..... Fun? No.

Today, I hope I get to talk to Axline...... I'm VERY confused and he always seems to know what to do, so hopefully he can help. If he can't then he always knows just what to say to make me feel better........ I think that's all I need lol is to fool better.

Also today, I'm going to the Opera!!!! I'm so excited!!!!! I've never been to an opera!!!!!! SQUEEEE!!!! It'll be good for me to hear some dramatic voices like my own. Hopefully it'll help me gain some confidence about the All-State Auditions.

Speaking of All-State, I'm in a quartet with Swease-myster, Chala, and Sheehy..... That'll be interesting..... That's four different voices right there...... Dramatic, powerful, pop, and theatrical. All in one group. (in case you're wondering, that's Me, Machala, Sweasy, and Sheehy). I'm just worried about blend. If we can do only that and make music, I will be satisfied. (I kinda wanna make it, too..... XD)

~Marissa
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Tuesday, September 22, 2009

Tonight, More Chips (damnit....), and Ask Axline!!!!! Squeee!!!!!
I'm sitting here waiting for Blast to start...... (at school again! ^_^) hahahahahaha
Phillip can't come at all this week. :( He has to work on getting his stuff together....... fun! jk It's gonna be weird not having my Bester here this week, but it's all good lol. I've got, like,..... two routines to teach today! (yay?)

I'm so sick of chips, but I'm eating a bag of Lay's Barbeque chips........ I'm so SICK of chips!!!!!!! UGH they've been kicking my ass.... LOL

So, tonight I get to do my favorite activity: Ask Axline!!!!! I love that guy! He's, what, just shy of 7'? He's Big and Beefy and he's a giant Teddy-bear!!!! He always has THE best advice!!! I'm going to go to him for advice on my Bester...... Hopefully the all-knowing know's how to handle this one! ^_^'

~Marissa
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Monday, September 21, 2009

Phillip, Chips, and LOL
Last night I realized that I've been really relieving my stress on Phillip..... Basically, I've been really mean to him lately...... What I don't understand is why he puts up with it... I wouldn't if I were him. LOL I told him I was sorry and that I was a little pissed that he didn't say anything, and he said, "I'd rather it be me than someone else, bacause not everyone can handle that side of you."
We wrestled today at Derrek's house. I'm pretty sure I won, although it was "technically" considered a draw. It was fun though! Maybe instead of getting angry at him, I could just wrestle him instead? hahaha

All we ate at Derreks' was chips. All anyone brought was chips. I now HATE chips. And at todays "rehearsal" we rehearsed for one hour and goofed off the rest! (wrestled) hahahaha I love watching the expressions of the old sequins girls! They aren't used to weird co-ed humor. They're more accustomed to girlie type humor hahaha.

Some comments from my last post really made my day. I thought I would take this time to relpy lol
FML: F*** My Life
I think I like alphose13's interpretations better, though! hahaha those made my day! ^_^

~Marissa
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Sunday, September 20, 2009

FML.
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I think I just realized that I have a hot best friend......... AKWARD!


~ 0_o
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Friday, September 18, 2009

Marissa of the Rebellion! (doesn't have that same ring to it.....) LOL
So..... I'm at school now...... Fun fun fun! lol

Homecomming is tomight and I'm really excited in a lame kinda way. I love how I can barely stand thie athletes at this school, but I somehow manage to have the most school spirit.... weird? I think so! hahaha
Seussical is also tonight, but since there are eight performances and one homecomming, I'll think I'll go and usher and afterwards head back up here for the game! ^_^

I have to catch up on my Latin..... I have a test on tuesday and I'm so not prepared...... Sad? Definately. lol so I guess I'm having a cram session? Guess so. ^_^

I'm really tired......

In my awsome rebellious ways, I have refused to wear a polo on Blue/Gold Day. I was going to be even more rebellious and wear jeans, but I chickened out because I didn't want to get written up. I also left my hoodie at home because I wasn't going to hide my rebellion, but halfway to the bus stop, guess what happens? It starts to rain. Hard. When I got on the bus, my hair was dripping. I'm glad that I used that anti-frizz stuff last night, or I would be so screwed...... I think I'm a little bit drier now, so that's good LOL. (How many hours later??)

And on that note, Toodle-loo!!!!
~Marissa
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Thursday, September 17, 2009

I feel like me and my Bester are growing distant.... We don't really talk much anymore or anything. We'll exchange an almost hello... does that count? .....I didn't think so. I tried to call him the other night, but he didn't answer, and the only thing I said to him yesterday was "Get off me!" (I was in Captain Mode -.-) I hate that we're starting to grow apart.... this always seems to happen when I get really close to someone. We always grow apart. Is this the reccurring trend? I sure hope not..... I guess this has just not been my day for dealing with those of the opposite sex.

~Marissa
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