Wednesday, August 24, 2005

   Finally, some relief
I went to the doctor today, for my annual, and i finally did it.

I came out and requested a councelor, and told my mom about my depression.

Granted, it's only the tip of the iceberg, but to know I'll be getting help, and that I'm not suffering in silence anymore, is like...a huge weight is off me. I do feel kind of upset, since I was having a cry fest when I told her, but I'm better having my secret out there.

Now. Just to figure out if my dad is pissed about it...'cause, y'know, I think he is. T_________T

-Sparx
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Wednesday, August 17, 2005

   Hahaha, shit.
Guess what?

I CLEANED MY ROOM!

Yeah, i know, OMGWTF right? Heeee, i'm so proud of myself. It's not completely clean, but it's WAY better than it was before.

ANYWAY...

My mom's doing as well as can be expected. They still haven't found the truck her friend ran into. By the look of things, he hit the truck, was thrown from the bike, skidded 30 feet, and hit a gaurdrail, where another car may have hit him. Head trauma was so obvious as the cause of death, that they didn't do an autopsy. It's really fucked, that such a thing could happen to such a great guy.

The viewing is tomorrow, with a wake afterwards. Funeral is Friday. mom says things are going to be really rough for everyone for a couple of weeks. *sigh* It's really all just depressing to hear about, and she keeps bursting into tears.

In other, happier news though, I beat Halloween Town! AHHHHHHHHHHHH, I lurved it so damn much. it was doubly sexiful and three-quater halves! And that made no sense, but who cares? Ha, I loves Jack. He's teh hott. I'm even wearing my Jack shirt RIGHT NOW. 0_____o It's got his face in a heart, with drippy-graffiti and magazine-cutout letters saying "Jack is my boyfriend (he's to die for!)". HA, it's awesome! XDDDDDD

But YES. school starts TOMORROWS. 0_____________0 I'm getting the last of my stuffs tonight, at Wally world, and then i'm gonna take a bath sos i can do my hairs all purdy, then I'm gonna sleep. Yeah. I've been looking forward to school for like, a month.

i know, such a freak.

Luffs-

Sparx
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Sunday, August 14, 2005

   *sigh* ........
My mom just got a call that a good friend of her's, a fellow co-worker, was killed yesterday in a motorcycle accident. He ran into the back of a truck, and another car hit him, running him over. It's just...I never met the guy, but my mom was close to him, and she's in tears ever two minutes now, I don't really blame her, but I just don't know what to DO. All i can do really is just hug her and try to comfort her.

This week has just been grounds for Hell, hasn't it?


Damn, I thought so.

*sigh* More later, I'm supposed to be getting ready for a hair appointment.

Love-

Sparx
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Thursday, August 11, 2005

   So, AS I was saying...
Yes. I know, it took far to long. Suck it up. But ahem...

Yeah, like I was saying, Cloud is sexy. So's Leon. And Riku. Gawd, so hot, all of them! *nods rappidly* What I wouldn't give to just tie them up and ravish them... 0____o C'mon, you all were thinking it! I just said it.

Ugh, I'm tired. Today has been emotional, to say the least. My little cousin was taken by the sate somewhere within the past 48 hours, and it's very possible that she's not going to be with family afterwards. I can't say no one saw it coming. My cousin, her mom, is pretty fucked up at the moment. She didn't use to be, but things just haven't been great the past five years or so. She's staying with her extremely alcoholic mother, and is on drugs, not just medical ones, but pot, and I think XTC or coke, maybe even 'shrooms at times. She's been in the psyche ward 3 times this summer, and I guess the state's just doing what's for the best. *sigh* Still, it's hard on everyone. My mom was even offering for my cousin (the little girl) to come stay with us now, but my dad won't have it. Not that he doesn't love her, but it'll just...complicate things, I guess.

So yeah, all this, and then school next week. At least my classes are good. English II, Spanish I, Geometry, and Advanced Performace for my Fall semester. And I don't think I have Spanish or Geometry with many people i know, so it's kind of a fresh start, which I enjoy. It'll be good, I'm hoping.

Well, I'm off to do...things. I'm bored, so I'm not to sure what my mind will settle on. Maybe more video-game-nessage. I'm on Atlantica now, just barely started it, so I've got work ahead of me. And EEEEEEEEIIIIIII, guess what world is next? HALLOWEEN TOWN, OMFGWTFBBQ!!11!!!1111!!!! Yes. I want to play that one, so bad. SO. BAAAAAAAAAD.

Luffers-

Sparky-chan
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Monday, August 8, 2005

   School News Update THINGY
Yeah, school starts next Thrusday. Why Thursday, you ask? Because my school system is on CRACK. Oh well. But I have registration on Wednesday, at 9 AM T_____T. No funs.

At least I'll get my classes organized (yay for Advanced Performace! My almighty savior!), and I'll get my new school ID, and all that fun stuffs. Plus, i might get to see a few people I haven't seen in a bit, so that's nice.

Even if I have yet to finish my stupid summer reading. Damn journal writing...

