Sunday, June 4, 2006

   Part the 1: "Through the Looking-Glass"
First of my thingys from CW. Here's the backstory, or a little at least:

Mikaela is my Kingdom Hearts (1st game) OC. In this part of the fic, she's in Hollow Bastion (after the 1st visit). She was kidnapped by Ansem for reasons unknown. (Backstory on that: in the fic, she fights alongside Sora and the gang. There's more to it, but yeah.)

Ok? Yeah, vague, but it's ok. xD I'll eventually start the damn thing; I'm hoping to start tomorrow.

Well, here's the 1st thing I wrote for class. Enjoy guys!

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The sun was slowly starting to set over the horizon, streaking the sky with vivid colors; deep reds mixed with soft pinks and yellows, streaking across the fading blue, falling behind the mountains. The pale, sandy colored stone of the castle was bathed in a glimmering light as the stars rose, clearly visible from the tower windows, as was the waning moon. The sharp crescent was bright against the growing midnight color of the sky, the slight utterly breath taking.

And yet, for the figure at one of the tower windows, it was nothing more than a sign that another day had come to an end. The figure turned away, drawing thick burgundy curtains across the window; the curtains hid the occupant of the room from the outside world, keeping all the dangers and pains out and away. Yet the coldness of the room, and the sharp bitterness of the impending night, remained.

Bitter. That’s how life felt at the moment, bitter. Like chocolate after sitting in the freezer for far too long. Or like water that had been sitting in a plastic cup or bottle over night.

The occupant of the tower room, a dark-haired girl with smoky eyes, scoffed at her analogy, before turning her attention back to the mirror in her hands. The smooth surface gleamed innocently, and she bit back a scoff at that as well. The pane of shinned glass was anything but innocent. Yet, of course, she knew that complaining would get her nowhere now, though it wasn’t like it had gotten her very far to begin with. Just look at her, here in this…this…

She still had no words for this place. It was like Hell, she imagined, if Hell was a large, cold, empty castle and a stupid hand mirror.

She took her own advice, however, looking down at herself in the very mirror she constantly cursed. She looked away almost as quickly as she had started her gazing. One swift glance in the smooth surface of the looking-glass was enough to remind her that she had been stripped of her humanity. In the name of love, she thought, shaking her head both mentally and physically. Love. Something that, now that she took the time to think about her actions, didn’t seem to be so very important any more.

But, of course, nothing mattered much anymore. It wasn’t that she didn’t care about anything, because she did. It was just that she couldn’t care, couldn’t even try to care. The citadel, the dismal castle, she currently resided in had taken care of all her human instincts the moment she had stepped within its walls. It was as if she really had been stripped of everything she had, down to every last emotion. But what could she have been expecting? After all, that bastard Ansem hadn’t named the place something akin to “Hollow Bastion”, which, she had thought at first was incredibly dramatic, for nothing.

Mikaela laughed softly, before stopping herself quickly, repulsed. Her voice was rough from not being used, and sounded like she had a terrible cold, or worse, had completely lost her voice altogether. She allowed a smirk to surface however, as she thought again about her newest realization. How fitting, to call a place that sucks out your emotions “Hollow”. It was utterly perfect for the way she felt after her time spent where she was. After all, that was how it was truly making her feel. Even when she willed the piece of glass, the small mirror she was still holding on to, to show her her heart’s desires, she couldn’t help but feel apathetic towards what she saw. It could be a mass murder, a birthing of a baby, a graduation, a wedding, a first kiss; it all made her feel the same way. Even when the three strongest people she knew, her best friends, "Sora and the gang", those who were fighting to free her, fell under attack under her gaze, she could do little less than bat an eyelash. And it was all his fault.

That was the power Ansem had, she had reasoned after a while: to make her feel less than human, to corrupt her into this unfeeling shell of a person. It was to make her not care that her friends were slowly walking towards a certain doom, while she watched on, powerless to stop them, and uncaring to if they lived or died. This great apathy, this feeling of complete emptiness; it was his doing. It was driving her insane. And though she knew it, she just didn’t, couldn’t, care.

