Friday, December 9, 2005

   HELLO!!!!!!
IM BACK !!!!!.....kinda....i havent been on in for FRICKING ever sorry about the temporary shut down...I HAVE MORE POETRY-_-.....Ill get it on here in a little while after i type it out on my COMPUTER! but n-e way ......well ima bounce out niggys lol i hate ghettoness and ghetto PEPLE....lol i spelled people wrong lol well PEACE OUT MY PEEPS
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   HELLO!!!!!!
IM BACK !!!!!.....kinda....i havent been on in for FRICKING ever sorry about the temporary shut down...I HAVE MORE POETRY-_-.....Ill get it on here in a little while after i type it out on my COMPUTER! but n-e way ......well ima bounce out niggys lol i hate ghettoness and ghetto PEPLE....lol i spelled people wrong lol well PEACE OUT MY PEEPS
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   HELLO!!!!!!
IM BACK !!!!!.....kinda....i havent been on in for FRICKING ever soory about the temporary shut down...I HAVE MORE POETRY-_-.....Ill get it on here in a little while after i type it out on my COMPUTER! but n-e way ......well ima bounce out niggys lol i hate ghettoness and ghetto PEPLE....lol i spelled people wrong lol well PEACE OUT MY PEEPS
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Tuesday, August 30, 2005

in the abyss
Falling down into the abyss,
I feel the prick of death's dark kiss.

Falling and fading,
Sinking and wading,.
Thinking and seeing,
Losing my being.
Looking inside,
Yet I hide.
Falling lower,
Dying slower.

I feel myself lost to the world.
A lack of time and space.
I somehow have been displaced.
My sense of self has been tried,
And my thoughts pried.
Pried from the mind
Responsible for their existence;
Duly responsible for resistance.

Time and space begin to end
What’s here? Where’s there?
Why is it difficult to comprehend?
As if something loathes about the air,
Something I can't place.
An enigma for my mind to ponder,
And eventually erase,
For my mind does wander.

I continue further into the abyss,
Still feeling death's gentile kiss.
Something discovered that's not mundane.
Something different locked in my brain.
I sit to think of what it could be.
What is it I must set free?
But nevertheless as I think,
My body and spirit continue to sink.

Contemplating life.
Drawing a knife.
Seeing it all.
Watching it fall.
Gathering thoughts.
Connecting the dots.
Failing inside.
From fall to glide.

Condensing my spirit.
Although I refuse to hear it,
The truth is revealed,
I remain concealed.
It all has been discovered,
Secrets uncovered.

My defense kicks in.
Acceptance of sin.
Keeping inside,
All that I hide.
Providing deceit,
To ensure defeat.
Watching it all through weathered eyes,
And watched by all the inner spies.


Death's kiss seals my fate.
I look back on what I did appreciate.
Many things were given in life.
Many taken with strife.
I reach the bottom of the abyss,
And my life I begin to miss.
What have I done?
What have I wasted?
What have I missed?
What haven't I tasted?
What didn't I see?
What didn't I do?
I couldn't stand what life put me through.
Looking back from the perspective of death,
Remembering the instant of my last breath,
It was during the fall.
I lost it all.
I met death's dark kiss,
In the abyss.
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Help me


I have become so afraid to live,
that all I see is my death.
Life is so difficult,
but I see death as a way out.

So confused and tired,
death the only solution,
that I can see,
somebody help me.

Sitting here in the dark,
I contemplate everything,
and I understand so little,
and I bend my mind, so brittle.

Bend, bend, then it brakes,
shatters, pieces everywhere.
I pick them up one by one,
this is no fun.

What?
Where?
Why?
Who am I?

I found rest from my distress,
but it lies far away.
I need to be there,
I need that special care.

My life is fine to the observer,
but all is tattered and torn in my mind.
I need you.
I love you.
Be with me.
Save me.
Stop me.

What?
Where?
Why?
Who am I?

This is all so horrible.
I feel so terrible.
I sit and I cry,
but I don't know why!

What is wrong?
What is life?
All of this,
I simply wish,
to understand.

Blood drips from my wrist,
cut for no reason.
I didn't even want to do it,
something made me go through it.

Emotionally unstable,
physically unable,
to do anything,
fix my broken wing.

All is lost,
never to be found.
What am I hiding?
I must stop abiding,
all these rules,
all these laws.
Nothing makes sense to me,
don't you see?
I need you,
be with me.

So damn lost.
So damn confused.
So damn cold.
So damn bruised.

What?
Where?
Why?
Who am I?

You are my solution,
my total retribution.
But dying I stay,
with you away.

I don't feel right all,
sitting I fall.
I fall right inside
myself
but I don't go anywhere.
I stay here.

I feel trapped,
stuck, shackled, confined.
This physical body preventing,
preventing something more.

I feel like I am going to explode.
All these things trapped inside.
They want out.
They can no longer hide.

Help me.
Help me.
Help me.
Help me.

I need you.

I'm shaking.
None of this makes sense.
I don't understand.
I don't understand.

Life?
Why?
Life?
Why?

Why?

Help me.
Help me.

What's going on?

I am so lost in myself.
There is no way out.
I run but I go nowhere.
I look and I stare.

