Sunday, June 10, 2007

   Sorry not bein on
Heho and whaddya know!? My dad used to say that, today he was put to death... ohhhh very sad. Kira's bein a bitch. dunno why though.
Ren and I are doin absolutely nothin! hehe, yeah, my family went on vacation and left Kira with me and my band. Roy made pork tacos again! woo-hoo!
aw, well, i'm tired. did not sleep well, Roy and Ren would not let me sleep. yeah they were havin a wrestle match again, i frigin kicked their asses! Though i do have a dislocated shoulder, and a black eye.
The band wants me to go shoppin with em, so I gotta go.

Strawberry Miyavi

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Friday, May 11, 2007

Hey
choking on my lunch. ow, that hurt. Well i'm bored, and hey my e-mail opened. i hate my computer.
My sisters are at their friends' house and Kira went to the mall, so its just me and my band at my house!! we're tryin to record a few CDs of our music but it ain't workin. oh that's bad... my mom left me and my band here with my sisters and Kira, hmm, that wasn't a good idea. I mean, four guys and four girls, but like any of us dudes wanna do sumin with my little sisters, or Kira now she's just bleh!
its pretty frigin hot out, we're havin a movie night, meaning i gotta go through all our DVDs sept my stepdad's gross movies. *shudders*
Okay guys I'm gettin off so i can watch movies. see ya! ^_-

Strawberry Miyavi
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Tuesday, May 8, 2007

finally got home
just got back from seein my dad and pickin up my sisters from school. My dad was a little upset ta see me, he said he regrets what he did. I told how i felt, dude, even if i say i hate my dad i don't mean it... it was awesome ta tell him all the stuff that happened.
Kira's just sittin and yammerin on about boys, like i care. ta me relationships are pretty pointless. I don't think Ren likes her talkin bout boys, specially when he's included, heh. plus he has a girlfriend.
I gotta take my sisters shoppin and crap, i'm playin dad again, heh not fun. but i enjoy takin care of my sisters, so did... Olivia before she was... killed. okay, guys i'll be back later... Me and my band are goin to the mall with my sisters, i can't take care of them alone. see ya!! ^_-

Strawberry Miyavi
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Monday, May 7, 2007

   zzz.. I'm on the computer!? When this happen!? oh...
all night concerts suck, i'm sleepier than when i babysat my sisters and their friends. My mom and stepdad are gonna be gone till next week, dunno why, but yeah. i'm not sure if i'll be on morrow cuz i'm visitin my dad in jail, but when i get i'll post.
my friend made leftovers for dinner, all my friends in my band live with me cuz their parents were killed by my dad. luckily they don't hate me. damn Roy makes good pork tacos, my dinner's pretty good, now if we had sumin ta drink that'd be great.
i wonder how my dad's gonna act when he sees me, slap me? kick me? kill me? hmm? dunno. Gotta go, my sis needs my help with homework and other little sister crap! sayonara!
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Sunday, May 6, 2007

When Love Leaves You (poem)
To those I love
To those who died
To those whom I will miss
To my friends, who stand beside me
To those friends I know yet I don't know

I can honestly say I haven't found my way
What will come today?
I yet to fall blissfully down
I can't see your face
I can't feel your soft skin
I can't hold you in my arms
I can't kiss your red lips
Red?
Blood has fallen over you
Where... where did the blood come from?

Your skin goes cold
the winter air breaks in
follow me
down... down... we go

Why has God left me now?
no, don't drop me

i feel... wires?
on my arms and hands... even on my legs
You say "puppet"?
i am only your puppet
screams come in the background
screams?
not now

i raced across the lawn
to the forest!
i trip and fall on my face
tripped over what?
i look down
my heart beats
tears of pain and sorrow fall down my cheeks
your dead!
gone... left me in this night
who could've done such to you?!!
WHO!?
i ask you: who?!

lost and found
found and killed
killed and nothing more to my tainted soul

*end*

To my readers: this is a poem/song I sang at Olivia's funeral, there is a meaning behind it. I will ask you this: Can you guess the meaning? i will tell the meaning tomorrow if i'm on, read my next post.