Lowering her smoke-colored eyes, Mikaela set down her mirror on a small side table, next to the bed. The visions would drive her sanity further from her mind at this rate, if she kept wishing to see them. Better to have the looking-glass out of her hands than in them, if that was what they were doing. Instead, she gazed at the walls around her, the covered window; the cold stone was like a reflection of herself: empty, unfeeling, just standing there and functioning, but never feeling. It had been that way for over half a week now.

Five days. Five days she had been in this stone and marble Hell, with so very little to show for it. What a prize for the fighters. Her friends, -Sora, Donald, and Goofy- had fought so hard, for nearly three months, for this. They had fought tooth-and-nail, through pain and panic, through so many things that should have torn them apart, only to reach this. What fools they had been. What fools, to think that the journey they had been on would end in a fantastic battle of glory and magic and winning what they had been searching for. Instead, in the place of all that, they had won nothing. All they had was what the battle had ended in: them reaching coldness, darkness, and the void of no return.

But only she had reached it; only she had truly reached it. Mikaela closed her eyes at the reminder. The memories of why only she was locked in this terrible place still haunted her, a small portion of the sanity she was fighting to keep, and still had left.

If only she hadn’t been so stupid, she thought, a flare of anger almost welling up within her. If she had just suggested they all break into the castle, instead of relying on her tendency to protect others, stepping in front of them, telling them to hold off the opposing forces of Heartless while she made her way inside…maybe she wouldn’t be in here. Maybe they would have defeated Ansem and his army of Heartless, and she would be back home, safe, with her mind and soul intact. Maybe they would’ve won, instead of falling twenty steps behind.

Maybe.

The black-haired girl snorted, slumping against a wall. Maybe’s and what-if’s; they never helped, did they? She was a fool to think that, even for a moment, things could have been different. It was a fool’s folly that got her here, and it would be a fool’s folly that got her out; there were no second chances, what-if’s, or maybe’s anymore. Not for a girl like her. All she had left was pieces of her sanity, and that stupid mirror he had left in here for her.

The mirror.

The mirror.

For a second, Mikaela could swear her heart had stopped beating. A fool’s folly would get her out? A fool’s folly indeed! The mirror! Why didn’t she think of it before? Rushing to the table where she had left the mirror, Mikaela scooped it up, tendrils of warmth spreading through her. This mirror, this simple looking-glass…it could be her salvation. It would show her anything she desired to see, wouldn’t it? Anything, from what he had said, and from what she had seen while looking in it. So, if it could show her anything, as long as she worded her question carefully, it would…

Taking a deep breath, Mikaela calmed her mounting nerves. Since when did she begin to feel human again? These emotions, all rushing back at once…they were making her head spin. It was worse than being drunk. And she always got drunk with Cid. That was saying something.

Was it a sign? Shaking her head, the girl bent close to the mirror, closing her eyes. She took a deep breath, readying herself. Her knuckles were nearly white as she held onto the mirror, stress evident.

“I want to see the exit to this room. I want to see the exit from this room to the Main Hall. Please. Please show it to me. Help me find my way out, my way home...my way back to my friends. Please. It’s all I want, all I ask for. Please.”

The smooth texture of the glass began to change, shifting under invisible weight. Excitement, like curls of smoke, wove themselves through the girl’s body. When she got out of this, she was going to make sure that there was no way she was ending up in this kind of mess again. Even if someone had to tie her to a moogle! Okay, so maybe not a moogle. Maybe Leon…yeah, definitely Leon. Not the moogle.


~OWARI~

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Love,
-Megumi
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Thursday, June 1, 2006

   A Chiru-inspired massive blog! xDDDDD
Ho'mans...I haven't updated in nearly a billion years. *laughs* So much to write about.

