Friday, July 13, 2007

Great

Day, today. I guess. Ha. Well, I woke up ate then went back to sleep. Then, after i woke once again i watched the movie convient i think it's called. Hmm.

I'm listening to music right now. well, was. Ha. My bros a little busy playing a game on my cube, ha...i WAS listening to The Killers if anyone was wondering...I have A.D.D i swear. ah. ne ways what was I talking about earlier?

Oh, yes. Then I ate again once my dad came home from work. went shopping with my mahh. and ended up convincing her to to got michigan to help Wynter c Rachel. hear that Rachel yeah. you should be thanking me, but really i don't mind. Oh and also convinced her..(if you can call it convincing her when she just randomly told me) to dye my hair red tomorrow. OH YEAH. ha. um i think that's it guys...

What was the last thing you dreamt about?

I found the sun for my night...

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Thursday, July 12, 2007

Today.

Was interesting. OM GOSH!!!! I was in hot water with my family. I'm the worst daughter ever! They deserve better, and what freaks me out is they act so cool about everything.

So, the things I've done are to personal to say in public. Sorry, and besides, I'd rather leave them in the past. its safe to say things are better, as i'm bettering myself.

Well, i have to go to bed now. my new limit is 1am even tho its 2am. ha.
im not deleting my account, and i am listening to The Used. Awesome band. Hey guys! I'm not onna be here all next week not that it matters, but Hey. im not. I'm gonna be at church camp. YEAH! DEAL WITH IT! I need redemption. It's not Fair for my family it's not fair to god and jesus and it's not fair to me the way I am.

Whens the last time you thought about what will happen to you in the future?

The blood finaly stopped pooring out of my eyes...Perhaps its not a vital amount lost?
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Thursday, July 5, 2007

I need.
I want to turn my life around. I want the hurting to strop. I want to ignore the bitter taste because i know no sweet is coming out of this week old lemon. Ha. Please help me. I feel soo unloved. gimmy love. im needy. :P
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Tuesday, July 3, 2007

hmm. i don't get on here much ne more. im a lazy fag aint i?
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Tuesday, June 26, 2007

I'm so sad
I need sum sugar pils or something. i needt o be hyper and stop this pathetic sadness. *sigh*

add me if u have ne of these

msn= bleedingpainedbrain
aol= silverheart (nopules =iusethat 1 les often.)
yahoo= deathsgrip01@yahoo.com

im so bored.

hmm -_-

here i am

im sooo bored. haha. *sigh*
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Wednesday, June 20, 2007

I wish i was a vampire. or a ghost haha! im so weird
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Saturday, June 16, 2007

slip on the pool of tear




recordmy sadness. put all my emotion in this camera.imfinding a way to surpass the pain. a way to cover the sorrow with a plain whitepill.

dening isn't hard. so y can every1 c right thru this pail crust?whatWhappened to me?whydo i decide to right my fustrationsa away and let the publicveiw?hiddingmy crys would be like hidding the water of rain falling down the sky.pointlesslike flavor. so than i lay out the after effects of pooring eyes for you to c. do youlikewhat you c?I love youbuti want to hate you i fail in my won trap of self distruction
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Friday, June 15, 2007

grr.
im so mad. haha. damn rip off rented game only gave me disc 1 for resident eveil 4. *sniff* i was sooooo far. im reckless. this isn't cool. man i want to play till i beet it. *sigh*
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Tuesday, June 5, 2007

ugh...
Man last night was so bad for me. My brother let his friend come in in the middle of the night and didn't tell my parents, also was drinking and had 2 girls (i wasn't aware of the drinking and the second girl) my dad caught my brother. I told him he would too, but no one listens to me. God ur an asshole. After my dad and brother were yelling at each other it looks like my 16 year old brother is moving out and my parents are acting like they don't care. Bull shit. Also after my parents had to include me in the argument and fell asleep right after kicking his friend and his (1) girl out my brother was drunk, so he says, and was fucking that whore loud enough so that I couldn't fall asleep.
damn I hate my brother right now. i regret defending him too. He made me throw out his used condom this morning. Honestly if he moves out fuck him its his life idc!!!!!










Im like a cat lady how sad is that. my cat is on my lap and has his head tucked in my arms..sigh i don't want to move him cuz im afraid ill get scratched haha,,,now my foots asleep.

his name is Sylvester haha hes twitching

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Monday, June 4, 2007

bleh
haha. is it a bad thing if i throw up blood? haha! oh well it cant be that bad..


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