Strawberry Miyavi
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Saturday, May 5, 2007

as if life didn't already suck!
Kinda pissed off, i was helpin my mom and stepdad out in the storage room, we found five boxxes with my name on it, when i went through the boxxes i cried, cuz i found some videos of me and my friends and my girlfriend who was murdered last year. i watched the tapes, they had some of my happiest memories on there: my performances, days at the beach, days where me, my friends and our girlfriends hung out and acted retarded. damn its depressin.
I went to school with this guy a few years back, had a horrid rep: criminal record, he beat four kids, and raped a little girl: my sister! i always knew he'd do sumthin again but he didn't so i trusted him then he killed Olivia (my girlfriend) god only knows why he snapped. everyone in my band has been in total shock cuz of it. i talked with Olivia's parents, they gave me some of her stuff and her diary. like i really wanna read what she talked bout. haha.

Replies to comments:

pinkfishegg: yeah i'm in band, i would love to uplaod my music for ya ta hear but sadly my computer's fucked up. (sorry bout the langue)
Kira: waht was i not supposed to tell? that your dad's a weirdo? or you got a crush on Ren?

Strawberry Miyavi
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Thursday, May 3, 2007

*sigh* homesick
my stepdad made me and my band go outta town cuz we had a cold, yes he's a weirdo, dude it sucks here. i miss home, i miss my fans and all! besides i'm still an amature band, not big or anything, but we're big in our hometown.
My best friend and his band talked to a record company, they might be hittin the music scene sooner than expected. plus side for my band, we learned four new songs: MCR's Cemetery Drive and The Ghost of You, From First To Last's Note To Self and Sonny Moore's Emily.
My friend/guitarist Ren's being pain cuz i answered the phone and we're alone. and did i mention Kira has crush on him, *evil laughter*
for some reason i think my stepdad's a pedophile, i've had enough of em, my real dad's a pedophile and a murderer. couple weeks back i nearly beat up some kids cuz they wouldn't leave my little sisters alone, tellin em that they were freaks. the whole town knows about my family's past, the secrets of our births and everythin.
next week i'm goin to the prison to see my dad, i don't know why i'm goin after all shit he's done to me and my sisters. but i kinda wanna see him again, deep down he really loves us kids. god, i'm cold, nearly summer and i'm freezin my ass off. also, my mom is sending me ta Japan, cuz so i can learn to be a proper japanese child. until next time, everyone. i must take my leave.

Strawberry Miyavi

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Sunday, April 29, 2007

bored
Kira's a pain in the ass, i have nothin to do. Kira went to her stupid party, my neighbor said she'd watch teh girls so i could to my show, me and my friend's band rocked, though we nothin good happened to us. Kira doesn't know how to beyblade, and she thinks she's my sister. hahaha. now she's actin like she knows everything and i'm stupid. aw this is funny. worst thing she could be saying "Backstreet boys"!!! NOOO!! BOYBANDS ARE EVILLL!!! MUST KILLL!!!!!!! calm down me, good me, ow.

very bored, very sad, time ta scream. hmmm, gonna go, but everyone please visit Kira's site: Forest Child Kira. she's stupid and needs friends! PLEASE! I don't wanna deal with her, she's a pain in the ass who hit me!

Strawberry Miyavi
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Wednesday, April 25, 2007

extreme anger
friday night i hafta babsit my lil sis', Kira's goin to a party, but i have a show to do, me and my band, and my friend's band got a gig at a really big club but i hafta babysit! a record company is supposed to be there, i can't cancel this, Kira's such a spoiled brat! maybe my mom will have Kira babysit, this could be our chance at fame!
plus side, mom made stepdad give me my stuff back. don't ya be thinkin i'm spoiled, i've lived a tough life and i work for everything.
sumtime during the night there was a murder next door, dude i am so frigin happy i got my sisters in when i did. all three of em and Kira went outside (they do this often, go out for freshair) I walk outside to do my nightly thinkin and i hear a gunshot and screaming, i get my sisters and call the police, i feel bad for the peron who got killed, my neighbor's husband and son, i've known them since i was a month old.

Strawberry Miyavi
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Tuesday, April 24, 2007

nothin to do
Just my normal boring day-to-day life, i got in a fight with my stepdad cause i wear all black, blakc makeup, ect, the normal emo thing and he thinks i'm acting stupid and giving him a bad rep. what an ass, i don't know why my mom married him. he took away all my CDs, DVDs, now i can't watch any anime or listen to any music.
life sucks, nothin to do, nowhere to go. If my life gets any worse i swear i'll run away (again) i wish i had sumin to do, but don't.
Well, I'm gonna put up some pics in a while, but if ya wanna check out my collection here's a link:
http://profile.imageshack.us/user/StrawberryMiyavi/
just click it and come by! gotta go, cause i need to upload pics to my site. see ya!

Strawberry Miyavi
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