Tuesday, December 2, 2008

.........
That's the last time i take my sisters to church, aparently my family is bad cuz aparently Jewel's a gang member, Gemini and Jay are insane murderers, my dad's a crack head, Vicious is a deranged criminal, and I'm a male prositute, the pastor is crazy, everyone there knows that is not the truth but yet he still tells everyone lies about my family because we're slightly dysfunctional. Okay yes, Jewel was part of a gang, techinaclly he was owned by the gang, Jay and Gemini are scientest, they are geniuses not killers, my dad's just naturally weird not a junkie, Vicious is... well he's Vicious, the only thing he's ever done that was real bad was gum his way out of our mom, and me, I'm a genophobic! i really wanna strangle that idiot! What does he know about my family? Okay, yes my family has problems and we kids have had a hard time but we've never done anything wrong!
My mom knew she couldn't take care of all of us kids (twenty of us or was it twenty one...) so that's why we were all put in foster homes, in the end we all found each other again.

And there's rumors going around that Jewel and I are anerexic, I can not help being so skinny, I have a stomach problem, my doctor says i'm fine even though i'm extremely under weight, its not gonna kill me, Jewel and I were born like this, we can't gain wait very fast, just like none of the kids in my family can get a tan (except Kira).
I don't understand why people spread rumors about my family because we're diferent. it pisses me off. I hate my town, even though i'd rather live here than Wales.

I guess i'll cut here.

--Strawberry Miyavi--

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Friday, November 28, 2008

pretty blah day
so nothing seems that good, cuz i have nothing to talk about really... the only thing that's come up is i am actually getting along with Yatsu, Jewel's getting married, my cousin Yukii's coming to visit, and i got in touch with an old friend from Germany, i haven't talked to him since i was seven, seems his life is a bit worse than mine, in december his mom is sending him to japan to live with his dad for a year... poor guy.

Yesterday was hell, everyone was so pissed off, we were all yelling at each other, god... it was a nightmare.

i'm bored and tired, i wanna fall asleep but can't. maybe i should call my bitchy sister Kira and yell at her, i don't have a reason too but i'm her brother i don't need one.

i don't even have anything to say! gah! i'm bored.

--Strawberry Miyavi--

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Wednesday, November 12, 2008

   Pretty happy
Anyways, tomorrow is mine, Jewel's, and Yatsu's birthday and we'll be sixteen and next week i get my liscense. My cousin Yukii's coming out from Japan this weekend. I haven't seen him in awhile.

Saora and her sister are writing an anime series, she's been spending two weeks writing the episode and everything, she's going to contact a company soon to have it animated and all that good stuff, she says she'll be playing her character, her sister will be her character, and Asami and Shadow's friend will be playing their characters. I'm proud of her.
She's also writing a vampire books series, so she plans on reading a bunch of vampire books, any recomendations?

I had a weird day, i watched weird japanese game shows and weird japanese soup opreas that my cousin Yukii sent me. Well I am going to plan our day out for tomorrow with Jewel. So bye!

--Strawberry Miyavi--

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Sunday, November 9, 2008

....................
Well I did go and talk to Saora, she told me it was okay, but she yelled at me (again) and this time slapped me. I deserved it. I shouldn't have done what I did.

I'm on the german google and the french google, trying to find something, its a good thing i know both french and german otherwise i wouldn't understand a thing here. I lived in Paris when I was 11, didn't like it out there, everyone was mean to me, I lived in Germany until i was five, but I don't remember much of it, don't remember much of anything though.

Everyone is asleep but me, that's cuz i can't sleep. man today is boring, sundays are always boring. all i do is talk to my cousin in Japan and that's it. We talk all frickin day, nothing new. until night time when i realize i haven't eaten at all.

I think i'm getting on my dad's last nerve with always redying my hair random colors. I don't mean to be a pain but I have never enjoyed being blonde.

My rant has come to its end. later all.

--Strawberry Miyavi--

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Monday, November 3, 2008

   I screwed up... big time
I've been back home for awhile, and I'm living close to Saora. The other night I got extremely depressed, which is not good, I couldn't think right, all I could think about was killing myself. Everything seemed hopeless... no one was there... so... I tried to jump... all my family saw it... my frineds... but worse... Saora. My best friend, the only person who understands whats inside of me. She saw me nearly jump to my death. Vicious convinced me not to jump and I'm here today, Dad said counseling isn't helping, so I'm grounded. But I am on meds for my depression. I can't believe I did that. I can't believe I hurt Saora that bad. I'm such an asshole. How could i have hurt her like that!? Guilt tripping myself probably is not going to make it better, I want to call Saora and talk to her... but I can't figure out what to tell her. Maybe i should just go see her and talk to her. I need to make sure she's okay, i feel so horrible for what i did. I'm glad I didn't jump, because I have too much to live for, I have a good family, good friends, (and yes that includes my friends on here).

