Thursday, February 9, 2006

again, it's been a while.

Hello again. How's everyone doing? ^^ I've been okay, but kind of depressed when I'm alone. I've become more and more attatched to physical-in-person conversations with voices!.. And it's getting worse I think. Because now.. there's this whole issue of possibly having to sell our house sometime in the near near future.. T_T; and stuff about not having money and..and being indebt and stuff. It's just really tearing down into me... I enjoy going to the mall every friday and now I actually want to go and do go if I can get there, every day on the weekend. I just have more fun there than I ever could at home. I've been discussing with my mom about the little things that we have to do to get ready to sell the house. Not only do we have to fix the septic tank... but we'll have to fix the bathroom tile (long story x.x) the A/C... paint some rooms, get rid of a LOT of shit.. It's going to be so much trouble and I'm probaly going to cry A LOT... I've lived in this house since.. I was 6 months old.. I know everything about it. I know the creaky spots in the floor.. the parts in the wall that are broken.. where every light switch and plug is. I can move through it without light and not run into anything. I know every trick to it. It just makes me sad.. that I'm in love with my house.. but I can't help it, I Spend MOST of my time there.. Well.. yeah. that's pretty much all that has been going on in my life.

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Wednesday, January 18, 2006

   Hmh.

Been pondering on a new theme.. and what I would do it on. I've been having a few obsessions and I wanna decide which one to act on. Here's my list so far: The Legend of Dragoon Chaos Legion Final Fantasy VII Final Fantasy VII: Advent Children Princess Mononoke Nausicaa of the Valley of the Wind Chobits Rozen Maiden Angel Sanctuary Angel Dust Weiss Kreuz Foamy The Squirell Teen Girl Squad (from homestarrunner.com) Or something miscellaneous I know it's a long list but let me know what you think I should do as a theme. I'd much appriciate it. o.o"

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Wednesday, January 11, 2006

I have.. a honest question for everyone..

If you, lets say hypothetically, had a mother that had an emotion downfall after a divorce and seemed to just get worse as a parent.. and was currently 'happy' with her new relationship but was neglecting her children by not staying at her own house and hardly speaking to them and still gives them orders about what to do and when to do it.. (here comes the question part) Would you still listen to her because she's your mother or would you go with your gut and how you felt being as you feel you are responsible enough to know when something needs done....? Just a question.. Hypothetical.. of course...

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Tuesday, January 3, 2006

   Heh.

Wow. Haven't been here in forever ago.. Haven't really had much to say. Well.. I suppose that's a lie. I've just been too lazy to tell any of you about it. Why should I waste my time here when no one reads this stuff? That sounds too emo though. I'm not emo. I really am just too lazy, lmfao. But I'm trying to turn over a new leaf. Over the Christmas-New Year's break I ate so much that I almost threw up. I got so sick from eating too much.. It made me weak and I don't want to be weak. -_-" So.. I'm going to try to be a better person to myself. One: By not eating so many bad foods. Two: By being more active. Three: By trying to do better in school. I haven't done so well already on number three because I didn't do a huge report thinger I was suppose to. I was told several times by severl people that I should do it, and I apprieciate their thoughts and care very much. I just wish that I couldn't disappoint them by not doing it. It's really a shame. I bet I could have done well on it.. (dispite how stupid it was) but I wasted time.. and goofed off. I can't do that. I have to be an adult now.. Make the right decisions. My mother, isn't much of a help and my father hardly knows about my life. It really is horrible but this is my lesson about life. I'm taking my test before getting any lessons about it. I have to experiment with what can and cannot be done. And I hope to do that soon. I realize another problem I have.. I attatch myself to false gods. People I believe will always be there to comfort me and keep me safe and happy but always end up leaving me to talk to myself. I'm not blaming them. Maybe It's Me. Maybe I'm annoying or overbearing? I don't know....honestly.... and apologize if I ever am. Just tell me, don't stop talking to me. Something else.. I try to hard, sometimes, to impress people and feel like I'm pushing them away. It needs to stop.. I know, but I can't help it. I seem to have this constant need for conversation and if I don't want conversation, I'm SURE you'll know it. I slip into a world all my own.... These are all things (and I'm sure there's more) that I want to impove or prevent this new year. Please if you can, help me in anyways possible. If you want...

