Friday, August 29, 2008

headache
well... i went and dyed my hair many different colors, and Dad tried to scrub my head clean but it didn't work so he sprayed me with the hose, now i have a nasty headache... it sucks. Only good part is my hair is still colorful!^^

I talked to Kira yesterday, and all she said was 'ok' and got offline. I guess she doesn't want to talk to me anymore, well whatever. I should probably just let Saora slap her senseless cuz Saora's just as pissed off at her as I am, plus i'd be in lot of trouble if i slapped my sister, but since her and Saora are friends, Saora won't get in trouble.

This morning i rolled off my bed, so did Jewel and we both ended up rolling out of the attic, nothing was broken except now our backs hurt so bad. The only reason nothing broke was cuz we landed on our idiot triplet Yatsu. now he's at the hospital with our dad, i think we might have broken a few of his bones.

I have stuff i need to do, like laugh at Yatsu, so yeah.

--Strawberry Miyavi--

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Wednesday, August 27, 2008

not happy
I dyed my hair earlier and when i walked out of the bathroom Dad grabbed me and scrubbed my hair clean, now I have nasty blonde hair. Its not a good day for me! I hate being blonde! I want to beat my head into a wall (I already did that but i might do it again)!

I still haven't heard from Vicious, Roy is hunting him down, he's a bad mood this week. I'm not sure why and I will not ask cuz my life will probably be in danger.

Saora's havin a bad day, she's havin a low self esteem breakdown again. I wish I could help. But I don't know how to...

I'm gonna go try to dye my hair again and pray my dad does not scrub my head clean again.
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Sunday, August 24, 2008

.........depression...........
I'm having a bad week... so far nothing good has happened, the doctor wants us to take mom off life support, but I really don't want to. Dad has been debating over it. *sigh* life is horrid.
Jewel's been doing better, we got him to talk about his issues and its been helping him a lot.

I haven't talked to Kira lately, she's barely ever online, and she didn't know mom was in the hospital, i want to kick that girl's ass right now, but she happens to be some odd hundred miles away so its impossible.

I'm hoping to go visit Saora before school starts for me. I haven't seen her since about.... well last summer i moved to the UK so it was the summer before that, so i haven't seen her in two years. Damn....
I talked to her earlier, she's really excited but also kinda freaked, cuz she's going to see her favorite band in concert tomorrow evening and she's freaked cuz she had a bad dream that she died her hair and she was stuck blonde for the rest of her life.... kinda dumb, but that is a scary thought, i don't think i could stand being blonde, (i have nothing against blondes i just don't like having blonde hair, otherwise i wouldn't have died my hair).

I dunno what to do, I'm just bored, and I'm five minutes from killing Yatsu cuz he keeps calling me "emo boy", it is his frigin fault my wrist got cut open! I tried to beat him up this morning but Dad pulled me off of him and made me stay up here in my attic....

I'm gonna leave to visit my mom, so yeah. Later...

--Strawberry Miyavi--

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Friday, August 8, 2008

Blah
Not a very exciting day for me, Jewel and I tackled at the mall by some random people. Not sure why.... It was weird. My stitches came undone and I was back at the hospital. i swear it must be hospital adventure week for everyone I know. There really ain't much goin on for me. Still haven't talk to Vicious, so i have no clue if Audra had the baby and killed Vicious or what.

Yatsu's been an ass all frickin week, Roy got sick of it and tied him up in the closet again. Its times like these that I am very glad Roy's my brother, but also very scared of him.

Yep... not much goin on. School don't start till September or late September, not sure. Don't really care, might not even go. Probably do that. Vicious rarely shows up at school and yet he always gets perfect grades.

Well, yeah, I guess I'm gonna go sleep or kick Yatsu, so yeah.

