Sunday, May 8, 2005

   ::blink blink::
I have had the craziest time these last few months. WOW! Let me see where should I begin...I know somewhere around the begining.

18 and older! Read at own risk.

I can't believe what I did. One of my "friends" invited me over to her house after not calling me or anything for over a year! Well I didn't think much about it. So I went. And I had forgotten that she was seeing this guy that I had only seen like once or twice and I knew nothing about him. Well when I got over there I realized that he had a thing for me! And she said that she didn't care but when he started to get a little more friendly she got so pissed and then tried to play it off like she wasn't. Well I went over there again the next week and I couldn't believe what happened. One thing is I was just kidding around when I told him to go get some coolers but he done it! Well later that night we started playing a "game". Well he strips down and starts wlaking around like it was the most narual thing in the world to him. I was in shock! My mouth has never dopped that far in my whole life. And he had a nice ass to boot! lol. Well the next day which was Sunday I had to go home. And right before I left He kissed me and I jerked away from him and I looked at her thinking she was going to be pissed and she didn't seemed phased. So the next time I went over there they had bought some real liquor and we all got drunk and decied to go out on the roof. Not the smartest group of drunks let me tell ya. But after we got up there he kissed me again and I was too drunk to care so I was making out with him and he started get a little handsy. And sticks him hand up my shirt and starts doing other stuff I think you can figue out what he was doing. And then all of a sudden she says OK I am getting bored lets go inside. Which pretty much told me that she was not happy with what was going on. And then when we got back inside I got changed for bed and layed down and all that and he insisted that I lay next to him. I didn't think much about it but then he started in on me again and she didn't seem to care. I guess that since she could watch she was OK. But all she would let him do is dry fuck me and that was all! I was pissed. She said that I was the only person he couldn't really sleep with. I was very pissed and she wouldn't let him go down on me. And he was begging her to let him but she wouldn't. So in the end I kept my pants on and I had a pretty good time. But then they told me that they wanted me to move in with them. And I was all for it. lol. But my mom went off the deep end. Then she finally gave in and said that I could on my B-Day. Well a week before my B-Day I went to there house and she had to go to work so she said that I could hang out with him. And when we dropped her off we went back to there house to watch a movie. Or so I thought. I got maybe 10 or 20 min in to movie and he starts kissing on my neck and then he turned off the TV and decided that he didn't want to wait for her approval to go down on me. And about 2 and 1/2 hours later he got up and pee'd or somthing and when he got beck he asked if he could take off his clothes. I didn't care but he didn't ask me if he could fuck me he just done it. And I really didn't want him to go that far but I never said anything. I never even told him that I wasn't sure if we should do it. I just layed there in pain. I thought so many time stop we should be doing this but I never said a damn thing. Well the next day she called me up and asked if it was cool that they came and picked me up and it of course was and we all went caving. The next day she calls me up and she is in hysterics. Asking me what the hell I was think and how far did we go. And I was ready to kil him because he said he wouldn't say anything! And he must have because I didn't and she's not psychic! Well I got a ride over there and she kept telling me how she couldn't believe that I could betray her like this and all this shit and she never once blamed him. He started it and she should have been mad at him he's older than me he should have known better. By the way she's 20 and he's 33. Don't say a damn thing about his age! -glare- but anyway she finally said that she never wanted to hear from me again and that I had better not try and call him. Well I did call and she called back and told me that if I called again she would kill me so I haven't called since. I can't believe that she went off the deep end like that. He is a sex addict and she should have known not to leave me alone with him!
And I can't believe that she said that he said that he was just using me for sex and that he was disapointed! What the fuck did he expect it was my first time! I can't understand what the hellhe was thinking. And I can't understand why I miss him so much and why I can't hate him! I need some help if any of you have anyadvise please help me! I am a GD mess.
Comments (2)