The past two weeks were nuts! Seriously, they were. Starting with the week after Follies:

Monday- Choir show at a theatre downtown. Fun, but long. xD I got to watch my music director's kiddies, twin (boy/girl) 3-year-olds. Cute lil' things, I LUFF THEM SO.

Tuesday- Not much, normal end-of-year school stuffus.

Wednesday- Another choir show, at the school. Nothing big actually, except it was SO DAMN LONG. Dx I left at 10 or so, and the show still was going on. It lasted until after 11. DDDDDX Suckage.

Thursday- Prep for Friday's Thespian banquet. I ended up having to go shopping for stuff to the banquet, and prom. I ended up with:
Plaid school-girl skirt
Black fishnet tights
Cherry charm necklace
Cherry charm earrings
New black collar
Chain necklace with heart-shaped handcuff charms
Black cuff with matching charms
Chain/handcuff bracelet
Mismatched hair clips
Crystal earrings
Crystal necklace
Crystal hairpin

xD So pretty.

Friday- Ended up having to finish my CW final in class (had to edit the suckers, as they were fanfiction-turned-non-ff ((Kingdom Hearts; I'll post the non-edited versions here soon)). Took forever, but I did it! (And got full marks as well xDDDDD) Plus, it was BANQUET NIGHT!

It was so fun. xDDDD I was all dressed up (two comments: Goth/punk Britney Spears, and anime-J-pop school-girl), and we had awesome fun. Proof?

http://mail.google.com/mail/?view=att&disp=inline&attid=0.1.0&th=10b5a7a621eaaae0

That would be the finished product of us (me, Slut #2, Mel, THE GUY, Teddy Bear, Chris, Girl, and a few others) saran-wrapping our Drama teacher's car. xDDDDDDDD His face was PRICELESS! The banquet itself was really cool, lots of fun. I got an award for MVP 10th grade! And i got inducted into Thespians, so I'm oficially a drama nerd. xDDDDDD THE GUY got MVP 11th grade, Mike-bishie got Singing Legend. Highlight of the night though was when this guy, Crash (is his nickname, I shit you not), was expected to get Tech Legend. But he didn't. We were all shocked, until they announced Hall Of Fame, the overall award, highest honor. He got it. XDDDDDDD Couldn't imagine a better ending to the evening.

Saturday- PROM!!!!!!! *dies* It was awesome! Again, got all dressed up, got picked up by Darlin', we went and took pictures with some other friends, then headed over to the hotel, where we took MORE pictures, met up with everyone else, and sat down for dinner. After dinner, they opened up the dance floor, which was TINY. But, that was ok, 'cause when we were dancing, it felt like a rave or club party, and i was just like OMFGILUFFTHISSHITXDDDDDDDDDDDDD. It was fun. Afterwards we went out to eat, then I went home. Uneventful, yes, but a good evening. xD


Ok, last week, the week after prom:

Monday- FINALS. DDDDDDDDDX *dies* Total Hell. Pure and total HELL.

Tuesday- Finished finals, hung around in the theatre otherwise. Not much was done. *shrugs*

Wednesday- Again, nothing big. xD Left school early, as I didn't have to be there anyway.

Thursday- Graduation! xDDDDDD The Thespians who weren't graduating sold roses (made a good deal, 340$ or so), and I didn't do much else except cheer people on and be happy for them.

Friday-Monday- WOOOOOO WEEKEND! Went camping with Jenny and the family. On Saturday we went into town (my family's cabin is just about an hour or so away from a pretty big town) and got to see X-Men: the Last Stand. *dies* OH MUH FUCKIN' GAWD. It was INCREDIBLE! Yeah, some parts I didn't like, but most of it was awesome. XD Got me back in the X-Men mood, so expect something to poop out of that. Otherwise, a nice weekend, besides me eating too much. D= My ass got fatter thanks to this weekend! *cries* I dunno if that's good or bad.