--Strawberry Miyavi--

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Tuesday, August 5, 2008

   dang
It is 6am, i am awake and angry. Last night i was cookin dinner, i had a frickin knife in my hand and dumbass Yatsu bumped into me, knocked me over, and made me cut my frigin arm open. Dad had to drive me to the hospital, and i got like 50 frigin stitches. it hurts! The doctor suggested stapling me up or gluing me up, but both of those are far more painful than stitches. Because of dumbass Yatsu we had to eat take out, instead of steak. I bet a vampire would've loved to eat that steak... -_-

Dad got Jewel to go to a doctor's today, but Jewel refused to go unless I was there with him. Jewel was really uneasy talking with the doctor, he broke down crying, saying he wished he was dead, when the doctor said something against gays. I was so pissed when that asshole said that, i almost punched him, and i would've but Jewel stopped me. Dad nearly beat the shit outta the guy, but I convinced him beating the asshole up was not the answer. Does that fuckin doctor not know how mentally disturbed Jewel is!? I want to kill him for it. We got Jewel home, he was crying hysterically, and could barely move, so luckily for me he doesn't weigh much cuz i carried him up to the attic. I wish there was someway I could help Jewel... he really could use an angel by his side. The doctor prescribed him some meds but Jewel said he would never take em. I know what that's like, to be told to take so many different pills for different reasons. I don't think pills will ever help anyone with any mental issues, they have to work them out themselves. But with Jewel, someone needs to stand with him, to make sure he'll be alright.

I got a call from Vicious awhile ago, I think Audra's having the baby... i'm not too sure cuz Vicious was "hospital! Audra! bye!" and he wouldn't answer his phone after that.

I called Saora a little bit ago, she's good, her mom's at work, and she's watching Harry Potter. I swear with the way Saora knows so much about Harry Potter she mights as well worship him.
I still haven't found anything to get Saora for her birthday, which is next week. And i'm gonna feel horrible if i don't get her anything. I'll probably get her something Harry Potter related.

I'm goin ta kick Yatsu outta my attic (he has his own room) and then I'm going to sleep. All of you have a good week.

--Strawberry Miyavi--

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Monday, August 4, 2008

So early.....
Well my bro Jewel woke up screaming, he was dreaming about his past, it freaked me out so bad. I jumped clean from my bed and rushed to him, he broke down crying and clung onto me. He may be going on sixteen but he still acts like a small child. I hope someday he'll be okay.

I talked to Saora a little whiles ago, her mom is at work and she's home alone. She seems to be just fine but I am very worried about her. She's a fifteen year old girl home alone, i just don't think that's okay, its because every time she's been home alone at night sumin bad has happened and i worry bout her, plus since last week she was rushed to the hospital, I am twice as worried, because god only knows what could happen next.

My exgirlfriend talked to Emily ta she if she'll open up (usually that ain't a good idea, the ex talking ta the current, but Mika, my ex, is a really close friend of mine and Emily's). Mika convinced Emily to talk to me and thank god she did. Apparently some asshole really hurt her, so for the next few months I am goin to be huntin down that asshole and i will kick his dumbass.

Vicious is all freaked and everything because Audra's due this month, the joys for him, becoming a dad... at seventeen. I really don't wanna be an uncle, except to Scarlet and Caleb (Seth's kids) but that's cuz they're just so... adorable seems ta be the right word.

Maybe I'll call Liz, and she what she's up to, that is if Jay didn't screw up the phone... again.

Well I'm tired, I need to go check on Jewel so yeah.

--Strawberry Miyavi--

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Monday, July 28, 2008

too tired
I spent all of last night helping out my brother Jewel (turns out i have another sibling, my triplet.... -_-), he's had a very rough past, both his foster parents on drugs and overdosed, and because of his foster father Jewel became gang property, and now Jewel is emotionally tramatized, i feel so bad for him. I thought my life was rough.

Elizabeth was bein a butt last night, i sprained my wrist and she laughed at me for it and asked questions about stuff she really shouldn't know...

Saora's little brother was in the hospital yesterday and she kept breaking down crying every so often. I felt so bad for her. She and her little brother are really close. I need ta get a job so i can get her sumin for her bday that's coming up.

my mom hasn't come home yet, every time she gets better she gets worse. I am not expecting anything, i can't keep hopin sumin good will happen cuz if she dies or gets worse than now i'll only be hurt more. Dad says i sound way too mature for my age... at least one of us is mature, he's just a weirdo not really just a fruit.

Seth's over today, i'm glad he is, cuz all my siblings have gone insane, not that that haven't always been insane, but... yeah. Roy's all pissed cuz our granma mistoke him for Ren, and then Jay, and then Gemini... poor guy. Even when he indiffence himself he is still stuck to his brothers.

