Monday, May 14, 2007

Philos Sophia
the root words which form the word philosophy.

Here's a quiz I took, with some details on my own.

You scored as Existentialism. Your life is guided by the concept of Existentialism: You choose the meaning and purpose of your life. “Man is condemned to be free; because once thrown into the world, he is responsible for everything he does.” “It is up to you to give [life] a meaning.” --Jean-Paul Sartre “It is man's natural sickness to believe that he possesses the Truth.” --Blaise Pascal More info at Arocoun's Wikipedia User Page... Existentialism 85% Justice (Fairness) 80% Divine Command 75% Utilitarianism 75% Strong Egoism 55% Hedonism 50% Kantianism 50% Apathy 25% Nihilism 5% What philosophy do you follow? (v1.03) created with QuizFarm.com

Existentialism is first. I hold that even though there is destiny, and forces out there pushing us, we can make our own destinies, if we try hard enough. If I want something bad enough I should be able to get it, if I put in the effort, even if it's not really in the cards for me. This is my hope, my dream.

I also have a strong faith in justice. You get what you deserve, so those forces I mentioned earlier, they'll keep you from being able to do anything without consequences. If you're good you'll be rewarded, if you cause harm, you will be harmed. Maybe not today, or tomorrow, but someday it will come to pass. If you reach beyond what's in your destiny, this probably will try and stop you, so it would be a herculean feat to change your own destiny, but it would be possible nonetheless.

Spirituality, religion, I rely on these as a compass, though not absolute, the further I've strayed from the direction this compass points, the more confused and strange my life has become. I always seem to find that going to church will give me some sort of drive to get things moving again.

Utilitarianism is something of a check for me. I use it to gauge my actions and life in general. This means that if I do something, it should have some sort of generally positive outcome, and if not, I wonder why it doesn't and how I can change that. However, I'm not for changing things radically to meet this criteria, rather, gradual change is best. To do something, not for its own sake, but for the sake of providing a benefit to someone or something, that is my belief. Even if that someone is me. There are some exceptions, such as principled matters, but I generally try to follow this.

I suppose strong egoism would be doing things for one's own benefit, as opposed to the benefit of others. I see it as, if I have good intentions, then doing things to empower me to carry out these good intentions is a rather good thing.

Pleasure, it is not my main goal, and I've suffered plenty in the past. Given this past, it's assured that I will suffer in the future, and in all likelihood, I'll suffer greatly. But if that means advancing the greater good, then bring on the suffering. If I can avoid this pain, let it pass, if I cannot, then give it to me, spare me not.

Kantianism, as I've seen it defined, would mean that I have one goal and everything is directed towards this goal. I do have a tendency to do this, but I doubt it fully agrees with everything this philosophy embodies, as my goal is rather general and open to change.

These last two are my great banes.

Apathy, to not care, to not feel, I must fight this feeling all the time. In my interactions with others, I sometimes feel compelled, even when it is a person of such meaning as Rin to me, to say "I quit, I give up, I don't care anymore, do what you will." I probably have said similar things, to friends, to Rin, but I really don't want to. The feeling that I don't want to care is there, but giving in to it would set me back.

Nihilism is me when I've been depressed for far too long, and moved beyond apathy. It means there is no meaning to anything, not your life, not mine, not the earth or religion or the heavens, not a single thing has meaning. Was I suicidal at one point in my life? Yes. But the Nihilistic feelings I had were overpowered by my goal, my desire and ultimate wish to have a mass positive impact upon this world.


Rin's Ball
What can I say, I tried. But apparently the Universe saw fit to give me retribution for something. Not much went right, and roses taste nothing like they smell.

Here have a video or two.


such a sad song... feels rather troubled...



Rin and I share a liking of this song, and this video. Enjoy.

3:40 AM.
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