This week? Nothing really. Yesterday I went to the school (even though the semester's out for summer break) and helped work in the theatre, doing cleaning work. Got to meet the guy who might be our new teacher; I really like him. He's kindy nerdy, in a good way, and has good experience in both acting and tech. =D But yeah, tomorrow's another cleaning day as, right now, it looks like the costume pit exploded and/or puked all over the place. There were so many clothes down there...and we're just over half-way done with emptying it. *cries* Hell. Again, total Hell.

But yeah, like Chelsea's, this is pretty long. xDDDDDDDDDDD I'll post those ficlets from CW tomorrow or so. Love ya guys!

Love,
-Megumi
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Monday, May 15, 2006

   Should be doing homework...even though it's pretty damn late...
Yeah, 10:30 or so. Ah well, I'll just work my ASS off tomorrow/Tuesday.

So, yeah, the show. xD Nothing real excited happened. *shrugs* Except...OMFG...Chelsea...*giggles* Mike-bishie...in a tight black shirt...with SEQUINS...ho'god, he was hotter than MOTHERFUCKINGHELL....and he can dance like NO BODY'S BUSINESS!!! GAH! I was like, panting when I watched him warm up...*giggles and dies*

OH! And i was, as people put, hawt/cute/sexy/SMOKIN'. I wore this GORGEOUS dress (the one from homecoming; it's Lolita-esque, but now that I look at it, it's kinda a cross of Lolita/Amy Lee/Wicked) that was laced UP THE ASS (seriously, i took it off, and it looked like I'd been whipped), and my little black heels, and my hair was, as my mom put it, "like an anime girl's" (the front part was pulled up into two little ponytails, while all of it was ringlet curled). So I was TEH SEX. Yeah.

I wasn't on until the second act, and DUDE, was i nervous at points. xD But i did well both nights. OH! But, one thing: THE GUY is never, EVER, allowed to wear a tight shirt like he did for one Buffoon skit AGAIN. They were making fun of the Spice Girls, and I was in the back room, putting on my makeup, when he walks in in a SKIN TIGHT satiny spandex shirt. My jaw dropped, and i really did tell him that I never wanted to see him in that thing again. To which he responded with, "But I'm so sexy! Look at my nipples!"

*cries*

He's hot, but...no. Just...no.

Oh. And DRACO MALFOY might be breaking up with BITCH. *shrugs* Which makes him hit on me. A LOT. AGAIN. *cries* Last night we sat with them (meaning, at our table, it was: Me, Mel, Amber, Cogs, and DRACO MALFOY) at dinner, and he kept holding my hand, touching my knee, acting as if we were together...KISSING MY CHEEK....KISSING MY FINGERS...*cries harder* It was really awkward...he even kissed my cheek when he left! And kept telling me he loved me...I was so nervous he'd pull out a "Now that I'm breaking up with BITCH, i just wanted to say I've always wanted you!" or something. And trust me...ho'shit, would all Hell have broken loose at that.

DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDx Why do all the crazy guys want muh bodeh?! *sob*

Ah well. I've totally lost my train of thought...so back to homeworknessage. Love ya'll.

Love,
-Megums
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Sunday, May 14, 2006

   Thing I can add to my list of "Stupid Shit Megumi's Done":
Playing at the park, that's 5 minutes away from my house, on the Merry-Go-Round, with six other people, at 12AM. And not getting caught/in trouble.

xDDDDDDDDDDDDD

Yeah, we just made a stop there before my friend Chris dropped me off from dinner after t'nights show.

OMG!!!!!!!! CHELSEA!!!!!!! Muh daddy recorded me singing! So once I convert the clip, I'll try to send it to you!

Yeah, our Follies were tonight. xD Which means I survived! I was better than I expected; not perfect, but still pretty good. =3

But I'm tired, so I'm gonna head to sleep. Luff ya'll.