Sad thing is, school will cut down my gaming hours. WAH, how will I beat the game NOW? I'm still on the damn Olympic Hercules world place (I've sealed the keyholes in Wonderland, Deep Jungle, and Traverse Town; I know, I jump around.).

Heeeeeeeee, so far, facing Cloud has been fun. Besides being one hell of a sexy chara- hold that thought. Must go do some of Mothers wishes. Be back to finish soon.

*grumbling*
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Saturday, August 6, 2005

   Tired...meh...BUT NEW STORY IDEA, LYKEWHOA!!!!
Yes, I'm working on a story gift for my lufferly. Ya hear that Chels? MUAH, you'll love it, i know!

My head itches...meh... *scraches*

Dude, I so totally fucked that word, didn't I? Ah, oh well.

Hey, Billy and Mandy is on! Yay! And i gots money! Yay! Must not spend it though, not year. I'm waiting for a few more weeks before I go crazy shopping-spree-nessage again. But oh, I do love my sexy new jeans though.

But guess what I saw -and want- SO bad?

...

........

A BRIEFCASE THAT'S ALL SETO STYLE! Rawr, it's teh sexyiful and one halves. Yep yep.

Ew, I'm all tired and bleh. I'm gonna hit the hay. 'Night all, luves ya!

So much love I make Cupid cry in SHAME: -Sparky~chan
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Monday, August 1, 2005

   FOAMY!!!
Ha, oh my God. Foamy rules. I finally gave in and watched some of it, and DUDE. Awesome.

I love the Amnityville Toaster. And anything with Pillz-E. 'Cause he reminds me of people I know, like these dudes at school. Uh huh, yup.

But yes, that's all I wanted to share. XDDDDDDDDDD

-Sparky~chan
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Friday, July 29, 2005

   Why is it...?
That the little laughing happy smiley face da-hood makes me think of someone who's stoned? 'Cause, ya know, he does.

And that little lightbulb makes me think or something going: *PING*.

No, I'm not drunk/stoned/freshly fucked/hyper/or WHATEVER. I'm just wonderin'...

Anyway, I had a good birthday (who'd a thunk it? NOT MEEEEEEEE....). Why? Because:

I GOTS ME A PS3!!!!!!!! AND THA UBERLY AWESOME GAME OF KINGDOM HEARTS-NESS!!!!!!!!

Oh, and I got a CD player too. And that 130$, and a pair of yoga pants and a Happy Bunny T-shirt. Yay me! ^___________^

But yes, I'm still all *RAWRsnarlsnarlRAWR* with my mom, who's being like that with my dad, who's being like that with my brother, who's just like "0____o WTF" while he hangs with me. But school starts soon, so we'll all be saved.

But hey all, I just have a little request today: could you all please keep my Chels~chan in your thoughts? My hunny is going through some bumpy stuff at home, and I'm worried about her. So yeah, can ya'll do that for me? Pwetty pweeze?

Anyway, I'm like, bored. I want my buddy from GaiaOnline to get, well, online. His name's Rukoto, and he kicks ass. He's in this RPG I'm in (it's Harry Potter, Marauderverse), playing Serverus Snape. And he's got MAD DRAWING SKILLS. Maybe I'll put up the pic he drew of my RPG character...

But YES, me gots to go now. Keep it cool everyone!

So much love I make Cupid cry in SHAME: Sparx

PS- Emo Moment of Whenever: "When you're burning in hell, will you still ask me to keep you warm?" Think about it...
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Wednesday, July 20, 2005

   YES!!!
All right! That kick-ass avatar of mine is up! w00t!!!!

I lurves it. So. Damn. MUCH.

But yes, that's all to report for now.

Besides the fact that my birthday is on Thursday. The Full Moon.

...

ARRRRRRWWWWOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!! *howls*

XDDDDDDDDDDDD

-So much love: Sparky-chan

PS- 0______o I so far have 130$ to show from my birthday. Can anyone say shopping spree?
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Sunday, July 17, 2005

   ...fuck...
I know you'll hate me. But I've been sobbing my eyes out for about an hour, and I just don't give a shit anymore at the moment.

I own the new Harry Potter book. I've read the entire thing, cover to cover. And I utterly despise JK Rowling at the moment. Why? Well...

JUST A BOOK AFTER KILLING SIRIUS, SHE KNOCKS OFF DUMBLEDORE! YES, I FUCKING SAID IT! SHE HAS SNAPE GO OFF AND MURDER HIM, AND I SWEAR, I SWEEEEEEAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRR, IF THE 7TH BOOK TICKS ME OFF AS MUCH, THERE WILL BE HELL TO PAY!!!!!!!

Don't give me shit, don't anyone fucking DARE. I'd give more spoilers, but I'm still crying. The books just don't seem right anymore, at all, and I'm this close to going off at the nearest object. So for everyone who cares:

JK, I HOPE YOU HAVE A DAMN BLOODY GOOD PLAN FOR US, FOR IF YOU DON'T, MAY THE HEAVENS, EARTH, AND HELL HAVE PITY ON YOUR SOUL!!!!!

Empty threats my ass.

-Sparx
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