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Monday, October 24, 2005

My total: 141 -Coughs.-

Put an X by the movies you've seen. If you get more than 70, you're a movie whore. COPY and REPOST ! PLACE YOUR SCORE IN THE SUBJECT LINE [ ] Pirates of the Caribbean [ ] Boondock Saints [ ] The Mexican [X] Fight Club [ ] Starsky and Hutch [ ] Neverending Story [ ] Blazing Saddles [ ] Garden State [ ] The Princess Bride [ ] Young Frankenstien [X] Anchorman [X] Napoleon Dynamite [X] Saw [X] White Noise [ ] White Oleander [X] Anger Management Total Here: 6 [X] 50 First Dates [ ] Jason [X] Scream [X] Scream 2 [X] Scream 3 [X] Scary Movie [X] Scary Movie 2 [X] Scary Movie 3 [X] American Pie [X] American Pie 2 [X] American Wedding [X] Harry Potter [X] Harry Potter 2 [X] Harry Potter 3 [X] Resident Evil I [X] Resident Evil 2 [X] The Wedding Singer [X] Little Black Book Total Here: 17 [X] The Village [ ] Donnie Darko [X] Lilo & Stitch [X] Finding Nemo [X] Finding Neverland [X] 13 Ghosts [X] Signs [X] The Grinch [X] Texas Chainsaw Massacre [X] White Chicks [X] Butterfly Effect [ ] 13 going on 30 [X] I, Robot [ ] Dodgeball [ ] Universal Soldier [X] A Series Of Unfortunate Events [X] Along Came A Spider [ ] Deep Impact Total Here: 13 [ ] King Pin [ ] Never Been Kissed [X] Meet The Parents [X] Meet the Fockers [X] Eight Crazy Nights [ ] A Cinderella Story [ ] The Terminal [ ] The Lizzie McGuire Movie [X] Passport to Paris [X] Dumb & Dumber [X] Dumb & Dumberer [X] Final Destination [X] Final Destination 2 [X] Halloween [X] The Ring [X] The Ring 2 [ ] Harold & Kumar Go to White Castle [ ] Practical Magic [ ] Chicago [X] Ghost Ship [ ] From Hell [X] Hellboy [X] Secret Window [ ] I Am Sam [X] The Whole Nine Yards [ ] The Whole Ten Yards [X] The Day After Tomorrow [X] Child's Play [X] Bride of Chucky [X] Ten Things I Hate About You [ ] Just Married [X] Gothika [X] Nightmare on Elm Street [ ] Sixteen CandleS [X] Bad Boys [X] Bad Boys 2 [ ] Joy Ride [ ] Seven (SE7EN) [ ] Oceans Eleven [X] Oceans Twelve [ ] Identity Total Here: 24 [ ] Lone Star [X] Predator I [X] Predator II [X] Independence day [ ] Cujo [ ] A Bronx Tale [X] Darkness Falls [ ] Christine [X] ET [X] Children of the Corn [X] My Boss' Daughter [ ] Maid in Manhattan [ ] Frailty [ ] Best bet [X] How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days [X] She's All That [ ] Calendar Girls [ ] Sideways [X] Mars Attacks [ ] Misery Total Here: 10 [ ] Event Horizon [ ] Ever After [X] Forrest Gump [ ] Big Trouble in Little China [X] X-men 1 [X] X-men 2 [X] Catch Me If You Can [ ] The Others [ ] Freaky Friday [w/ Jodie Foster] [ ] Freaky Friday [w/ Gaby Hoffman] [X] Freaky Friday [w/ Lindsay Lohan] [X] Ring