Thursday, August 27, 2009

   Revenge is sweet, love is sweeter
My day has been very complicated... Yes it has. But... its also been a pretty okay day.

For starters I slept in late, till about noon. When I woke up and looked to see what time it was I panicked, cuz I remembered about Elena. So I jumped out of bed, she's not in her crib, and I began to panic.
So I run into the living room and there Josh is sitting on the couch feeding her. Phew. I sat down next to him and watched him feed her, it was cute. :3 I never knew Josh was so good with kids, Elena really seems to like him.
After Elena fell asleep and he put her in her back, he told me everyone went out, that Elena was awake when he got up, so he took her in the living room so if she started crying it wouldn't wake me up. When I asked why, he said I needed my sleep and it was his way of saying sorry for the fight he started. Aww, despite the fact he can be an ass, Josh is really sweet.

Josh, Elena, and I went to visit Dad and Candy in the hospital, Dad's still in a coma, but Candy woke up, she was happy to see us, especially Elena. :)
Right before we left Candy asked to talk to me alone so Josh took Elena to the car to wait. Candy said that she probably doesn't have much longer and asked me how I felt about raising Elena for them. I told her the truth, that it scared the shit outta me. She told me she knew I'd be okay, because I'm strong like my dad. I couldn't help but cry, she's been more of a mother to me than my own mother.

After that, Josh, Elena and I went to the park and sat, again so many people though Elena was our daughter. Though if my rents don't make it, it will be true... :( I dunno, that thought scares me. So I called Vicious and asked for his advice, he told me it'll be okay, that him and Audra will help if worse comes to shove. I asked him if he was gonna come see Dad and he said no, I asked why and he said because Dad never did shit for him so he doesn't owe him anything. I told him he was being a selfish asshole, Dad wasn't around most of my life either, but I still visit him. I love my brother, but sometimes he's the stupidest person ever.

I really dunno what to do, guys, my life is so fucked up. Its horrible. I can't raise a child, if I raise Elena she'll turn out worse than me! Maybe, I'm being selfish, Candy and Dad really need me right now... I dunno, I'm just scared...
Well we're going out to dinner, so I'll get back on later if Josh doesn't attack me again, the horny bastard. >_< I'll just fend him off with the broom. XD

Reply to alphonse13: I believe in em too, I just dunno how to get rid of my curse. Well I'd love to here it someday if you can find the time.
Thanks, I know, I keep praying for them. My life is too hectic right now, and Elena doesn't need involved in it. I know, I hate to think about it, I'm scared.
I know and I even told him that, but we got passed it, but if he keeps acting that way I'll kick his ass. I don't need his shit right now, not when I have all this goin on.
Thanks *hug* Its nice to know I have you here supporting me.

--Strawberry Miyavi--

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