Saturday, February 16, 2008

   I'm torn...

It's so weird. I have two friends who, if I were to ever think about it, back then, I would've never thought that I could actually trust them very much. It's strange, but everyday though, they seem to make me feel as though I can trust them and the friendship between us grows stronger and stronger. I really appreciate it because lately, everytime I'm sad, those two guys always do what they can to cheer me up, they'd basically be willing to do anything, which I think is pretty amazing.
What's really weird though is that lately, I've been spending most of my time with the guys and barely any time really with my girls, I think this whole week, I only really talked to 3 of them (wow, I bet I have a lot of catching up to do...)!!! Anyways, Friday was...interesting. In art class, Rodney and Rich kept on picking on me, but Rodney was doing it way more than Rich. I was getting pretty mad by then, then, Rich said "It's really weird. I'm surprised that Abigail's getting all mad at you, but yesterday, Larry was annoying her and she didn't get as mad as today...hmmm, maybe she likes Larry." By then, I was about to hurt him so bad that he wasn't going to see the light of day for awhile. Then, I said "Well, maybe it's just that time of month!!!!" Then, the guys were like "Oh crap!" and got all quiet and started to finish up their drawing. Then, they started whispering to each other and Rodney was like "Ok, don't worry, I've seen this happen before, we just have to..." then I started laughing and said "Don't worry you guys, I'm not, I guess I'm just really moody today..." then, they were somewhat relieved...hahahahahaha I still think that that was so funny... xD XD xD

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Saturday, February 9, 2008

   hey people...

Ya, well, I feel really weird...
I'm destressed, because one of my friends is going out with this guy again...and I just she knows what she's getting herself into, again.
I'm worried, because one of my best friends, well, her situation is so sweet, and yet scary, to be honest, I'd love to be her and yet at the same time, hate to be her right now...it's so complicated.
I'm happy, because my life has been somewhat romantic haha, and, I have two (or maybe just one, who knows?) awesome new somewhat close friends who I know, from experience, will be there for me when something is wrong. ^-^
I'm amused, because another one of my friends won't say no to this one guy who really likes her, but she doesn't really like him, and I am going to plan something to make her practice saying no...I think I'm going to get a couple of my guy friends and make her practice, haha.
But, I'm also somewhat sad, let's just say, that even though I am no longer a friend of yours, you are still one of mine, and I understand if you don't care, but do know, that I still do...don't you hate it when people grow apart?
I feel all of these things at the same time, and it is just very confusing. Actually, a lot of things in my life are becoming very confusing, in good ways and in bad, but I hope that my site will become clear. ^_^
Well, I hope you have a great week and Happy Valentine's Day!!! =D

XOXOXOXO

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Sunday, January 20, 2008

   my life this week, summarized

Well, it's been really interesting....
The bad
1. Last week was semester exams week, so I was kinda in that "study-study-study" mood, so, on Wednesday, I had to take science and business computer applications exams, and well, I aced them ^^ but here's the bad thing, the next day, I was supposed to take honors english and geometry exams, but we had a snow day, then, Friday was an IS day, so no school, then Monday is a holiday, so I won't be able to take them until Tuesday. Now, I was planning to go to the March for Life, because I AM PRO-LIFE!!!! But now, I can't because semester exams are very important, and are 1/7th of your whole grade!!! So, I really can't afford to miss them, and they can't be made up, waaaaaahhhhhhhh...
2. My older brother's xbox got the red ring of death!!!! So, I guess, no guitar hero for awhile...one of my guy friends was getting concerned asking me how I was going to live, hahahaha

The good
1. Thursday-I didn't spend my snowday all alone sleeping, in the morning, I was kinda texting someone since we didn't go to school, and he asked me if I wanted to skiing with him, but I couldn't sadly, and I've never really gone skiing before(I know, so sad) but, later on, I got to play in the snow and stuff with my brothers and sister, and we got in this huge snow ball fight, and I ended up getting snow down my pants, in my shirt, and in my mouth...and other stuff
2. Friday-This was my little sister's birthday, so we kinda celebrated and stuff and we watched all the x-men movies and stuff, and I think it was a little too much for me because I had a dream about it that night...if you wanna know what it is, pm me and I'll tell you
3. Saturday-I basically just layed around and slept ^^
4. Sunday-I spent all of my time at church and all that awesome stuff :D

