Tuesday, July 11, 2006

   OMFG yay for scores of free anime music!
MySpace Music = Luff. <3

Sorry for not being on for a while guys, but Chiru knows why. Here's the timeline of events:

Sunday, 1:30AM- Got call that a guy I knew from school, Noah, was in the hospital, presumed dead. Was on the phones from 2 'till 3 telling people the news, and checking up on others.

Sunday, 5:30AM- Got a call from my sister, same news, tried to console her. At 4, Noah did die.

Sunday- Kind of hellacious. Had phone calls coming every few hours. Basically, I've been acting as a rock for a lot of people.

Yesterday (Monday)- Same thing. Newspaper article came out, caused a lot of hell. (The paper says Noah jumped from a car. Anyone who knows Noah knows that's a effin' LIE.) Still acting like a rock, or, if it makes more sense, a tower of strength. Got word of the rosary and mass and stuff; planning to go to give support. Jenny needs me; her boyfriend lived with Noah for a few months, and they were great friends; Noah was like Jenny's security blanket. So, yeah.

Today's been about the same. *sigh*


I myself am not too upset. Not saying I don't care, because fuck, I do. Noah was just one of those people. You could barely know him, and yet you cared about him. He was one of a kind. I'm just...suffering for those who can't. Empathy and all that. I'm the outlet for everyones emotions, and y'know, it's OK, cuz people need that right now. They need someone who's going to listen, and not judge, or say stupid crap.


But yeah, it's been one hell of a week. And it's just Tuesday.





Otherwise, I'm good. Like the title says, I've been downloading SCORES of anime music. It's like an orgasm for my ears. xD I got tons of InuYasha ones today...and I was looking for some Gravitation when my compu went all slow and crap. But, yeah, yummy anime music!


*glomps Chiru* Me not want your power gones! ;____; I hate being separated from Chelsea for long lengths of time...gwah, remember last year luv, when I went to California? xD

I still say we gotta do AnimeEXPO someday, damnit!

But yeah. <3 Luff you guys!

Love,
-Megums
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Saturday, July 8, 2006

   ZOMG, some people *points to Darlin'* are annoying...
No, seriously, she is. D= Oh well.


xDDDDDDDDDD Chels, it's cuz clogs are a type of shoe, and "Cogs" sounds like "clogs". At least, that's my reasoning. Personally, I don't like shoes. I like my feets being nekkid. xD

I wanna get more astrology books, I really wanna read up on it more. I know the basics and crap, but yeah. And yeah Chels, I think it works like that. I read in some magazines that the worst couples are Air/Water, and Fire/Earth. And I mean, it makes sense, since the air whips up storms on water in nature, and fire destroys earth in nature. *shrugs*

Astology's fun to think about. xD

Gwah, I have pirates on the brain. I've even got an idea for a fic working in muh brain (I'll post a sample in a bit). I love my chara I created...she's got a KICKASS history...xD And she's just cool like that, lol. xD

And GWAH, that movie is still an orgasm on a screen. xDDDDDDDDD


Lolleh should be something like...pbbbth, I duuno. I liked the PBS one. xD I can't think for shit, my brain's all friend from that damn 4hr. convo on Thursday. Dx

It's kinda weird now, cuz I'm just like, yeah, he thinks he knows me, but he still doesn't. And he probably thinks he knows how to work me, but he doesn't. Truthfully, that's reserved only for muh Chiru, Lolleh, and sister. No one else is allowed to get closer, and that's that.

xDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD I'm a lil' shit, ain't I?

But yush, story preview up in a bit. Tell me what ya'll think, cuz I'm getting a plot started, but yeah. xD

And damn, I'm sad, cuz my Sims2 isn't working, and i really wanna play it. *pouts*

xD

Love,
-Megumi
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   AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! *runs into wall*
Lol, I was watching "Spirited Away" earlier...xD I love Chihiro...she's so cute, running into walls and stuff...and HO'MUH GAWD, Haku is the smex. XDDDDDDDD

*glomps Lolly and feeds her cupcakes* Gwah, like I said, you're not the "normal" Aquarius...ur special, lol. xD

Actually, there's only one other Aquarian I get along with, not to the same extent, but we have the same kind of twisted humor. xD Me and him spent a whole class period laughing over the word "shenanigans".

