Thursday, March 15, 2007

   You may have noticed....
...That I've removed you, or some other people from my friends list. This is because recently I went to visit the pages of all those on my list, and found I was not on their list, and/or they had made their pages in such a way as to have their friend list not show up. So, if I'm not on your list, or you don't show your list, you're probably not going to be on mine, it's just as simple as that. It's 2:30, and I'm going to bed, here's the next installment of interstella, a guitar solo.

~Squall


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Wednesday, March 14, 2007

   Interstella 5555
It's a very interesting anime/musical. I've decided to display it all here, over the course of my next few posts. The credit goes to Daft Punk for the music, and Kazuhisa Takenôchi who is the director. He also directed 3x3 eyes and others, in case you wanted to know more about him. The artistic supervisor was Leiji Matsumoto, the creator of Space Battleship Yamato and Galaxy Railways, in case you thought you might be familiar with the art. Here is the first video, the most popular one, which has a song all of you have probably heard before.


Now that that's done with, life. It's sort of stressful, a class or two is hard, but otherwise I can live through it. I got to spend a bit of time with rin today, and I'm grateful for it. I really feel like a different person sometimes, when I'm with her. I love taking naps with her, just anywhere, whether in the car driving(not me or her driving), or on a grassy hill in some park. It's relaxing. It's 2:30, and I'm off to bed, so I'm getting a bit better, soon I'll get to bed at 11 or earlier.

~Squall
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Tuesday, March 13, 2007

   breathe
in, out, in out, in.... ahh... I'm going to go to bed soon after I post this. Perhaps its not as early as it should be, but 3:00 is better than 7 right? I suppose I'm happy, rin and I had a perfectly civil discussion, and I managed to make some accomplishments in Final Fantasy XI.
You may remember I posted long ago about that game, and how I couldn't play it. Well, a year ago, the terminals were updated, and I decided to play. As of now, I am a level 30 Paladin, with a warrior sub job. There's probably a lot to go until I feel I've accomplished the most I can in the game, but until then, I shall continue.
Should you want more information, leave comments. Also, I'd like to thank the few people who've signed my guestbook recently.
Finally, here's some music, with videos attatched, for all those who enjoy my musical tastes.

~Squall


First, the original, which in a strange way makes me think of all we've been through in these last 2 years together, though fighting monsters, travelling through time, and overcoming various obstacles far greater than the ones here is a bit different.


Then the FF8 version (one of many) which kind of details the opening of our relationship.


And lastly, something that makes me feel a bit better about playing FFXI. Originally it was to be a different video, but Sony doesn't like people embedding their music videos, so meh, here it is.

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Monday, March 12, 2007

   The time change
Has made it so I'm not tired, at all, so back to no sleep for tonight at least. I haven't posted, but rin has, she knows of my affairs, if you are curious, she mentions me in her posts, so visit her site. As far as I'm concerned, not much has taken place in the last couple of days. Here's a triad of AMVs, same song, all of them made me think of rin, especially the third.

This first one has many versions, love hina is quite popular so it's only natural.


Having found this, I know rin would be unhappy if I neglected to post it, so here it is, to my chagrin.


And the third, with us...


Seems kind of sad, but I suppose I have been making a mess of sorts. Though it's a week ago now(and far too late, with the way our world moves along) I want to let you know here rin, for you, and whoever else. I do love you Rinoa, and I want you to be with me, I want you to stay with me, I want to be the person to make you happy, so I'm claiming you now, for good, I want you with me.

~Squall
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Wednesday, March 7, 2007

   slow, yet not boring
Long time since I've had a nice slow day. it's pleasant. I believe I need more days like this, so I will endeavor to find them more often. Meanwhile, here's a video, sometimes I feel like I'm speaking to Rin through this song, sometimes I just feel like I want that sort of a day, but regardless it's interesting, and at least one reader must be a fan of the band.


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Tuesday, March 6, 2007

   Long time no see...
Not really, looking through my history I've neglected to post here for months at a time on occasion. However I have missed a few days previous, and the explanation is, I was busy. I missed my class for this morning, I've been running late for this first part of the day it seems. Nonetheless, I shall say I was in a sleep study last night, which essentially forced me to lie in bed for what felt like hours before succumbing to slumber. I awoke several times during the night, the rest of the time was spent in sound dreamless sleep. No video for the moment, or quiz, perhaps later today though...
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Thursday, March 1, 2007

   music
Insomnia progression: 2:50 am. In response to rin's comment in my previous post, I present these two videos, which have the same song, and are offered as an alternative reason for my sleeplessness.



This one has several different versions, out of the 3 I have seen, this one is the best by far.

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Tuesday, February 27, 2007

   I'm tired
Yet I cannot sleep. I feel so tired. But it's 4:31 p.m. this time. This morning I intended to sleep from about 4:30 to 9 or 10, but I shot awake at 8 on the dot for no apparent reason, and I feel I got minimal rest from that. Life, it just comes at me, at everyone, and it is difficult, but I must deal. There will be school to go to right now, and then I'll have to come back home. Gym workouts start back up again tomorrow, as I've not felt in the mood to train as of late.
Following on this topic, here is our lady peace, with a take on my situation. The sound is off, but otherwise it's fine.


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   I
am having trouble holding on to my own sanity. Staying up till 3:27 when I know I have to be up by 10 the next morning, is not good. Yet I cannot bring myself to go to sleep or do anything. However I'll make the effort here and now, and I'll try my best.

In other news, I find John Mayer comforting, he has a soulful sort of melodic rhythm that makes me relax, even when he's talking about serious things. A hopeful sort of tone I suppose, that even though things may be bad now, they can be worked on. Here he is with this, one of his newer songs...


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Monday, February 26, 2007

   Can't stop strange art work, or these artists either...


The sheer uniqueness and nonsensical fashion of this group seems to draw me in. Hardly a squall-like thing to do, however, I suppose change comes to all of us, me included.
Rin will be working on self improvement, losing ones mind requires work. In case any of you had wondered of her condition. I am suffering from insomnia, far more severe than it has been recently, 4 am is not the best time to be writing in one's myotaku, but then again when you can't sleep, may as well. My days, they are fluttering by, and I find more and more anxiety in them, a feeling that I will be swept away into chaos and disorder, and I have no means of preventing this. WHat am I to do? I wonder. Perhaps I am simply putting too much concentration into this or that source of stress, and that is my issue.
Of course, nothing comes easily now, I find motivation hard to come by, depression easier to embrace, and life harder to face. Perhaps these are just the rantings of an insomniac at 4:18 in the morning, perhaps not. I, I feel... I feel not good. Though I'd rather no one knew, I suppose that admitting this openly will have an effect on my condition, and perhaps allow me to deal with it head on instead of tip toe-ing around it the way I have done with many other things in life. Alas, I need to change. My time is valuable, and sleeping through the morning hours is a waste of it, ergo I must sleep earlier, and defeat this insomniatic streak I have.
If you are not used to me giving long posts, then I apologize for breaking that long tradition of short posts. Here however, I find a need to express this issue, so if you find it useless, just watch the video, and ignore this. However by having read this far you probably already read all the rest of this post and have thus been forced to read a long and tenuous post. Alas, I am doomed to this state of mind for the temporary consciousness, I fear I will find myself here again tomorrow night, but I should not, as I have certain obligations to fulfill. It seems that I am merely ranting, going on with no explicit purpose, therefore I am ending this,

~Squall
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