Friday, April 3, 2009

   A Good Day to be Alive For
I was released from the hospital a couple days ago, und I'm so frickin happy ta be out!! That place was hell! So Jewel, Seth, und I are all doing great! =D Oh, und we took Seth to the doctors this morning for a check up, und strangely enough the cancer is freakishly gone. Which means all three of us is better!!! Whoo-hoo!

Gramps passed away this morning, sadly.... poor guy. I'm really gonna miss him. His lawyer showed up a little bit ago with Gramps' will, he left EVERYTHING to me, Jewel, und Seth. He was such a wonderful old dude, never met an old guy that awesome before, well except my granddad.

Honestly for the first time in a long time I'm happy to be alive. My heart is working, I'm alive, my band is back together, and we're rockin out. Things actually seem to be workin out greatly and that's the best thing that could be happening. My frineds are all okay, I'm okay, my mum und dad are getting remarried (not to each other, luckily). Life finally seems to be getting better for, but just watch, the next couple of days or so sumin bad's gonna happen lol XD I swear my life is bipolar!

Well I ain't got much more ta say, I promised Scarlet und Caleb (my nephews) I'd take em to mcdonalds, so see ya!

--Strawberry (frickin) Miyavi--

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Friday, March 27, 2009

Somewhere along the lines of happiness
Anyways, good news!! I'm gonna be outta here on the first of apirl! yay!!! *dances around happily* eh hum... erm, excuse that. But I'm happy! Jewel, Seth, und I will be going home! Oh, hold it, 'home' consists of a bitch from hell mother who is more than willing to knock me on my ass for the slightest of things. But hey, home is home, and home is where my heart lays. Some part of me rather not go, cuz we don't wanna leave Gramps. I mean the doctor told us he probably won't make it another week or so.... I'll miss him when he goes, he's been kind of like a father for me, und if you've known me since i joined here, a father is something i've never really had.
Ja, sure I have my dad, not my real one, but he's only been in my life since i was fourteen. So I can't really say he's a father figure.

I found out that Josh, Kira's boyfriend dumped her because of a misscarriage, who the hell does that boy think he is treating my little sister like that!? Misscarriages run common in my family actually, my real mum had a few misscarriages before she birthed Vicious.
So when I get outta here the first thing i'm doin is huntin that ass down and kill him, after i kill those damn jocks for hurtin my brother! Why do jocks always have to look down on us because we're different? sure i wear nail polish and eye liner, but at least i'm not out f*ckin every cheerleader who comes my way or doin steroids. And then just because my little sister was a cheerleader and had a couple relationships that were off and on they think they have a right to waltz right up to her and bang her, well news flash for these assholes, not while i'm around!!! Yes, I am very protective of my siblings. Well someone hasta. But yeah... i have issues with jocks, 'gangstas', and all those fruit loops, seems as those they all find sum way ta piss me off.

Its the middle of the night und I can't sleep. its cuz sumin made me start thinkin. We got a new roommate today, he's a emo-ish type of kid. only a year younger than me, he nearly died doing herion and it made me reflect on the life i used to lead. he says his home life is pretty bad, his dad's a pedophile and his mom works four jobs, he begged me today to help him, and ya know what? i did. because i care and cuz i saw myself in him. he leads the same life i used too... minus the drugs part. with a lot of luck, his life may improve.

i'm tired, but i can't sleep, sumthing's just naggin at the back of my mind and i dunno what. Nighty-night, everyone.

--Strawberry Miyavi--

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Monday, March 23, 2009

Its a new day
Just woke up und the first thing I get to do is quiver while I have three blood test done and get two shots! it was horrible! Seth called me a winnie, well guess what!? I am! Its apart of my nature, not afraid of the psycho who tried to kill me as a child, but I'm afraid of needles, und some other stuff I'd rather not mention.

Gramps should be comin in here any minute, till then I shall sit und wait. Anyways, the doctor brought me my original medical records, und I have an even longer name than before. I would show ya guys but I can only remember my first name: Strawberry Miyavi. the rest is just too hard to remember!! noooo *cries* ah well.

The first thing I'm gonna do when I get out of this damn hospital is go und beat up some stupid ass jocks. Yatsu got jumped by them, now his neck is fractured! Are they trying to kill my brother!?!? Yes I am pretty violent with him myself, but I would never try to kill my brother! Those idiots shall regret the day they met me. When are they gonna learn not to mess with my family and friends!?

I hear Gramps coming so reply to comments:

TaintedSanity: Yes my kidney failed... but I'm alright Seth gave me one of his. ah, that's sad. ja, Gramps used to just stroll by in his wheel chair till we asked him to come here and so ever since, he's been our buddy.

alphonse13: Sorry about worrying you. Just haven't been all here lately, not that I'm ever here all the time, but you get my point. Yes, it was real nice of Seth to do that for me, he's a good frined.
Ja, its the way I was raised, my grandma and grandpa are the ones that really raised me, and treating the elderly just came along with growing up. Everyone needs someone there for them, if his family doesn't wanna be there for him, then someone should. I hope recovering goes well soon, I wanna go home already!

