Monday, December 3, 2007

Separation

glitter-graphics.com Many people find that quitting a habit "cold turkey" is the hardest thing to do. In all my expiriences, I can say that I agree with that fact.

There are many things that people try to get away from: smoking, lying, cursing and sometimes the one they truly desire. Now its been a monthsince I have ceased to communicate with my turned crush turned enemy. I would have thought that he'd be out of my mind...Guess Again! Old habits die hard...and for someone like me, who gives people advice on thier relationships, separation is the hardest pill to swallow.

This person may not be nice in personality or looks...yet just being in his presence turns me breathless. With most "gay relationships" attraction is mostly physical. Yet I feel like there could be something emotional in this. Yet, if we are enemies, why did I fall so hard in love for him?

Now we can't even say "Good Morning" to each other. And everyday that we come into each others gaze without saying anything, is just cruel. It's like we have so much we want to say even though we don't have the balls to say anything. The worst part is that I cause my own pain, he has already let go, but I don't give up on anything that my heart wants. At this point, I could do anything to even talk to him. Maybe the holiday spirit can help him give me another chance.

Bottom line is that I had to rant about stuff that has been harboring in me for a month...i think I'm a pathetic person...(sniff)

*StolenCrusade Out*
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Wednesday, November 28, 2007

   Current Events

glitter-graphics.com Well, stuff is still not going very well at home between my parents. They believe that they can make it though thier problems, yet I don't believe that they will. But they have decided not to switch my schools around, so yes I will be staying with Haseo an Kaname which is cool.

Tommorow I have a Field Trip to a State University and we will be gone all day until nightime. I have to bring money because our lunch isn't payed for. And we will be walking ALOT. So its a bittersweet trip, maybe it will be better if I get to ride the bus with haseo and my other BFFS. I'll just wait for it to all play out.

Right now, Im just hoping for the next 4 weeks to pass right by, or maybe something else will happen...hopefully someone gets with me soon, its kinda boring being single. I mean I cut my hair short, yet really nice...so people actually like my hair better this time...so mabye with a new look, new chances will arise.


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Wednesday, November 21, 2007

This week....

glitter-graphics.com I would have thought that this week would have been fun, but I'ts BORING. For the most part, I've been at home baking stuff for the holiday season. I think that if i'm going to achieve culinary stardom one day, i'll have to practice more.
Yesterday, I went to work, over at my dad's workplace called Applebee's. I was prepping food items until 1 or 2 at night. But I got free food...yum!!! I met another of the manager's at the store, her name is Emily, she is totally awsome..she owns sooo many designer clothing items, it would blow you away. Thats what she gets for using her daddy's money. Anyways, she came over with her gay roomate (who wasn't bad looking) and we hung out, it was fun.
For the people who know me, i may have bad news, i talked to my dad, and if the school that I'm at does not let me take Culinary Arts or Fashion Design, then I might consider going to my homeschool, it a plan but its not for sure yet, apart from that, I have confirmation that I'll be leaving for the Holidays to Canada on Christmas Eve, and I'll be returning on January 5th, coolz
Thats pretty much it,

*StolenCrusade Out*
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