Love,
-Megumi
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Tuesday, May 9, 2006

   *drools* HOMUHMOTHERFUCKINGAWD....somebody up there lurves me....
*pants* Ho'mans...t'day was...gah...

I got to give THE GUY a massages...

*squeals insanely* OH. MY. GOD. Yes, you read right, I GAVE THE GUY A MASSAGE. xDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

Por que? Well, ok, it's like this:

Our drama teacher wasn't here for 4th, so everyone was basically lounging around, and I was bored, so I went over to where THE GUY, my lil' Asian buddy Tran, and this girl Star were just hanging around. Well, Tran was giving Star a massage, but when I came over, he got up and was like, "Star, let Megumi give you a massage! She's got magic hands, I swear!" (I do, actually, have the rep for magic hands, as he put it. I give the BEST massages EVAR. xD) So Star was like, "*mumbles, as she's already half-asleep* Ok..."

One touch, and she was practically making orgasm noises. xDDDDD So, after a few, THE GUY was like, "Fuck, I want one of those!" So, i have him lay down, i sit on his backside, and enjoy myself for a good 10-15 minutes. xDDDDDDDDDDD

*drolls buckets* He has the sexiest lower back EVER. Mmmm...and his shoulders...gah, I was practically molesting him. And...GAH! *squees and cowers* He kept trying to get comfortable, without moving me, so he kept FLEXING HIS ASS. MUH GAWD, MUH NO-NO PARTS WERE RIGHT THERE!!!!

*dies*

It was...hawt....and indescribable...

'Scuse me while i mop up my drool.


xDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

Love,
-Megums
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Sunday, May 7, 2006

   Gah, yesterday (Friday) was interesting, neh?
Highlights = the eye doctor says I've got beautiful eyes, doing the show for the little kids, getting 55$ out of it, dancing with THE GUY (explainage in a minute), and DUNDUNDUN, being in a car that got pulled over by the cops.

LOL@DRAMA IN THE DRAMA CLASS

Yeah, so, yesterday I was working tech for this show by the art's school (down the road from my school; it's kinda like a private school for elementary and middle school kids that centers around the arts); they were doing "Mary Poppins", and I was part of the deck crew. Yeah, i got payed 55$ for it, so that was pretty sweet. Plus, their director lady gave me flowers and had us (the high school tech crew) take bows on stage.

Oh. And about dancing with THE GUY. *giggles* During part of the show, the curtain separated, so he had to sneak around it to hold it in place. I was right across from him, prepped for lifting the curtain, and he looked over at me, laughed, and began dancing, 'cause the song "Step in Time" was what the kids were singing. So, I started dancing too. *squees* And he gave me this huge smile when I joined him. *giggles* Oh, and afterwards, before we left to go get some dinner (drama group tradition: we always go out to eat as a group after our last/almost last show), we were saying 'bye to everyone, and I started leaving when he said 'bye to the Sluts, not expecting one from him, but he was like, "Hey, Megumi!" So i turned around, and he waved and told me 'bye too. *giggles* We've done some odd flirting over this week...gah, he's so damn confusing.

Oh. And about the car. *nervous giggle* Well, my friend Chris was giving us a ride from dinner, and Cogs was like, "Let's cruse around downtown before we have to get the girls home," (he was in his own car, following us), so we were like, "ho'kay!". But, just as we pull out of this parking lot, Chris gets pulled over. Why's it bad? He only has a pervisional, meaning a restricted license. There were too many people in the car for him to have been driving. Plus, all of us weren't wearing seatbelts. *slaps self* It was a random blitz anyway, Chris wasn't doing ANYTHING wrong (the cop even asked if we'd been drinking, ppppppbbbbbttttthhhh), but the cop eventually, after ten minutes, came back and said his lights weren't on, so all he got was a warning or something. I was utterly terrified in those ten minutes, let me tell ya. *shaky laugh*

Oh. And I got into my school's Follies. *small grin* Auditions were on Wednesday. I went...3rd to last?...but I was nervous as all hell, 'cause I had to sing acapella. But I did it! And yes, I'm singing that really pretty song "For Good". *squees* Lolly, ask Chels to send you the sound file, I just know you'll love it!