of Fire [X] The Hot Chick [ ] Swimfan [X] Miracle [X] Old School [ ] Ray [X] The Notebook [ ] K-Pax Total Here: 10 [X] Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring [X] Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers [X] Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King [X] A Walk to Remember [X] Boogeyman [X] Hitch [ ] Back Door Sluts 9 [ ] Anal Acres 1 [ ] Anal Acres 2 [ ] B-Cup Divas [ ] The Fifth Element [X] Star Wars Episode I The Phantom Menace [X] Star Wars Episode II Attack of The Clones [X] Star Wars Episode III Revenge of The Sith [X] Star Wars Episode IV A New Hope [X] Star Wars Episode V The Empire Strikes Back [ ] Star Wars Episode VI Return of The Jedi... [ ] Troop Beverly Hills [ ] Swimming with Sharks [X] Air Force One [ ] For Richer or Poorer [ ] Trainspotting [ ] People Under the Stairs [ ] Blue Velvet [ ] Sound of Music [X] Parent Trap [w/ Hayley Mills] [X] Parent Trap [w/ Lindsay Lohan] [ ] The 'Burbs [X] The Terminator [ ] Empire Records [ ] SLC Punk! [ ] Meet Joe Black [ ] Wild Girls [ ] A Clockwork Orange [ ] the Order [X] Spider-man [X] Spider-man 2 [ ] Amelie Total Here: 17 [X] Mean Girls [X] Shrek [X] Shrek 2 [X] The Incredibles [X] Collateral [X] The Fast & The Furious [X] 2 Fast 2 Furious [ ] Sky Captain Of The World Of Tomorrow [X] Closer Total Here: 8 [ ] Titanic [ ] Saved [ ] Bowling For Columbine [ ] Farenheit 9/11 [X] The Sixth Sense [X] Artificial Intelligence (AI) [ ] Love Actually [ ] Shutter [X] Ella Enchanted [X] Princess Diaries [X] Princess Diaries 2: Royal Engagement [X] Constantine [ ] Million Dollar Baby [ ] Envy [X] Eurotrip [ ] Malibu's Most Wanted [X] Big Daddy [ ] Black Sheep [X] The Breakfast Club [X] Pretty in Pink [X] West Side Story Total Here: 11 [X] A Christmas Story [ ] Spanglish [ ] Pulp Fiction [ ] Sleepover [X] The Evil Dead [ ] Killer Klowns From Outer Space [X] The Seed of Chucky [ ] Vanilla Sky [X] Nightmare Before Christmas [X] Eternal Sunshine Of The Spotless Mind [X] Interview With The Vampire [ ] The Crow [ ] Purple Rain [ ] Reservoir Dogs [X] Wayne's World Total Here: 7 [X] Wayne's World 2 [ ] 21 Grams [ ] Blow [X] Edward Scissorhands [ ] Clerks [X] Beauty and the Beast [ ] Guess Who [ ] Monster In-Law [X] Elf [X] Stuart Little [X] Stuart Little 2 [ ] Mall Rats [X] Chasing Amy [X] Dogma [ ] Jay and Silent Bob Strike Back Total Here: 8 [X] Beetlejuice [X] The Last Samurai [X] The Amityville Horror [original] [X] The Amityville Horror [remake] [ ] The Aviator [X] Romeo + Juliet [ ] Barbershop [ ] Barbershop 2 [ ] Beauty Shop [X] Legally Blonde [X] Legally Blonde 2 [X] The Forgotten [X] Confessions of a Teenage Drama Queen [X] The Grudge Total Here: 10