I gotta go wake Elizabeth up, she fell asleep on my couch. and then i am going back to bed. sleep is nice...

--Strawberry Miyavi--

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Wednesday, July 16, 2008

things seem ta be gettin better (in slow a very slow manner)
Emily has gotten to the point of actaully sayin "Hi, Strawberry" or "bye, Strawberry" but that's it. She looks horrid and i don't mean it rudely, but she looks so depressed and hurt inside, i've been trying to talk to her and everything but she just won't talk ta me...
Scarlet didn't get much outta her, all she said was she feels like she's let me down... I've asked my dad for help (i must be desperate) he told me to just keep tryin to get through to her cuz she'll come around eventually, i hope he's right. I can't stand being a minute without Emily, she was the only who was with me when i lost Olivia, she's always been by my side, she was kinda my body guard all through gradeschool. I just want things to go back to the way they were.

My dad and i have been gettin along better, he hasn't been treatin me the way mom does, he told me if mom dies i don't have to go live with him that i can go live with one of my friends or my grandparents. He's acting more like a parent than my mom.
I guess he ain't so bad, he's just hasn't been the best dad, then again he was never really around.

Roy gagged and tied up Yatsu cuz he wouldn't shut up about sumin, i dunno what he was talkin bout but it must've annoyed the heck outta of Roy. I guess Roy has a right to be so pissy, he's always confused for Ren or Gemini or Jay even though he has different color eyes and hair, me and Lizzie are the only ones who can tell which is which, it really ain't that hard, Ren, Gemini, and Jay all have blue eyes and Roy has red eyes, they're natural i swear.

I s'pose i ain't got much ta say, i'm gonna go laugh at Yatsu and help Roy through popcorn at him.

--Strawberry frickin Miyavi--

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Friday, July 11, 2008

   worried (like hell)
My girlfriend Emily's been actin weird, i dunno why, she won't tell me, i would ask Audra cuz Audra's her best friend but i know she won't tell me what's up she might give some kind of dumb riddle i won't be able to figure out. Emily won't even look at me, every time i come near she runs off, she don't answer my calls or my messages, i dunno what's wrong with her, i hope she's alright. Yatsu says she might be cheatin on me but i doubt it Emily ain't like that, (when Yatsu said that i gave him a good whap upside the head). I dunno what to do, i've tried getting her to talk to me but she won't, i call her house all the time but her mom or dad says she busy and can't talk. UGH!!!! I'm goin crazy! i wish i could do sumin for her, but i don't know what... i feel so... i dunno sad? alone? probably along the lines of scared and worried....
I've talked to my friend Scarlet cuz he's real close to Emily too, but he doesn't know anything either. Seth can't get nothin out of her, i've tried to talk to Lizzie and see if she knows anything but she tried to skin me! (Yes she really tried to skin me) Ren and Roy tried talkin ta her but they have no luck either. I would call and ask Kira but i'm still frigin pissed off at her so i won't. Maybe my brother Jewel could help, he might know sumin, they're both real good friends.... i dunno what to do... i feel like she doesn't trust me enough... i would do anything for her.... i wish sumone could help me... i just dunno what to do anymore...

s'pose i'll go, maybe try and call her, or sumin i dunno... i just wish i had some help right now...

--Strawberry Miyavi--

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Tuesday, July 8, 2008

my life sucks
i'm watchin a movie with Roy, the rest of the guys are visitin mom at the hospital, she ain't do any better than when they found her. Roy's havin an argument with Ren through telepathy, -_- kind odd really. I haven't had much ta do, my dad wants me to go stay with his friend Buck, i'd rather die than do that!

I spent last night watchin Where the Heart Is with Emily, she loves that movie, it ain't that bad, but it ain't wanna my favorites.

I talked to Saora last night, she was crying like hell, she misses Asami, Asami moved away, and Saora feels alone. I wish i could go visit her but i can't. She broke down crying at 1 in the morning last friday cuz she misses her aunt.

My sisters are at my aunt's house, thank god for that, i was nearly bout ready to kill em. I wish Yatsu would go to my aunt's house (Yatsu is my dumbass twin).

Roy says if i don't get off the computer he'll beat the shit outta me, even if he is the little brother he will, Roy has a temper. So unless i wanna die i better go.

--Strawberry Miyavi--

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