Friday, August 12, 2005

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well.. i guess ive had an intresting 24 hours >< .. i was up all night trying to catch up to the page i had said earlier that i was on. i told my dad i was a little over half way through with one of my summer reading books, i stayed up till 5am reading. i got through 100 pages or more. after that i.. sorta started closing my eyes and then y'know its like this " *reading* ..*starts closing her eyes*..... *jerks back awake and reading again*... *starts closing her eyes* ......" lol i can stay awake right now, in fact, its like i didnt even miss a wink of sleep i bet its cuz of all this sleeping in over the summer. oh well, atleast i got some reading done. i cant wait to go to sleep tonight though.. as long as i dont think of anything warm or soothing im fine. oh wait i dont need to worry, thats not what my life is like -.- of course, no soothing moments. in between worrying about responsibilities and going to karate classes and worrying about school and reading books and having family talks about the family being in a fight, im either fighting with my sister or my dads talking to me about some attitude problem. *sigh* atleast ive got some friends at upstate karate that help. the teachers too. i think ill stop worrying when i get this summer reading over with and school starts and i manage to make a's and b's the first time. its all smooth sailing from there.. except for the frantic schedule ill have. you wanna know what my schedule is gonna be if i make a's and b's the first time, which i will, well here it is:

lunch: normally kids would have 30% lunch 70% talking. me: eat fast and do homework or something after that
bus holding: homework
bus: studying
home: studying or practicing kata
(oh and you'll love the karate schedule. heres the plan for weapons class)
tuesday: kempo
wednsday: weapons class, stay there for the in between hour and do homework, then kempo class.
thursday: kempo
saterday: sparring and kata class
+ black belt club meetings, belt testings (oh and you'll love this too, ive got CHORES at home)
on monday tuesday wednsday thursday, i have chores and saterday a major chore day which is bad for me cuz im tired after sparring and its only 12pm.
oh did i mention i have to make a's and b's? its stupid my dad had us taking this medecine to help us concentrate last year but i wanna go without it this year and the stupid part is, my dad said one slip up and im back on it. dammit i hate depending on medecine, never liked having it if i was gonna get hooked on it. i know i can pull it off, i just have to want to. and i will. it'll be hard, but i want more then anything to stay in karate and to earn it to be in that weapons class, so im gonna study hard. i dont like depending on things when you dont need it and when its not neccesary. but thats just me. anyway better go before i get caught on here, mom might think ive been on here all night and its hard to regain her trust if she thinks i did something like that. im gonna go get some breakfest, i cant hold off on ginger ale all morning. cya, - going to georgia so i wont be posting on here till sunday or saterday, something like that
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