That's basically it. ^^ Well, I hope you guys didn'y fall asleep reading this or something...I'm so sorry that it's been so long. But you know, with school, and church, and piano, and dance, and homework, usually, if I do have free time, I end up talking or texting my friends, because they usually need my help on stuff...it's so weird, I've been giving a lot of advice to people lately, I mean, even dating advice to guys, that's something new for me...but ya, my mom thinks that I should start charging people for my services, LoL. There's this one column in the newspaper called "Ask Abby" and she says that I must be her...hahahaha.....well, that's all I have to say for now ^_^
Bye everyone and I hope that you have a great day or night, which ever time frame you may be in. =D

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Saturday, January 5, 2008

   hi fashion weirdness!!! :D :D :D

Ya, well, it was pretty funny and I thought it was so weird....Ok, like, I was walking to one of my classes and I saw one of my guy friends and I said "Hey...I love your outfit, it is soooo cute!!!". Then he just walked off, and right after he said that, I felt weird and asked two of my many best friends (Rachel and Sarah) "Oh my gosh, why did I just say that", Rachel was just a little shocked and said "I have no idea". AND then, in the class right before that, Rachel was telling me that another of my guy friends wore the exact same pair of pants the last time she saw him, because it was the same design on his butt pocket. So then she made me look at it and I felt weird because I felt like I was looking, well, you know, but I was just looking at the design and Rachel thought that it was so funny...gah, whatever. Well, I have no idea why I'm even posting this but, ya, don't think that we're one of those style-caught-up people, because we're not, I think I posted it on here because it was just so weird to us...hahahahahhahahahahahahahaha, ok well, I got to go now, I got a text message...LoL. Well, have a great day everyone!!! ^_^ Sorry if I don'y sound like my usual self, then again, I am kinda, well, moody today...

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Saturday, December 8, 2007

   Am I supposed to be happy?

I don't get it, am I? I don't understand, why do I feel so sad and miserable? This post was meant to tell you about the great shopping trip that I had with my friends, but for some reason, I can't even bring myself to describe it. Why am I feeling this way, shouldn't I be happy, I just experienced so many joyful moments just a while ago, but why is it that the outcome of my happiness, is sadness? How did the enjoyment become pain? I feel as though I am isolated and need to be isolated, feeling that it might be better off that way... I don't know, maybe...I'm sorry, I just feel so depressed that I can't even describe anything or even type any longer. I think I'm just going to go to a quiet place where I can think, rest, and try to sort this all out.

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Thursday, November 29, 2007

   Alex is on drugs!!!

hahahahahahahahahahahahaha...I just wanted to see how Cheyanne would react to that title. ^^ But really, today, when I saw him, I thought that he really was on drugs and I asked him, he only looked that way because he'd been sick for two days so ya. But you know, he looked kinda cool in a creepy way that was sort of scary, he looked like he wore black eye liner and his face was all pale and empty of expression. Hmm, he looked like he needed a hug...Well, anyways, today was just so funny! In second block today(geometry), right in the middle of the teacher teaching us something, the classroom below us was playing "Hey there Delilah" so loud, and I just automatically started laughing because some people just looked at each other with grins on there face. Then, I started to giggle because after the song was finished, the people in the class below us turned off the music and started singing the song, badly(from what I could hear). Then, it got all quiet, and we started taking a quiz, then(since my high school is still "under construction", they're doing some work on the roof) a drilling noise happened that lasted for about 10 minutes, then after it got quiet again, they dropped something and Tyler jumed up and yelled "holy moley!!" and everyone either started at him or laughed. Then this I guess you can say partially crazy lady teacher got on the intercom, and started talking about how she was so sorry about some inconvenience about the government meeting at stuff like that. THen, as I was coming out of that class, I was walking down the hall to science, and I saw Bill, and I just half smiled at him, and then all of a sudden he just jumped right infront of me and roared like a dinosaur and I just started laughing again and walked away, saying ok. THen I saw Dayquan(I call him D.Q. for short) was looking at Bill like he was a weirdo or something, and I started alughing like crazy then as I told Rachel. Then, in fourth block today(Business Computer Applications) we had a test today which I didn't know about, which I guess was ok because the test was on something that I knew because we did a bunch of work on it, but then, the power went out for a while, and then the power came back on and the computers came on, but right after that, the computers died again, and were dead for the rest of the day, so no test(YaY!) and we ended up talking for half the class period, until someone came in and told us to extract all of the wires from the walls and stuff, so we did that and just wrote definitions during that whole class period, which wasn't that bad actually. :D
Sorry this is so long...so how are you???

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Saturday, November 24, 2007

   No thanks, I'm still totally stuffed from dinner...

