Tuesday, January 31, 2006

The Post From Hell

Well, bad luck always seems to find me. If you ask my why, I would not be able to give you a good answer. I've somewhat gotten over this girl i've had feelings for, though I still think about her at times, but there's no point in one-sided affection. I'm starting to become like my friend... Love just isn't worth seeking anymore, and after my 13th break-up, love has just been slapping me in the face. (Yes, throughout my whole life, i've had 13 girlfriends, all who I cared so much for, but 12 broke-up with me, and I only broke-up with one because she cheated on me). I've been single for a while now, and though I get so many oppertunities to date someone, I always refused because I always either thought of someone, or I saw ahead of time that it would never work. I would NEVER date a girl for lust, only love, because I follow my heart, not what's in my pants. Unfortunatley, a lot of people make the Love/Lust mistake and date for all the wrong reasons. I only date when my heart yearns for someone, to be in their presence, to be the one desire of the one I love, do be with them forever. I am just sick of love now. It's something I refuse to believe in anymore. I've held back for too long waiting on people, and with no satisfaction for myself, only for others. It makes me just want to abandon all that is before me and leave everyone and everything. Aside from love issues, i'm sick with a sore throat and a progressing headache. I may not be able to go to school tomorrow, which is fine, because it'll allow me time to clean up my room, and decide on what to do with my life. I am in a position where I have to make a lot of choices, and just one mistake will definatley screw me over. Megacon is around the corner, and i'm anxiously waiting to go. So far, I finished my Kiyo Takamine (from Zatch Bell), and all I need to do now is finish the Spell Book, and either make a Zatch, find a Zatch cosplayer, or buy a Zatch plushie as soon as I arrive at Megacon. I've been practicing Kiyo's voice and personality, and I can tell i'm good at it, since I get glomped on a daily basis from my friends sister because of it. She's a big Zatch Bell fan and Kiyo is her favorite character, so ya, go figure ^^;. My friends and I are working on a new Live Action Sailor Moon, and I shall be writing the script soon. We're working on everything, and hopefully with Metrocon's approval and support, hold auditions at Metrocon for the roles. So far, the empty roles are the Sailor Scouts, the Bad Guy and his Henchmen, and background people. The roles taken are of Tuxedo Mask, and Sailor Moon. So ya, there you have it. If you live in florida and wanna be in it, hit me up with your request. Last thing to post about... I'm officially selling crap on e-bay. Horray! Not.. I'm selling yu-gi-oh cards, computer parts, clothing, and anything else I can get rid of that I no longer need. So far I got one bid on a card. $8.00 is the bid, so I hope I get more bids or a Buy Now for $10.00. If I find anything else worth selling, i'm posting it up. I'm also building up my pay-pal account with depositing and all that good stuff. Thank you mom for giving me the pay-pal and e-bay accounts! I really hope to sell a lot of stuff. Anyway, that's it about the post from hell. Nothing else to say about anything, except this... To the one I have affection for, I hope you are well and I hope you're happy, because I will never be at ease unless your heart is content. Please forget about me or anything i've ever admitted to you, because I was a fool to ever think I could win the heart of the greatest girl ever. Be happy, and find the one truly for you, and I shall give you my full support, because i'm always here for you and no one else. ((P.S. I'm an official member of the Raptors now. RAWR!))

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