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Wow. Haven't been here in forever ago.. Haven't really had much to say.
Well.. I suppose that's a lie. I've just been too lazy to tell any of you about it. Why should I waste my time here when no one reads this stuff? That sounds too emo though. I'm not emo. I really am just too lazy, lmfao. But I'm trying to turn over a new leaf. Over the Christmas-New Year's break I ate so much that I almost threw up. I got so sick from eating too much.. It made me weak and I don't want to be weak. -_-" So.. I'm going to try to be a better person to myself.
One: By not eating so many bad foods. Two: By being more active. Three: By trying to do better in school.
I haven't done so well already on number three because I didn't do a huge report thinger I was suppose to. I was told several times by severl people that I should do it, and I apprieciate their thoughts and care very much. I just wish that I couldn't disappoint them by not doing it. It's really a shame. I bet I could have done well on it.. (dispite how stupid it was) but I wasted time.. and goofed off. I can't do that. I have to be an adult now.. Make the right decisions. My mother, isn't much of a help and my father hardly knows about my life. It really is horrible but this is my lesson about life. I'm taking my test before getting any lessons about it. I have to experiment with what can and cannot be done. And I hope to do that soon.
I realize another problem I have.. I attatch myself to false gods. People I believe will always be there to comfort me and keep me safe and happy but always end up leaving me to talk to myself. I'm not blaming them. Maybe It's Me. Maybe I'm annoying or overbearing? I don't know....honestly.... and apologize if I ever am. Just tell me, don't stop talking to me.
Something else.. I try to hard, sometimes, to impress people and feel like I'm pushing them away. It needs to stop.. I know, but I can't help it. I seem to have this constant need for conversation and if I don't want conversation, I'm SURE you'll know it. I slip into a world all my own....
These are all things (and I'm sure there's more) that I want to impove or prevent this new year. Please if you can, help me in anyways possible. If you want... |
Heh.