Sleep, I should sleep,
but I can't,
too much on my find,
so much to seek, to find.

I need you.
I need love.
I need help.
I need you.

I feel something I can't describe.
It is something different.
I feel it inside.
What is it?
I don't know how to put it in words.
But I can't deal with it alone.
I need the help of your love.
It can save me.
It can save me.
I can't save myself.
I've tried.
I've tried.
I've lived.
I've died.

Still I sit.
All alone.
Nothing gets better.
I am alone.
Why?
Why?
Help me.
Help me.

There are things I need to do.
I have lied.
I must get them done.
But do they even matter?
I mean what does?
I don't understand.
Help me.
Please.
Please.
I need you.

This is all too much for me alone.
I need help.
I need your love.
I need... I need...
I am so damn selfish.
But I don't understand anything.
Why?
Help me?
Am I crazy?
What?
Help me.

Crazy?
Am I?
Maybe.
Help me.

So close to suicide.
But I have more things to do in life.
I can't end it now.
But what should I do?
I am so confused.
I need you.
Help me.

Life is a long journey,
and I can't see the road.
I am so lost.
I am so cold.

I am shaking.
I am confused.
I am...
Help me.

What am I doing?
And why?
Is there a purpose?
A reason?
Why?
Tell me.
Help me.
Love me.
See me.

I sit in the dark.
I am writing.
I am writing these thoughts.
These thoughts of mine,
in hopes of an answer to find.
I hope I can help myself,
with these words.
I am so confused.
Help me.

I am going to lay down.
I will see what happens.
I fear the future.
Help me.


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Monday, August 22, 2005

Poeple

When something infects a person,
changing it cells taking control
and killing someone, it's called a disease.

Something is reshaping the earth,
taking control and killing it.
It’s called PEOPLE.

People poison the air,
contaminate the water,
burn the trees,
kill the animals,
and strangle themselves.

It's all done for greed.
No matter what anyone says,
greed is what feeds people,
the force that drives them on.

And people will greedily devour
this planet
until it is dead.


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I See
I see the truth.
I see the future.
I see minds.
I see eyes.
I see through the crooked wicked lies.

I see the truth.
I see the future.
I see grief.
I see death.
I see the quick stopping of your breath.

I see the truth.
I see the future.
I see fire.
I see sky.
I see those selected to die.

I see the truth.
I see the future.
I see war.
I see pain.
I see all these things over again.

I see all this,
plain as day.
I see all this,
taken away.

I see all this,
like a flood.
I see all this,
written in my blood.

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Slip Away
Encircling the energies,
filling in the discrepancies.
Feel like your falling from with in.
You try to deny it, but you can't win.

Free the body, free the mind
be prepared, because you soon will find...
yourself
slipping away.
You slip away.

Controlled by the energies from within,
where it all started to begin.
It is a force you can't control,
burning inside like a hot coal.

So you slip away,
your freedom from the day.
Unwound, unbound, unsure.
A scream, a dream, a blur.

As you slip you start to fly.
beyond the earth, beyond the sky,
beyond stars, beyond space,
transgressing the human race.

You fly, you glide, and you learn.
Decreasing the chance of return.
Not limited by the physical body,
your mind, your true self, all free.

Slip away
never to return.
The future
is yours to learn.
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No Escape
Isolation.No escape.No escape.Do you know where you are?How did you get here?Where’s the way out?The door!You can run to the door.You will be seen.If you run they can find you.Don’t move.Don’t move.They’ll leave you alone if you don’t move.Still and quiet.Still and quiet.Protect yourself.From them.You hear them.Silent whispers.Have they seen you?
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The Silence
In the silence,

I heard the rain.

So I cried,

as I felt the pain.



Months have gone by,

since we’ve been apart,

and I still feel the love,

you etched upon my heart.



We were so close,

yet so far away.

And tight in my arms,

I wished you’d stay.



Despite the time gone by,

I still feel I never left you,

And I deeply cherish,

all that we’ve been through.



Time without you,

is like an eternity,

and someday I hope,

you’ll return to me.

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?Question?
Can't stop to break.
Can't stop to cry.
Can't stop to live.
Can't stop to die.

I cannot take this pain.
It drives me insane.
I'm in life without myself.
Still here with no one else.

Can't stop to be myself.
Can't stop to be alone.
Can't stop to be undead.
Can't stop to be unknown.

Where will I take this?
How can I break this?
Where can I find the answer,
to cure this noetic cancer?

Can't stop the blood.
Can't stop the knife.
Can't stop the death.
Can't stop the life.
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My Dream
Eyes stare into the black void,
the light there, now destroyed.
Forever seeing nothing at all,
close to the edge, close to a fall.

Breaking the glass of the conscious dream
cutting with the sharpest scream.
Letting the blood of reality drip down,
and thus in the crimson drown.

Standing in front of the mirror,
watching the truth become clearer.
Standing in front of self-denial,
watching the emotions pile.

Wake up from the nightmare,
step away from what you fear.
Enter the depths of your mind,
destroy what makes you blind..

Embrace the dark and sleep,
and the dream you will keep.
Until you wake once more,
the dream is yours to explore
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