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• Sailor Moon and DBZ first came out on Cartoon Network...I didn't even know what the hell I was watching, just that I loved it.
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Monday, January 30, 2006
*sniffs feet* Ewwwr...
Dun ask...my feet are smelly...*wrinkles nose*. But yeah.
Ok, so it's not "just another day in paradise." (Lol, I almost spelled "paradice"...lol, Otogi...) I'm in a bind...that guy (flame bishie-chan-STFU) basically...well...I think he's like, turning into a stalker-like guy. We've never agreed to be "dating" or "in a relationship". But today he asked "what we were going to do with our future" and was telling me that he "understands there are other people, but likes me, and that'll never change; it's like I'm holding on to him and won't let go". AND that "if I was with him, he'd be the happiest man in the world."
DOUBLEYEW. TEE. EFF
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I'm scared. I DO NOT want a man like that. Fuck, Chelsea's rubbing off on me, but i want a guy to NOT HAVE ME AS THE CENTER OF HIS WORLD. I'd much rather have a guy willing to knock me around and have yelling matches with me, than a guy who treats me like a princess. Damnit, I may wear the pants, but the guy I choose better not be wearing a skirt! He needs to be strong WIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIITH me, not FOR me.
And I'm only 15! I'm not ready to decide that I'm spending my life with the first guy who decides that he likes me! I want to have a life, be flirty, have one-night-stands, dance with a stranger in a dark corner! I mean, you guys know what I'm saying, right?
Besides...I don't think he may be strong enough to handle the fact that I'm depressive/was suicidal at a point/have anxiety/have a muderous rage/my insane family who I love to bits/the fact that I'm a guy in a girl's body (meaning, that i handle stuff like a man...and I'm violent...and love crazy, potetionally deadly sports)/and my tendancy to flirt with anything with two legs and/or a dick.
Yeah, I don't think he's ready for that. I don't think he even knows what my favorite colors are.
(They're black, red, and white, BTW.)
But yeah. I'm planning on not answering any of his calls/texts tonight (hey, it may be harsh, but it gets my point across) and I sent him a soft-but-blunt email. I'm pulling away a bit, taking my space. I mean, I probably wouldn't see him until the summer anyway. I'm just not reay for that...and I don't want a guy who treats me like that.
No wonder I like THE GUY...lil' butthead that he is, barely acknoledges me. ^_________^ And Mike's the strong kind of guy I want. If only they were bisexual...and willing to have so kind of threesome relationship. LMAO! Only in my dreams!
Luv,
-Megums
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