Friday, March 10, 2006

I Just Want Out...

I've been feeling pretty bad lately... Sore, tired, in pain physically and emotionally. Stress is screwing me over repeatedly and from everywhere. It's becomming unbearable, and I want out. It's hard to find someone who understands my problems, because I have so many. I don't care about any relationships at this point, friend or intimate. I just want to be alone. It seems that human contact is making matters worse, and I just want some alone time. People are starting trouble with me, and they're gonna get what's comming to them. Others are just being bothersome, and others I just can't stand all together. I'm not gonna run away from my problems though. I'm gonna solve each and every one of them, once and for all. Take note: If I seem to be distant for a while, it's because i'm trying to seperate myself from everyone, not just you. Another thing, i'm not concerning myself about anything or anyone anymore. Everything I ever do always comes up to not being appreciated, and quite frankly, i'm done. No more. I'm just gonna become a spectator now, and i'll be as such for who knows how long. My only concerns are that of my own, because i've been giving and self-sacrificing for way too long. None of what i've done has been even slightly noticed, so i'm going to just pay attention to myself from now until I feel like giving a damn about anything else. Aside from that, i've been working on my costumes for future cons. My Jounin costume is nearing completion. I just have to dye the ninja shoes. My next plan is to tweak my vest, and then start on my Koga costume. I'm hoping to make my Zabuza costume before Yasumicon. It's a very easy costume for me to make, so i'll be starting on it as soon as I finish Koga. Oh, maboroshi finally got the pics up from megacon, and I selected 1 to show as I think it's the best photo of me that he took. I call it... "The Light Consumes The Stars" That is the RPD S.T.A.R.S. costume Javier and I put together. I think it looked pretty good. Him, Matt, and I are gonna make better S.T.A.R.S. costumes soon. It's gonna look pretty good from what I hear. Anywho, that's it. I'll update again when I feel like it, so yea.

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