*snortgiggle*

=3 But yush Lolly, you're awesome. I'm glad you agree with me...kinda proves I'm not full of bull. *LOLRHYMING* Chelsea, you're rubbing off on me.

YUSH, I'm hyper.


PotC:DMC = OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG THE EFFIN' SMEX. xDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

<3

Johnny Depp is the hottest pirate to ever live. *glomps* I would so sex up Cap'n Jack...cuz...he's hawt. xD

That movie was like an orgasm on a screen.

xDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

Love,
-Megumi

PS- Ahhhhh, Lolly, I luff my abuelo too. <3 He's like...a really cool old person. So's muh gramma...<3





PIRATES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

=3
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Friday, July 7, 2006

   Love vs. Lust...wtfhuh?
Yeah. So. Last night/early this morning, I had a crazy 4hr. long conversation with Cogs on the phone.

Ho'muh gawd damn. We...wow...it's...wow...

It's funny how two of my closests friends are Pisces (my sister/Chelsea), one is a total break-the-rules-of-all-astrological-normality (Lolly's an Aquarius, and water and air are supposed to be like, bitter enemies, yet I totally get along with her and trust her beyond belief)....and now Cogs is...well...I told him I trusted him. I'm not sure I do, but I did let him in to my life a bit. Oh. And he's a Pisces, OMFGWTF. D=

FISHIES! I must love you all! xDDDDDDDD


Yeah, but one big thing we got into is the subject of who we love, why we love them, etc. 'Cause both of us suffer from unrequited love, and yeah, whatever. But as we talked, he kept insisting that I'm in "lust" with THE GUY, not "love".

And I say that's BULLSHIT. Why? Well, here's Megumi's version of "Love vs. Lust":

Lust: you want them for something. You understand why you like them. You think they are perfect and have no faults. Yet! You would give up nothing for them. They envoke limited emotions in you. You hate seeing unfavorable emotions in them. You don't care what they think, as long as it's about you, and you're in their good favor. You get bored easily with them. You refuse to see past your fantasies of them. They're perfect for you, yet you aren't willing to change or be perfect for them.

Love: You don't know why you like them. They're a mystery to you, yet you always want to know more. They have many faults in your eyes, yet you still care about them. You would sacrifice part of your self or your world for them. You care about their emotions, because you feel so many different ones for them. You would do almost anything to see them happy, even if it was something that hurt you. You feel the need to protect them from anything and everyone. They never bore you; they're always a new, fresh breath of air in your life. It's unconditional; you would give yourself to them, and for them. Because, even if they're not perfect, or you aren't, you don't care.


Try and guess which category has more of my emotions towards the guy. Uh huh. <3

But Cogs insists that I only lust after him, especially after I told him that I didn't care whatever happened to us, that I'd always want to experience THE GUY because, "It's better to have had something, then never to have had anything at all."


*sigh* What do you guys think? Is it lust? Or do you, like I, really think I know what love is, and I'm feeling it for him? 'Cause, really...*laugh* You hear me talk about him enough.

Love,
-Megumi
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Thursday, July 6, 2006

   Yay for an off-the-wall blognessage....
Hmmm....it's late, I'm hyper. Time to blog. xD

So, besides my insane bugbites, there was only one problem to the weekend: Mike-bishie. He makes me so damned nervous, it's not even funny. And I've decided, while I still find him attractive, I'm not chasing him. Por que?

He's too damned arrogant.

It's true. The boy thinks he's the shit. And it annoys the fuck outta me. Cuz it's not the good kind of arrogant, like...Draco Malfoy from Harry Potter arrogant. That kind just screams "FUCK ME, I'M DELICIOUS". Not Mike-bishie's. It's more like the...WTFOMGURABASTARDD= kind.