Well, muh luffs, I'm sleepy. I'm gonna hit the hay. Much love all.

Love,
-Megums

PS- Mike-bishie has been acting strangely lately, around me, and hanging around a bit too much with this girl (a friend of his) who just transferred to our school. *growls* I DO NOT like that. I'm gonna find out what's up. I'll keep ya'll posted.
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Thursday, May 4, 2006

   *is currently rolling around on her floor giggling insanely*
Acting like a total cyber whore = OMFGWHATFUN. I'm gonna be a total bitch though...and that means I'm gonna do 1 of 3 things:

1) "I put on my robe and wizard hat..." Hell yes. Hell yes I would do that kind of sadistic shit.
2) "...that's it? Fuck, forget this shit." xDDD

or, best of all

3) "Mmm, that was the best. Bet you ain't never sexed a man before. *winkwink*"


xDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

You know I'd do it too.

Heh, horny bastards are fun to fuck around with. xD

But this guy sucks at cybering.

Ah well. xDDDDD

Luv,
-Megumi
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Saturday, April 29, 2006

   Opening Night = $2100, hellz yeah!!!
I'm so...emotional right now. Not "emo", just...really emotional. I'm tired/excited/hyper/exhausted/sad/happy, and so much more. Shows always make me emotional though.

Oh. And I'm pretty tired too.

I'm really in the mood to write, but it's late, and I really am tired...plus, I've got 2 shows tomorrow, so yeah. *raspberry* Love ya'll, night-night.

Love,
-Megumi
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Thursday, April 27, 2006

   Lil' kids = BEST FUCKIN' AUDIENCE EVAR
Seriously, these kids we performed for today were such an incredible audience. I wish all our audiences were like them. And they were so cute! *squees* Elementary school kids and middle school kids, and ha, they were awesome.

Yeah, today was technically our first show, but it was more of a "final dress rehersal". But it went along really well, except at the end, we couldn't get Cole into her dress, so she had to go onstage with it unzipped. *cries* Gah, it was all Darlin's fault too! She's such a...scatter brain...that she was messing up everything i was trying to do. *sigh* Ah well, it'll go better tomorrow, neh?

But yush...I'm so tired, lykeWHOA. So i'mma go to sleep, but I do love you all. *huggles*

Love,
-Megumi

PS- I got a lot of compliments from people on my singing. *blush* And OMGWTFSOCYUTE, cutest moment EVAR:

Lil' 5-year-old, to Cole (Belle): I saw you in the movie!

xDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

Adorable as all hell.
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Monday, April 24, 2006

   I'm feeling very much like an insomniac tonight.....
Gah, I'm not sleepy, but I am, y'know?

And GRRRRRRRRRAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH!!!! Darlin' is being IRRITATING! Very, very irritating! DDDDDDDDDx She is so damn emotional that she's getting nothing done when it comes to costumes! She's just getting in my way! And it's such a pain! *whimper* I wish I wasn't such a softie at times...then I could just tell her to quit giving me such headaches!

And, I know this is odd, coming from me, but she is so clingy! Grah, she's TOO clingy. Guh, at least she's just the kind of clingy I don't like. She's like, constantly molesting me. And sorry, only special people are allowed to do that. But really, the hand trailing across the top of my chest is just a little too much for this girl. *cries*

I've got such a headache from her...gwah...I just hope she doesn't screw up my costuming job I worked so hard on. I'll have to do a little bit of running around tomorrow then. *sigh* This is a bigger headache than I wanted.

Gomen nasai for the emoness. I'm just...gwah, four days until our opening show, and I'm just like...grrrrrrah! (Like my funny noises, neh?)

DDDDDDDDD=

Love,
Megums


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