Friday, August 27, 2004

   ..ok...so i was wrong...
...i passed..and passed i did. My GCSE results came and i kicked ass!!...i got a D in electronics..which is good...but not the standard expected, however i got C's in ICT(computers), art!, french and english literature and i got B's in english language, maths, science(double award so i get 2 B grades)and history. and finally i got an A in religious studies!!!!!...thats 10 passes....and i only needed 5!....

...but i'm not exactly celebrating..they're only letters on a piece of paper...but they open the doors i was heading towards and have set me on the next road....AS and A levels...school starts in a week..better get ready....
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Thursday, August 26, 2004

   ..life's a bitch.....and then it just carries on...
..Llife sucks..we live in hell...what else can be said...lol..school starts next week...i'm scared..i don't know the place or people...so i am really not looking forward to it..REALLY NOT!...
..it was exam results day today....i've been talking to my friends and cousins to see how well they all did...and did well they surely did..(if that sentance is gramatically sound?)..passes at an unbelievable rate....but the whole move thing means my results are coming by post...and haven't done so yet.....so while everyone else parties..i'm left in the dark....with a super-strong feeling of failure....and last time i had a feeling, a vision, THIS strong, it turned out to be partially right....i just hope that i'm over-estimating the sinking feeling i have...

...well, g2g....
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Friday, August 13, 2004

Broken...
..you know the feeling you get when you're just...not there and know it...i have that.....
after 3 weeks without the internet at my disposal i am sure i was having withdrawl syptoms....but i know that's not the reason for my turmoil.....

3 weeks ago i went to babysit my little brother and sister...the horror...the word 'hyperactive' doesn't cover them...one starts havoc the other will follow and cause it double.....but i still love them...at a distance....
one time becky smashed into matt and got a nose-bleed..i don't like blood..but i had to deal with it while trying to calm the raging 4 year-old....
oh....and NEVER go shopping with them...they get lost and it's just bad....

then after the ordeal was over i had to head for my new home..and this is causing problems for me...
it's taken 2 weeks to get the net organised and 2 days to get it to work...but......
..i've had trouble sleeping..i'm feeling unattached...they say "home is where the heart is.." but my heart isn't here.....i feel cold inside...broken....

...i'm gonna try and get my head sorted...i know i need to.....
..but on the bright side the countryside is beautiful at sunset...
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Friday, July 16, 2004

   ..tough choices..if they are such
...The last few days have been tough...packing all my stuff away for the move..and bloody hell does my stuff weigh a ton..just the books have nearly done my back in...but it's got to be done for next week...i was hoping to see my friends just one more time before i leave..but i've had my time cut short....mum needs me to go stay with her next week to look after the kids..and by the time that's over the move would have happened...i would do something tomorrow...but i still have packing..and sunday is busy, and when i'm getting picked up....it's just really hard for me right now...the whole moving-thing was in a way unorganised but mum asking me for help came at the worst possible time..of all the weeks it had to be next week.....i could have said no to helping mum..but in such a situation i couldn't turn it down...family is most important...

hmm...apart from packing and watching TV..i have done nothing...great life i lead...g'night...
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Saturday, July 10, 2004

   ..partay!
..it was my uncle's 40th birthday party today..loads of friend and relatives were there...it was almost fun....almost........but it was great seeing my family, some of whom i haven't seen in a while, plus mum came down too, so she's here....but we got back at 2am,we're all tired..so i'm gonna go rest now...

..g'night all
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Friday, July 9, 2004

   ..now was that a good idea?...
It's been a few days since i updated so....

