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Saturday, November 3, 2007

I don't know what to say.

All week I just skipped club meetings. I was so thankful for this 4 day weekend we have now because I've just been so tired and there's lots of stuff I need to sort out. My relationships, my thoughts and opinions, my craving for individuality and independence that my parents wont give me... Then last night I got a pm from... *looks up internet name* Artemis. And asked me to ask Hakumay what was wrong. And I don't want to slash can't talk about their problems but they feel like I'm getting distant and... And here I thought a four day weekend and some thinking time was gonna solve everything. Hakumay called me cause Artemis couldn't be on the phone and I just started crying and saying how sorry I was. And Artemis pm'd me with something like sorry is an overused statement that doesn't mean anything anymore. I just feel terrible and I want to go back to school and talk to them now. The only time I could get my mind off everything was when I was with them and now that all this came up I can't even do that anymore. I keep telling myself I don't care about anything, I shouldn't care about anything just so it doesn't hurt me as much. Missed that goal? I don't care. Bad grade on that test? I don't care. Losing my friends? Now I'm forced to care. It's so fucked up, all three of us are fucked up and I don't know what to do. Now I gotta put an extra coating of Mask on for my parents. Ugh.

Where did Nadia go, she's dead and I miss her. There was that little something about her when I knew her in the beginning but now. I dunno.
I quit. Again.

Leave jokes in your emo comments. Speaking of which, I'm not gonna be doing much of that. Commenting that is. I hope you understand.
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