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myOtaku.com: Squeelee


Sunday, January 6, 2008

Just read, i know its long and confusing
im so lazy
i dont want to update, answer pms or any of that shit or homework, and if i dnt get that done before 6:30, i cant go to Youth Group TT_TT *sob*
Well i did cut my bangs (and to short may i add) myself because id been asking to get an appointment for almost 2 months now and my mom just keeps saying "later"
I hate that word so much
its always"ill help you with your homework later"
"ill find time later"
"Ill find later time for the time i said later"!!
Its becoming a running thing and im sick of it
i want to leave all this mess that i see everyday
i want to leave my school
i want to leave my things
i want to be free
i want to do absolutly nothing

While im dreaming, i also want a pony
But like any of that is going to happen
Wow, i feel like im spilling everything thats been building up inside of me, because ive never showed anyone who (or what!!!) i am
im a monster o_o
i feel so hurt though
because every day i face new problems, new hates, more threats and more lies that i hear right in my face
Has anyone ever lied to your face and your forced to believe it, even though its not true?
It hurts so much because then you cant trust that person to say the truth anymore....
And being unable to be trusted, is somewthing im used to by now
i have no trust
i barely remember HOW to trust anyone
Because i kept being betrayed over and over again
Until i just kept everything to myself
And it builds there its were i store all my hatred and disgust for everyone that i know, i refuse to let them see that hurtful side of me, because i dont want them having to deal with all the anger i feel
Because i want everyone to be happy
And i dont want to be happy, im content with being hidden, if thats the price i must pay

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