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Sunday, October 16, 2005

You know.. what...? I'm tired of.. EVERYTHING.

Roar, roar, blah, rawr, GRR ROAR BLAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ! -_-" I just have to say.. I'm tired of life. No, no, you special people out there who don't read this anyways. I don't want to die. I may say I do at times but, honestly I don't. It's just irritation exploding my brain. So don't worry about it. I'm just very very IRRITATED at life. Money, people, SCHOOL, the air.. wind... FOOD... Did I mention life? Well if not, life. So.. now that I have that out.. Stay tuned for more random bitching in next weeks episode of "WHAT THE FUCK!?"

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Tuesday, October 11, 2005

   Blargh..

Well.. a lot has happened since I last updated. And I mean really updated.. the last post was just something to throw in there so I didn't have to post anything. XD But yeah.. I don't remember everything, and or what order it came in. But I've gone to a lot of my schools home football games, not watch just to socialize. I've hung out with friends and stuff. Saturday, the first of this month was Tekko 1/2. Which was fun. Then the next week was boring. And this weekend, I hung out with friends the whole weekend. On friday I went to the football game with my friend Brianna and, her, myself, Emily, Candice and Josh hung out. Fink and his girlfriend Liz were there for a while too. We goofed off most of the time, not even at the game at all. Lol. Then came home, Brianna stayed the night. Watched a cool movie on Satuday, Emily rode her bike to my house on Sunday and we hung out. Brianna left that night and my mom went out, and didn't come back so Josh and Tom came over. XD! We stayed up all night and had a blast with stuff.. then I hurt my ankle Monday morning... and the day pretty much sucked. Makaya came over for a while. Everyone was gone by 5:30, including my mom and brother ironically.. So.. I just sat there, nuturing my ankle, getting some peace and quiet.. and resting. I stayed home from school today.. to further rest my ankle.. And now I think I'm getting sick too. u_u

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Wednesday, September 28, 2005

Haven't been around in a while..

I stole this from somone. Lmao. All the parts in.. bold, italics.. or underlined.. are ones that are more important in a way or just really funny. XD Or awesomely true. Lmao! Enjoy! X your confessions... [ ] I am bisexual [ ] I am homosexual [ ] I collect comic books. [x] I shut others out when I'm sad [ ] I open up to others easily [x] I am keeping a secret from the world [x] I watch the news [ ] I own over 5 rap CDs [ ]I like Disney movies [x] I am a sucker for eyes [x] I curse regularly. [x] I've slipped out a "lol" in a real conversation. [ ] I have a job [ ] I love Martha Stewart. [x] I am in love/like with someone. [x] I am self conscious [x] I like to laugh. [ ] I smoke a pack a day. [x] I have cough drops when I'm not sick. [ ] I can't swallow pills. [x] I have many scars [ ] I've been out of this country [x] I am really ticklish [x] I love chocolate. [x] I am comfortable with being me. [x] I play computer games/video games when I'm bored [x] Gotten lost in the city [x]Saw a shooting star [ ] I had a serious Surgery. [ ]I have kissed a stranger. [x] Hugged a stranger. [ ] Been in a fist fight with the same sex. [ ] Been arrested. [x] Laughed and had milk/soda come out of your nose. [x] Pushed all the buttons on an elevator [ ] Made out in an elevator.... [x] Swore at your parents. [x] Kicked a guy where it hurts. [ ] Been skydiving. [ ] Been bungee jumping. [x] Broken a bone. [x] Played spin the bottle. [x] Gotten the chicken pox. [ ] Ridden in a taxi. [x] Shoplifted. [ ] Been fired. [x] had feelings for someone who didn't have them back. [ ] Stole something from your job. [ ] Had a crush on a teacher/coach. [x] Saw someone/something dying. [ ] Ridden over 400 miles in one day. [ ] Been on a plane. [ ] Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show. [ ] Thrown up in a bar. [ ] Eaten Sushi. [ ] Met someone in person from the internet. [ ] been to a motocross show. [ ] Done hard drugs [ ] Taken painkillers. [ ] Cheated on someone else *pass this on with your own confessions Repost this and put an X on ur confessions

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Tuesday, September 20, 2005

   o___o

I was gooooing to post yesterday what I did over the weekend but I forgot.. and last night was just creepy. I have to put this down.. First off, I went to be after 11 sometime and fell asleep watching the lightning out my window. I had a creepy ass dream... were I got kiddnapped by something... some.. monster thinger.. and It was weird and then um... I dunno.. A bunch of stuff happened I can't really remember. But I woke up in the middle of the night and EVERYTHING was OFF. Even the computer.. internet thinger and the router.. and my clock was BLANK. I was like... O________O!!!! And not to mention the hot breath... THAT WASN'T MINE on my CHEEK!! Oh god, it was so creepy. I practically ran out of my room to the living room, which light was on? oddly.. =\ I was like Wtf? I looked at the digital cable clock which was on too and remembered the time then went into my room, my clock was now blinking 12:00.. I set it for 3:03 and looked at the computer, which was on again.. I was like..? And went to bed, shivering and hiding under my covers. X_X

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Monday, September 12, 2005

Mrow.

I'm sitting here in Desktop Publlishing.. o_o.. on the internet.. and not suppose to be. Lol. Haha.. Well, I'm going to go back to my exersices now. Talk to you later, I'll try updating again too and maybe getting to some sites. ^^;;

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