Gonna go see Saora.

--Strawberry Miyavi--

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Friday, October 31, 2008

Happy All Hallow's Eve
Happy Halloween, everyone. So what's everyone doing tonight? All I'm doing is taking Scarlet and Caleb trick or treating, with any luck they'll behave and i won't have to beat my head on the cement.

Happy Halloween everyone, gotta get goin. later.

--Strawberry Miyavi--

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Saturday, October 25, 2008

Hallo
I am very frickin tired. There was a school dance last night and I had to help Yatsu get ready, it was not easy. I have a very rough week ahead of me, i have to paint the house, practice with my band, help my siblings with halloween, and watch my obxious nephews Scarlet and Caleb. But i'm Strawberry frickin Miyavi, i can handle it all... i hope.

I'm starting to get over my depression, my counsler said i don't need to come in three times a week anymore, i only need to go in once a week and she's taking me off my meds. Which is frickin awesome, i'm gettin better. And i've been able to sleep right and act right.

I got back with my ex Mika, Jewel's boyfriend's sister. Odd... i say. And I am bored, and i think i will go ransack my kitchen.

--Strawberry Miyavi--

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Friday, October 10, 2008

BLAH!
Yeah i know i never really have a subject, (no wonder i failed creative writing class). I'm just bored, Jewel, Yatsu, and I swore we'd try to get along, we won't beat Yatsu up if he doesn't call me 'emo' (why he does that i don't know considering he's basicly emo too) and stop calling Jewel 'girly' just cuz he's gay. And so far so good, we haven't beaten him up (yet). Which is pretty good. I guess.

I haven't heard from Kira, i talked to Saora, she talked with Kira and Asami, apparently they both have completely forgotten Saora's their friend, they don't call her or write her, she calls and they barely say anything. I don't know why, Kira and Asami both talk non-stop! So now i'm gonna call em and chew their asses out, it isn't cool how they're treating Saora. It's wrong, and I hate it.

Halloween's coming up, which has Lizzie excited cuz its her fave holiday. I ain't that excited, sure i love Halloween, but this is my first halloween without Saora, we usually took her little brother and sister trick-or-treating.
My dad's makin us all dress up, Shay asked me if i knew anything scary he could dress up as and I said Vicious. I got my ass kicked for that one... oh so much pain! I should probably learn to keep my mouth shut.
Seth, Axel, and their kids are coming out to visit, which is cool. Its Caleb's first Halloween, and since i'm technically their uncle, I'm taking him and Scarlet trick-or-treating
Yatsu asked me what i was going as and I said myself, he told me that was indeed scary. lol some old guy'll probably call the cops on me cuz i have about (i think) twenty piercings...? i can't remember, i haven't counted em lately.
So what's everyone doing for Halloween?

I'm gonna go... do sumin, can't remember what i was gonna do, damnit!

--Strawberry--

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Saturday, October 4, 2008

murf
Having a rough day, it seems everything is goin bad for me. I got in a fight with Emily, not quite sure how it happened, then i got sick and started throwing up, and Jewel threw Yatsu across the room and he frigin landed on me! It frickin hurt!

Jewel is at the doctor's with dad, had ta get a bloodtest and a few shots, I hope Jewel will be okay, he has a fear of knives, needles, basicly anything that can break skin.

my week hasn't been a very interesting one, i sleep, eat, sleep, nothing more. Well ocasionally wake up to Jewel beating the crap outta Yatsu.

Ren and Roy tied Yatsu up and are tormenting him with chocolate cake and pork tacos, god they're mean, they've learned well. ^______^

Reply to Maru: I am not sure why i find my dad shopping amusing, nope Yatsu was not okay, Jewel beat him up.

Well i gotta go help Jewel get ta bed, he's in his 'holy-shit-i-saw-a-frikin-needle' mood. May be awhile before he snaps out of it.

--Strawberry Miyavi--

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Monday, September 29, 2008

blarg!
Not exactly a good day for me, i hate theropy, i don't need it. Dad said that if my counsler says i'm fine i don't have to go, which is not fair cuz my counsler is stupid and thinks i'm suicidal. I ain't suicidal! Why the hell would i want to kill myself? Okay, i can think of a few reasons, but I'm not gonna kill myself. Trust me, if i did Saora would find someway to bring me back and kill me all over again. Plus i have a good life (sum what) and i have my brothers and my friends, why would i wan to leave them?

I'm tired and hungry, Dad's out shopping (sumhow i find that amusing) and there ain't anything good to eat. i think i'm might eat my arm.... nah that would be weird and Vicious would beat me shitless if i tried.

I can't wait to go back home and be in my attic again, i miss sleeping up there so much.

I think i best go, cuz i just heard Jewel screaming (probably at Yatsu) and something broke.

--Strawberry Miyavi--

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