But...this makes me think about what, exactly, I find attractive. Because, yes, confidance/arrogance is unbelieveably hot. And it's a trait I value in men. I could live with a slightly arrogant man. He's gotta have confidance, is what I'm saying.

And then there's the whole...sexuality part. I mean, I'm not going for a bi guy, or a femmy guy. I mean...a dude who's...a dude. A man. Like, not exactly macho...hell, I could deal with a femmy guy. I just want a guy who's...sexual. Or sensual. A guy who knows his body, his desires, his own little quirks. And who wants to let them be discovered.

And damn it, if he can't dance/sing/act/or a combination, so help him...I'm not putting up with a dude who won't dance with me.

Dancing is sexy. 0_o It is!

And don't even question the whole dominance issue. We've gone through that with creppystalkerboy. xD

Basically, on that: I'll be submissive if I want to. Otherwise, I'm going to challange your dominance. Fuck, unless you can get me down, I'm not submitting. But, if you're the right guy, I'll get down off my high horse for you. I'm still not begging though. and you're taking the resraints like a man. because bondage isn't optional.

xDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

Yush, a random blogness. I'm bored, and my thoughts are whirling.

Blame it on smut, yaoi, and the need to write.

*kisses*

Love,
-Megumi
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Tuesday, July 4, 2006

   Man, I'm glad to be home....
Really, I am. a lot.

I'VE GOT SO MANY EFFIN' BUG BITES, HOMUHGAWD. *cries*

And I'm really happy my period's done. Cuz I really have the urge to walk around nekkid, and I'm not sure why. 0_o



AHHHHHHHH! LOLLEH-CHAN! *glomps* That pikature is so effin' adorable! *squees*


I did get some writing done, this weekend; just plot points for my RENT/KH fic, but yeah. I needed to work it out in my head, cuz of having to change some things. (Example? In RENT, Rodger's girlfriend kills herself because they get AIDS from being junkies. Can't have that happening to my lil' emo shit, can I? ^w^) But yeah, I've got a good setup. And, I got more figured out for my other KH fic...which, gomen nasai still, is giving me hell. Ah well.


I wanna play Sims2. Cuz it's fun. xDDDDD

Urgh, I'm tired. And it doesn't feel like a Tuesday...


AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! I forgots!


HAPPY EFFIN' FOURTH OF JULY!!!!!!!! W00T!!!!!!


And...Pirates of the Caribbean: Dead Man's Chest starts on Friday. *squeals* YAY!

Love,
-Megums
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Friday, June 30, 2006

   OMFG smexy pants and perfume!
Yay for shopping. xD

No, I've been needing some new jeans, and I was finally able to go to the mall this evening with my sister, so I got three pairs. xD 15$ each, ho'yush! And my favorite new brand too. (Vigoss jeans, from JC Penney's. It's like...the porn star of jeans. xD Seriously, they're the sex; they look gorgeous, but are soft as hell, and damn durable. =3)

And the new Bath and Bado Works was open, and was having a "5 for 25$" sale, so I stocked up on stuffs. (Black Raspberry Vanilla, OMFG. *drools*)

And yeah. I got food court Chinese for dinner. xD Yummy. <3


*glomps Chiru and Lolly~cha* Guys, you are too good to me. <3 It's so nice to have you guys behind me so much with my writing stuffus, and have your support...*glomps* It's just...yeah. xD Really nice. Which is so why you guys are my bestest friends. *squees*

*huggles new jeans* Gwah...I'm in love all over again... ^w^

Oh, and I'll be out of two this weekend, but I'll be home on the 4th. *nods* I might be seeing Mike-bishie this weekend too. 0_oU Which'll be...akward, seeing as how I haven't seen him in like, a month.