Well everyone, me has to go, Gramps is here. so ja. later!! =D

--Strawberry Miyavi--

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Saturday, March 21, 2009

Sorry not been on in so long
I've just be completed out of sorts lately, I'm sorry. Just I'm so stressed and worn. My last kidney failed me two days ago, und Seth donated one of his. So I haven't had the strength to get online und update.
Plus, there's this really old dude, we call him Graps, and he doesn't have much time left und none of his real family comes to visit him, so Seth, Jewel und I have been spending most of our time talking with him and cheering him up. Its just plain wrong to treat the elderly like that, the elderly are the wisdom and knowledge of society, they are what built are society and made it what it was.

I really dunno what to say, I'm just so tired. Und I'm feeling a lot better to be honest. I don't feel as weak and dead as I did earlier this month. So ja, my recovery is going good and with all the luck in the world I'll be gettin out soon. Till then.

--Strawberry (frickin) Miyavi--

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Friday, March 13, 2009

   I really dunno
I'm sooooo tired... I had to have another stupid ass surgery yesterday, not bout my heart, but an appedicitis, it hurt so freaking bad and that shitty medicine they gave me kept me up all night and now i can't go to sleep... wah i hate hospitals!!

At least one good thing happened today, I got a present from Saora, she sent me a bunch of her completed books so I'm reading them and they are so far the most kick ass books i've ever read. she also sent me some new mangas, yay, wish i could hug her for it, but can't... she don't live close enough. nyaaa, i miss her....

Seth and Jewel are doing good, the doctor says we're all doing a lot better than in the beginning, with any luck all three of us we be outta this hospital at the end of the month, but we still gotta come back for check ups and treatment and whatnot.

i haven't heard from Kira yet, snotty little bitch, her big brother's in the hospital and she doens't give a shit! I'll kick her ass, I swear I freaking will. Rotten little bitch...

I'm tired, und Yatsu brought my homework, i don't wanna do homework, damnit! why couldn't he just leave it hidden under my bed where i left it!? nyaaaggh! damn homework... i'm never printing off my assignments again. XP

Seth's napping and Jewel's writing, best not bug either, or it shall be the end of Strawberry Miyavi, which I seriously do not want.

Wells... peoples, I best be goin, i'munna try und get a nap, kay?

--Strawberry (frickin) Miyavi--

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Thursday, March 12, 2009

   hahah i can't sleep
i feel all lopey and whatnot, thanks to the doctor giving me another shot, can't remember why lol XD
this hospital sucks! the food is horrible and Jewel and Seth are driving me crazy! I don't wanna know about their boyfriends and stuff! aghhhh, why me!!? okay... hold on... if Shadow does anything to Jewel that he ain't supposed to I'll freaking kill the man! no one touches my little brother! ohhhhhh, jezus this medicine is now making me go into 'over-protective-brother' mode. dawww well, what can i do? sleep!

my brother Yatsu came to visit, yay, it was so nice of him. my parents visited too. Yatsu brought a bunch of stuff that cheered us up, and it was surprising that him and Jewel didn't fight. horray for my triplets *hugs them* i'm gonna finish up, cuz its like 3am and the nurse just threatened to get the doctor in here with the sleeping shots, und.... ja i don't wanna get shots so bye!

reply to: alphonse13

lol yes i had a very hard time, i was feeling high all day and felt stupid once i was completley back to normal XD ja a month is a long time but if i wanna be able to function right again i hafta. hahah poor you, cats can be evil, i swear they contemplate my murder or sumin. thanks, i feel okay just plain dumb.

--Strawberry (frickin) Miyavi--

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Monday, March 9, 2009

and soooooo.....
I am awake! Sorry I didn't get to post last night, I had a hard time coming to after surgery, i was just lying there all out of it. Seth says I looked dumber than usual, XD what a nice friend i have lol.
So now all I can do wait and see if I'm gonna be okay. The doctor said that recovery will take some time, at least a month or so. Ah well, i feel a lot better than i did yesterday, and i don't feel like i'm high anymore! yay!

But no seriously, I had a hard time coming off all that medication, Jewel didn't though, lucky him. He laughed at me. He's not the one who spent the entire night completely off in another world. evil triplet.
My parents are comin ta visit today, my real ones, my other mum couldn't care less and my other dad... he had a bussiness trip, so yeah... no see Dad for a week or so.
Axel and the kids came to visit this morning, we told him how my surgery went and he laughed at me, why does everyone laugh at me for that!? I killed my immune system, okay!? i did some pretty dumb things when i was younger that basically killed me now. yeah i was an idiot... ^___^"

My laptop hates me, it won't let me watch any of my dvds, so now i'm sad. ah well, what can i do?
I might just go take a nap, i'm pretty tired and rest is the key to recovery!