...i was away tuesday and wednesday because i was helping sort things out at the new house, and i also had a meeting with the head of 6th form at my new school and we talked about the subjects i should take next year, since some of the subjects i wanted to do where unavailable....I wanted to do history, psychology, government & polotics and philosophy at my current school, but at my new school only history and psychology are available from that, the range of subjects is so much smaller than my current school...one of my replacement choices was sociology..which conflicts with history so i can't take it...and so i still only had 2 subject and i need 4...so being unsure i agreed to something potentially stupid....i picked 3 new subjects to try out (4 is hard, 5 is suicidal..) then i just choose which one of those i don't like and carry on with the other 4...the new subjects being: economics, maths (mechanics) and media studies...which are mostly subjects i wouldn't consider choosing...all i can say is.."fun ¬_¬ "

..so we did some sorting in the new house..but for me it doen't fell like "home" ...just over 2 weeks left before the move...i'm really not looking forward to it..

..what else...nothing..oh well...later people!
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Sunday, July 4, 2004

   ..well i'm glad thats over...
....my grandparents are gone..my uncle and aunt are gone...no more cold chicken...and boiled potatoes..yuk! >.< .....

....footy final...portugal(boo!) vs greece(omg they're here?!)....greece the tounament underdogs..and yes they won...strange as the first match in the group stages was portugal vs greece..greece won that 1:0...and they meet in the finals..and yet again greece win 1:0.....small world...anyone who put money on greece at the start would be a very rich person now...(damn it, damn it, why didn't i do that..)

...i'm currently bored (oh what a surprise ¬_¬ )so i thought i'd update......i would eat..but there's no munchy-ish food about..so..well except the biscuits i am about to devour..but i don't think i can be bothered...
..
..laters...
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Friday, July 2, 2004

   ..oh look..the dog...
...yes, my aunt and uncle are looking after my sis and I for the weekend...so with them come the kids....and also the dog they sometimes look after for another relative.....now, i ain't the biggest fan of animals...i'm not evil...just don't like 'em...the dog is alright...except for the fact it won't SHUT UP! so then i get dragged to the park when all i want to do is relax on a friday night....fun.....the main reason i'm annoyed about it is because no-one in this family feels obliged to tell me anything! ...so ofcourse i didn't know they had the dog with them....
...then down the park i nearly died (ok, exageration, but still...) from running about too much in the cold...>.<.....

...what else.....oh yeah...since half the stuff got moved...the place looks empty...loads of odd cabinets have vanished..and it's surprising how much they are noticable when they're...well...not there....

...my sisters school fete tomorrow...i will not go as it brings back too many bad memories...country dancing...compulsory of course....evil school...it's cruelty, and people just watch as a bunch of kids are force to dance together in the name of 'entertainment' ...it's just wrong!

..oh well...g'night
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Wednesday, June 30, 2004

   ....and then I realised.....
..I really have nothing to do.....ok that's a lie, but not that much of it is strenuos or time consuming....oh well....

..I've been playing .hack//infection for a while...i picked it up again for the first time in a bit...and completed it...to the joyous news mutation had recently come out..which i quickly bought and have played avidly for 2 days....yet i haven't finished it...for reasons of a 'game over' nature...but i can't be that far off finishing it....then i could have the wait of 2 months before outbreak comes out....why do we get games so late...it sucks...

but i had Manning stay over last night...just hanging around...talking about..girls....well, this is the guy that may move to Spain just so there are girls he hasn't dated...for the past..(lost count of amount) months he has had a different girlfriend..no relationship lasting more than 2 weeks....and he acts pretty gay (not that there's a problem with being gay...but him...it's different!)..the whole rumour springing from his lack of keeping a relationship together and also his 'interaction' with other guys....
...my friends are crazy alsortment of wierdos..more on the others at a different time...

...got the removal men taking half our stuff to our new house tomorrow...so my uncle, aunt and little cousins will be staying here looking after my sister and i, while my grandparents sort out the new place.....fun ¬_¬

well...i think that's it....oh well...
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Saturday, June 26, 2004

   Kiss of death!!!
..I have the kiss of death.."england will win" and they lost..."france will win" and they lost..."sweden will win" and they lost...although the last was to test the theory and help a friend....oh well

i have nothing else to do since school finished...except prep work...i'm going to try meet up with some friends over the next few week....but who knows...
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