Sunday, June 26, 2005

   still awake its 1:30am
im actually not tired. lemme tell you what happened at sparring class, i had the best time.. well, for a last day at karate class ^^;; for a week. well, i went there, accidentally forgot my belt but.. i didnt need it. i met this girl named amber (just like amber online, so theres amber p. and amber.. something) she was a red belt in the black belt club. (black belt club is when you have been notice and have promised to become a black belt.) except.. the problem was, i was tired and breathing heavy from sparring a guy that was a brown belt and the first time he took it easy on me and i ended up throwing some pretty good head punches and front kicks but when i was going to sit out, someone else had to and i had to spar him again. and it was full contact that time. and he didnt take it easy on me.. i started showing i was tired and i took alot of punches to the stomach .. and the head. my stomach hurt alot and.. i dont remember what it was, i think i felt sick. i asked mr.peyton if i could sit out and when i was walking to the girls dressing room, i couldnt tell if i was trying to cry or trying to breath.. i guess i got some people worried, because some lady i didnt even know and two little boys were outside wanting to know if i was ok. they said i got knocked around out there pretty bad. i even had ms.kim back there and she was making sure i ran water over my arms and said that class was ending anyway so i didnt have to go back on. she told me i needed to drink more water cuz i might pass out.. (i did i wasnt thinking when i said no) i tried not to think about how everyone was making a big deal about it and about starting crying but i didnt go on for even a minute.. but i wanted to go to kata class afterward, and besides kata is just practicing on form, not fighting. mr.peyton helped out with making the end of class better again, he had me do star set 7 im glad i practiced. and my dad talked to him about my training and he suggested i practice on building up my headpunch because i was good with that. mr.stephen , when i was leaving, (he hosts the little kid parties on saterdays) just said "hey erin" and said something like.."erin bobini" i think. ok when i went home, as soon as it was 8pm i fell asleep. (it was hard enough staying awake till then) i realllyy really need to practice blocks.. im gonna get myself seriously hurt out there one day if i dont work on it. ms.kim was so concerned i almost started crying after she left lol she asked if i was ok and i said i was fine, but she said "dont say your ok if your not" i feel so safe down there all the time.. my parents keep saying id have to get used to another karate school if we had to move because of my dads job.. my mom put me on the spot when she said "would you rather go to another school or not go at all?" thats not the point.. the point is id feel horrible if i had to leave upstate karate.. and i dont think any of my friends understand how i feel about now. i try to avoid to topic.. of moving and all. because i always go off in my room and start crying. it wouldnt matter if we moved and got a bigger house.. or anything.. it wouldnt be the same. my parents cant understand that.. and sometimes my friends try to talk to me about stuff, but truth is it makes it worse. so sometimes i stay offline. i hope we never have to move.. if we did, id find a way back. but i dont wanna talk about that right now. anyway, im gonna watch some t.v. cya tomorow bright and early! ^-~ major training on the bag, cya then
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