I wanna see THE GUY too...I'm trying to come up with a way to see him on my birthday...cuz...yeah. I'll tell ya'll a lil' secret...

The one thing I've wanted for my 16th birthday, is...to get my first kiss.

._________.U

Yush, Megumi-cha has never-been-kissed. And I'm nearly 16! o___OU Strange, ne? But, see, I'm figuring out how to be able to spend the day with THE GUY, and maybe even get the one thing I want...but it'll take a lot of planning. Maybe even a little bit of magick. *points to article in magazine* Astrology + feung shui + magick = maybe? Worth a try, perhaps? Ah well. But yush...Megumi wants a special 16th birfday...and that bondage kit. xD (LOL@me and Chelsea) But yeah...just maybe, this year...

My birthday's on a Friday, so...yeah...*shrugs*

xDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

I'm such a dork. xD

Love ya'll,
-Megumi
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Thursday, June 29, 2006

   Megumi~sa ish...not so healthy...xD...AND STORY TIME OMFG
I'm all sickly, cuz of my stupid period. Since I haven't had one in about six weeks, it's making me kind of anemic. I'm shaky, and really tired all the time. DDDDDDDDD= It sucks. But yeah, hopefully it'll be over soon. xD I keep bitching about it. Too much bitching, ha.

And YAY! Story time!

"I Should Tell You"
-----<3-----

A pause. "Mikki..." He couldn't help himself; he'd been wanting to call her that since she'd told him her name. Seeing the look that ran through her eyes, he held out a hand to her. "Come on," he said softly, pulling her out of the cafe. "We should talk."

Mikaela nodded softly, letting the older boy lead her out into the cold night air. She shivered, instantly regretting that she had left her coat in the cafe.

"Leon..." she began, reaching up to touch her shoulder. Where would they even begin? She fixed her cool eyes on his.

"Leon."

She was trying to be forceful, trying to be strong. Trying to keep her heart to herself, and not show her weakness, just like she was supposed to be doing. But whenever she was around this gorgeous man before her...

Life was too short to live it alone.

Leon caught her hand, lacing his fingers with her's. "I should tell you...I'm diaster...I don't even know where to begin it..." His eyes...they were betraying his soul, damn it. And they both knew it.

Mikaela shook her head. "Let's just make this part go faster. I have yet...to be in it...I should tell you-"

"I should tell you-"

"I should tell you-"

"I should tell you..."

The black-haired girl shook her head, smiling sadly. "I should tell you...I blew the candle out, just to get back in..."

The boy pulled her closer, a hand resting around her waist. "I'd forgotten how to smile..." Here he paused to do just so, his eyes lighting up slightly. "Until...your candle burnt my skin..."

"I should tell you-"

"I should tell you-"

"I should tell you-"

They interruppted each other, words overlapping as they flew in a flurry, each party trying to find the words their heart wanted to say. "I should tell..."

Mikaela pulled away, wrapping her arms around her shoulders. She could swear Leon was reading her mind. "Well, here we go...now we..." She shook her head, turning her back to the boy. She gave a look to where she could see Riku leaving the cafe, the silver-haired boy pointedly ignoring them "Oh no."

Leon, totally lost in his own thoughts, answered without even looking to see what Mikaela was staring at. "I know. This something is...here goes-"

Mikaela whipped back around, making up her mind. Forget the past; it was just like she'd been telling Leon all their lives. There was no day but today.

She nodded. "Here goes."

Leon shrugged, reaching out for her hand again. He raised his eyes to look above them, at the sky. "Guess so." He streched his empty hand out, catching a snowflake on it. "It's starting to..."

"Snow?" Mikaela caught one of her own.

"Who knows..."

"Who knows?"

The two met each other's gazes, each fighting their emotions. "Who knows where? Who goes there? Who knows...here goes..."

With a quick, graceful movement, Leon pulled Mikaela to his chest, a hand on the back of her head, the other arm around her waist. Her arms came up to circle his shoulders gently. "Trusting desire, starting to learn. Walking through fire..."