To all who commented, I dunno how many I haven't checked, sorry, I'll do that later and post later too. Thank you all for all the kind words of support.

--Strawberry (frickin) Miyavi--

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Sunday, March 8, 2009

Today is the day... und I wish it wans't
Well have a fatal heart attack last night they decided today I need to have my heart transplant, Seth's been doing a good job of keeping me calm. Well, I got a few minutes before I go in for surgery, its pretty scary, but I got faith und I have my brother und my best friend by my side.

I dunno if I have enough time to reply to comments guys, so if I don't I'll do that after my surgery, so today there'll probably two post today.

Saora called a little bit ago, if my phone wasn't dying I'm sure me und her woulda stayed on till my surgery. But I'm glad she called, she's always a big help of support.
And so are you guys, you all have been a lot of help in my darkest hours, and I just wanna say thank-you, guys very much! So after my surgery und everything, I'll make something to post up on here for you guys as a thank-you gift, expecially to you, alphonse13, you've been the biggest help.

Well... looks like its time. I'll pray for you guys. Thanks a whole lot. ^^ I'll post later.

--Strawberry Miyavi--

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Saturday, March 7, 2009

More news on the screwed up life of Strawberry Miyavi
I'm back from visiting my granddad. we met our real parents... they're nice. When our mom found out who we are she broke down crying and hugged us for the longest time. They live on the streets and they said that's why we were put up for adoption, her friend, my 'mom' took us all in. They both seemed really interested in our lives and how things are going with us... so yeah... i'm kinda... wantin to cry...

I went to visit Seth today, I took Scarlet and Caleb with me, it nearly broke my heart to see those little boys run up to him and hug him crying. But I'm glad he's doing okay. we're working on a song together, which is cool.

Jewel decided that he'll give me his heart, so Jewel und I'll be spending time in the hospital next week. Now that I know my brother is by my side I'm happy and I feel safe.
The doctors arranged for me, Jewel, und Seth to be in the same room, so it makes us all feel more comfortable. thanks to my granddad who convinced the hospital that i need my laptop to do school, so I'll be able to on and keep everyone posted.

reply to: alphonse13
Thanks a lot. ^^ I'm gonna do all I can to be there for Seth, he always puts up this tough front but he told me he needs me and that's what I'm gonna do, I'm gonna be there for him all I can.
Well as I said things went okay with my parents, w're going to see them again tomorrow, I'm not gonna be so causual about this, no, I'm takin my time before I really accept them into my life, whether they accept me or not, its not their choice to be accepting, its ours, because we're the ones who were given away.
I think they're called godmothers but i'm not too sure, let's just call it being a godparent.
It is really scary but knowing my brother will be there for me is all i need, and i know things will work out.
Thanks again, reading what you said made me feel a lot better. *hug* I do too, I have feeling all three of us are gonna make it through this. ^^ Thank-you a whole lot.

--Strawberry Miyavi--

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Friday, March 6, 2009

The latest news
My life is starting to take a turn for the worse. I'm scared, I'm feeling hopeless, I dunno what to do anymore...

Tomorrow I'm meeting my real parents for the first time in my life. Und I'm not sure I want to. What if they're worse than the ones that raised me? I'm mean they abandoned me und my ten siblings! What if they don't want us back in their life? What then!?

Seth's being hospitalized, his cancer is that bad. I'm scared I'm going to loose him. He's my best friend, we've known each other since nursery school!!
I'm moving in with them though, cuz Axel has work, since I do online schooling I can watch their sons during the day und do my school work in the night. I also had to sign papers saying that incase anything happens to Seth and Axel I'll be the one taking custody of Scarlet und Caleb, so now I'm a godfather. ^__^

I went to the doctors today... I'm in a serious need of a heart transplant. I'm scared, but I'm going through with it.

Reply to: alphonse13
That must've been hard on you. Up till I was nine I thought my uncle was my dad, then I found out he wasn't... now i find out he's not even my dad. He's a jerk to have done that to you, I'm sorry.
I was born with a bad heart, but they said I was going to be okay, they don't know how wrong they were. My organs fail every now und then, like my kidney when i was five. Let's hope that all three of us get better soon.
It was a major kick to find out Seth's dying. But he's pulled through tougher spots, so i'm keepin my faith.
Yup, Kira was only 13. That's a smart move, I'm doing the same with my other little sister, she's not gonna turn out bad like Kira. *hug* Thanks. ^^


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