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• Junior and Char's Wifey.
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• Martha
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• Reading like a 500 page book in less than a day, Breating Impulse on expert [Guitar Hero 3] OH and kicking my sister out of my room :D
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• Since 7th or 6th grade? xD
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• InuYasha along with others
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• To do something I can brag about
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• Umm patience and having rape with Charlette >3
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Sunday, November 13, 2011
Shit, and College, and anything else I think of.
You ever just get sooooo tired? Of just like life. That's how I am sometimes, but then I see like shit on the internet and I'm like "OMG WE HAVE IT SO GOOD" or "I SHOULD REALLY DO SOMETHING WITH MY LIFE" and sometimes I'm just not really motivated enough to do anything for myself.
I'm doing this really on spur of the moment. I'm at my mother's and I just got really "OMG WTF TACOS" but in a bad way. I remember how I used to be before. I never cared about anything 'cause I just really didn't LIKE ANYTHING. But that's just because of my past and not wanting to emotionally open myself again. Of course I did eventually, and that was one big load of shit. Even now I'm fucking sure I didn't handle it to any degree of "well". I just tried to close everything and it blew up in my fawce. Mah. Bad. I really didn't mean to. But now it seems to be better. Seems to. Not entirely sure.
AND THEN THERE IS COLLEGE. LOL WHY DID I THINK MY LAZY ASS SHOULD DO THIS. I feel like high school just puts too much goddammed pressure that everyone who doesn't go to college is some damn failure at LIFE. I just ran into it, and it was some rocky ass road. ROCKY. ASS. ROAD. I've never had the most random bouts of fucking depression and stress. I'm really not sure how I would've turned out without Kevin. He was always a constant companion. I would've been some lonely, depressed, FUCKtard.
*sigh* I guess no one can prepare you for everything. I do wish I just had someone to let it all out to. Though, I guess that's why I'm doing this. I don't really trust to tell everything to ONE person without them asking too many questions or getting their feelings hurt. Whatever. Maybe I'll just move far away and be a vet in some rich, white people neighborhood...with a nice pool and a nice house with secret passageways.
I'm more calm now. Nice. I just have that "Why am I here" kind of attitude instead. Guess I'll go. Oh, one more note. I'm not a virgin anymore. LOL. See how long it takes for someone to read that, if anybody. PEACE NIGGAS LOLOLOLOL.
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