LoL!!! hahahahahahahha... :D :D :D
Nice title huh? IT just popped into my head as I was about to type so ya. :) Well, this whole week was pretty interesting. We ended up cleaning the whole house most of my break!!! Then again, it's a good thing, exercise to loose all the pounds that you gained during Thanksgiving, LoL. So ya, I'm just so glad that my room is cleaned, and that I can actually sit at my desk and write, LoL. Well, we also got some new furniture, it's like a side table thingy, I have no idea what it's called, and it came in a big box with card board and foam and yada yada. We ended up recycling the card board and karate chopping the foam, it was fun. Well, actually we built a little house out of the foam (ya, there was THAT much), then we (my little sister, my dad, and me) ended up karate chopping them :D I also had a stupid moment yesterday, my mom heated something in the microwave, and usually, when it's finished, it only beeps three times, well, when it was finished I got it out for her because I was going to put something else in there, but then, it wouldn't stop beeping!!!!! I started panicking and was like "mom, what'd you do?!?!" and then my mom and dad came in and started pressing random button on the microwave...until my mom saw that it was the oven timer, and they both yelled at me and said they were just pushing all those buttons for nothing, like they were complete idiots, I just started laughing like crazy and apologized...but then again, taht was embarassing and funny. LoL, so, how was your week and everything??? ^^

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Saturday, November 17, 2007

   hmmm, I miss you and the snow

I have no idea why I titled this that. I guess I kinda miss having my other friends around, and I miss those people who have changed, and I miss their old self. Why do people have to change anyways? She's never really been the same since 6th grade. Well, anyways, have you ever wished that things would just stay the same? And that they'd never change, until, you know for sure that you're ready for that? And that's another thing, "are you ready for the change". Hmm, I guess a good example for this might be the changing seasons. Autumn is like a preparation for winter, and spring is like a preparation for summer. We're getting nearer and nearer to my favorite season, winter, and my birthday is coming up as well. Well, I have another thing to say, it has already snowed here! I noticed it as I was coming out of the cafeteria from lunch. I was so happy to see it again. I'm so excited for the snow to come back, it's like an old friend who has come back to visit us. But it didn't accumualate though, but that's fine, I don't mind waiting. So, how are you? I hope you all have a great day too!! ^_^

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Friday, November 9, 2007

   am I...fake?

I was at my friend's house yesterday, helping her out with her campaign(she's running for treasurer) and they were talking about certain people being fake, and I just want to know...am I fake? If you think I am, I can't blame you, I mean, reading things like this, then seeing me, it's completely different. So, I'll just say this. I try to be as honest as I can, if I have a negative opinion about something, I try to say it, but try to not make it sound like it's so horrible. The true reason why I do tend to fake smiles is, I don't want to wear EVERYTHING on my sleeve, I want people to be happy, and I don't want to burden them with my sorrows. I smile so I can make the people around me smile. If I have a different opinion about something, I don't go around and tell the whole world, not unless I know for sure that my opinion is correct to me and what I truly need to stand up for. I like doing that, because it really makes people think...from both sides of the argument. I just really felt the need to get that off my chest, even though, their definition of fake my be different, but to me, fake is just anything that's well, not real, not true, not their honest to goodness self, you know what I mean? Well, there's something that really belongs in my diary, but these are words from within that really need to be heard, and so now, I hope you understand, and accept me for who I am. Well, anyways, I hope that you have a great day!!! ^^

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Saturday, November 3, 2007

   hey, sorry for being away for so long

Well, ya. Sorry about that. Anyways, since I wasn't able to update for two weeks, I'll just tell you the interestingly strange things that have happened. Well, hmmm, someone at my lunch table was staring at me one day, and I asked him what he was looking at, and he said he loved me, and the guy next to him just started laughing, that was pretty random, I just answered "aww thanks! I feel so loved". Hmm, oh, and on Friday, it was pretty weird in science class because something bad happened (somebody shot someone's back with something that no one really knows what and the guy who got shot let out a "string of curse words" as my teacher calls it) and we had to get the disiplanary councelor in the classroom and he is kinda scary, his meer presence makes someone misbehaving behave. Oh, and I've also had some weird dreams, like, for example, Corbin Bleu was yelling at me and yada yada, I don't really want to tell the details, but if you want to hear the story, you can pm me or something. Unfortunately, there is a downside, two events have occured that have left one broken-hearted, and one full of anger. I think that's all I can say about that, I don't wish to burden you with sorrow, but I will tell you this, please, just be honest. Oh, and last night, I burnt my hand trying to make a grilled-cheese sandwich!!! Ouch! Anyways, that's all I can think of right now, I guess it's time for me to visit everyone elses sites!!! ^_^
So, bye for now everyone, hope you have a great weekend!!! :)

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