Sunday, February 5, 2006

i hope those who read this realize that this post is not about jesus
MARY MAGDALENE

I've been living to see you.
Dying to see you, but it shouldn't be like this.
This was unexpected,
What do I do now?
Could we start again please?
I've been very hopeful, so far.
Now for the first time, I think we're going wrong.
Hurry up and tell me,
This is just a dream.
Oh could we start again please?

PETER

I think you've made your point now.
You've even gone a bit too far to get the message home.
Before it gets too frightening,
We ought to call a vote,
So could we start again please?

ALL

I've been living to see you.
Dying to see you, but it shouldn't be like this.
This was unexpected,
What do I do now?
Could we start again please?
I think you've made your point now.
You've even gone a bit too far to get the message home.
Before it gets too frightening,
We ought to call a vote,
So could we start again please?
Could we start again please? (--Repeat 5 times--)

MARY MAGDALENE

Could we start again?

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Saturday, February 4, 2006

star trek
i like star trek which i hope u would all guess from the look of this site. starfleet was created in the year 2151. paramount pictures created the series enterprise to show this time in star trek history. i dislike this show because it is inconsisant with known star trek history. the design of the enterprise NX-01 is extremly similar to the akira class created two centuries later. also the main plot points never got around to the romulan war which was supposed to take place at this time. also starfleet was not supposed to meet klingons and the ferengi for another century or so. i know this series was created to create new fans of the series but it also alienated every hard core fan out there. besides it went away from the moral type issues which were the staple of early startrek. decline in morality of the united states has led to a decline in morality in the media. opposite to how most media sources.
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Friday, February 3, 2006

how i feel
last week i would have told u all that i feel sad and a sense of what i lost causing mild depression. i am sick and not eating well. now i feel anger and contempt torwards the person who was once my girlfriend. yasha is probaly on to something when she says that all relationships are stupid.
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reading time
i finished book 7 early last night and now have continued onto book 8 which is called echos of honor this is my favorite book of the entire series because it marks a turning point in her as a charachter and in the entire war. this book is 740 pages long and i doubt i will finish it tonight with so many of my favorite shows on but i should be done by monday at the latest.

p.s. i was informed today that if i talked to cia ever again my school would call the police and report me for harrasment. i find this odd when cia herself told me to talk to her while good bye cia
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Thursday, February 2, 2006

life goes on
wow actually talking to people is more enjoyable than reading my books and as such i have fallen a bit behind my schedule of a book a day. although in my defense the later books in the series are longer than the beginning ones. lets see right now i am almost finish with book seven and will certainly finish it before i go to bed. and book 8 called echos of honor is my favorite book in the series so i have that to look forward too. will anyway since i am no longer ignoring my friends maybe i can actually hang out with them. oh and if cia reads this i am not trying to get back together with u but u must understand i spent the last three months trying to make u happy and it will take me a while to reprogram myself. oh by the way i consider myself a failure in that respect because i know i caused u pain and therefore failed in my purpose.
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Wednesday, February 1, 2006

while cia has forgiven me
she sent an email to me to say she is sorry that she overreacted and hopes that i can forgive her for the pain caused during the breakup. as of right now i would say i havent forgiven her but if she wants to i will allways be here. we wont be getting back together (at least not soon) because she still has scares from her past. however i have been warned not to speak to her because it may be viewed as harrasment. i hope she can overcome her past and who knows what will happen in the future.
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Tuesday, January 31, 2006

my life thus far
while besides being generaly miserable, sick and now skipping meals. i've had what may be called a rough week. cia is ignoring me completely. my social life is non-existant. the only thing i do for entertainment is read books. which by the way i have finished book six and added another 500+ pages to my total thus far. for tomorrow i will of course read book seven and hope something changes where i wont have to pretend to be strong anymore it hurts to much. oh and incidently i have removed the link to cia's site and removed her from my friends list not because she isnt a friend but her site contains to many reminders of what i throw away.
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Monday, January 30, 2006

my boring life
hey everyone i have now finished book 5 out of 17 of the harrington series. which means i have read 2016 pages in less than a week. this is pretty impressive with everything else i have to do including school work but hey it beats being sad all the time thinking of cia. well anyway soon i will start book six and go on from there i only wish i knew what to do when i finish rereading the series.
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Sunday, January 29, 2006

random death threats aside and with cia still mad at me i've turned my life back to what it used to be video games and books: the games i'm focusing on now are battlefront2 (starwars) Battlefield2 (modern combat) and call of duty2 (WW2) i am sensing a patern of sequels here y is it that noone is coming up with high quality new games that are not sequels anyway the books i am reading is the honorverse series its military scifi that takes places in the year 4000 or so good series and just in case u were wondering the main character whose name is honor is a women. the author name of david weber rights excellent stories and enjoy them alot. this probaly my 5th time reading thru the series of 11 books plus antholiges and split off books which add the total to 17 most of them fall between 400 and 800 pages which is perfect for me because any shorter would be over to quickly to enjoy

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Saturday, January 28, 2006

cia isnt quite so mad at me now
its been a rough week as we both reflected on our feelings i am not mad at her but she has hurt me and it will be a while before we trust another again ps black kat and yasha u dont have to kill me
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