"...without a burn..."

"Clinging-"

"-a shoulder-"

"-a leap begins."

"Stinging-"

"-and older-"

"-asleep on pins..."

"So here...we...go...Now we-"

Mikaela looked up at Leon, who still looked distraught. "Oh no," he whispered, and she smiled.

"I know."

"Oh no."

"Who knows where...who goes there..."

She laid her head back onto his shoulder. "Leon," she whispered softly, feeling his grip on her tighten. "I'm with you, no matter where we go."

"So...here goes...?"

"Here goes."

A slight nod. "Here goes."

"Here goes."

"Here goes..."

"Here...goes..."

"Hey, would you mind getting a room? Or getting back in here? We're not allowed to have sex outside anymore!"

The pair looked up to find Cloud leaning out the door, grinning. Blushing, they nodded, before walking back into the cafe, still wrapped around each other.

Here goes.

-----<3-----

xD

Love,
-Megumi
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Monday, June 26, 2006

   *gurgles* Damn fucking period....
GUH. I feel like shit. My period sucks hairy monkey penis. And yeah, that is disgusting.

xD

No, really, I'm like...feeling really, really bad. *whimpers* It's probably cuz of the whole, y'know, skipping a month thingy. *growls at ovaries* DAMN YOU AND YOU HATRED OF MUH BODEH!

Ah well. Lol, I just found out one of the Sluts has a boyfriend. Ha, it's funny. I'm trying to figure out A) how long it'll last, and B) how long 'till she puts out. I've got 4months tops on A, and 2months or less on B. xDDDDDD God, i'm such a bitch. But I love it.

Um...yeah. 0_o I'll probably be writing...something...later. I'm just not sure WHAT at the moment. *shrugs*

Luff 'chu all.

Love,
-Megumi
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   Break from ficing, cuz I'm tiredlykewhoa
Ho'manz...I ran that entire ficthrough spell check this morning and...wow. I suck at spelling at 1AM. xDDDDDDDD

DUDES. I'm sweepy. xD

Myspace makes me want to write emo poetry. D= Yeah, that was random. I DON'T CARE. xDDDDDD

OH! My lufferly, Chelsea, wrote an effin' awesome one-shot. CHECK IT OUT DAMN YOU. Seriously, Chels, I luffed it. xD You guys say my crap's good...

It rained today. xD I was spazzing out. I love the rain/thunderstorms. Probably cuz I'm a Cancer, which is a water sign. I love the nighttime too, cuz I'm a moon child, lol. YAY ASTROLOGY.

Speaking of...dudes. My 16th birthday is in, like, 3 weeks. 0_o That's so weird. I dunno what I wanna do though. My parents are waiting for me to decide if I want my car detailed, or a party/stuff like that. But I'm not sure. I'm just like..."Uhhh, I dunno. Whatever's cool. =3" But, really...I 'unno what I want. D= Besides it being my Sweet 16, I don't see much importance. *shrugs* Ah well, right?

DUDE. My room is clean. It's kinda weird. I need to make muh bed though. But besides that, it's almost...perfect. which is BEYOND odd. It kinda makes me squirm.

And I'm going off in too many directions. I'll type more of the fic tomorrow, or later if i get my energy back. And I'll repost the other bits with the spell-checked versions. Oh. And yush, I've got projects now. My original KH fic, and now the RENT one. So yeah. <3

Love,
-Megumi

PS- Guys, I shit you not, that's the way La Vie Boheme is done in RENT. There's a movie version of it out, which is pretty good, though the Broadway sounds so much more awesome. (I've got the Original Cast soundtrack ((my reference for the fic, ha =D)), and lemme tell ya, it's SMEXYLYKEWHOA.)

Oh. And muh period came =3 Normally, I'd be pissed. But it skiped last month (WTF, it's done that twice now, D=, coming a month then skipping 1), so I'm happy to be back on track. xD

Love,
-Megums
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