Friday, December 2, 2005

Random Words


Hello Everyone,

Thank you for cheering me on, as it was, for my personal statement. It is very difficult to write about myself. I have a fear of sounding arrogant and self-centred. Irrational I know, after all they have asked me to tell them about myself. Oh well I will get there, I have some ideas written down and I am going to get my husband to help me out, after all he knows me best and he will give me an honest opinion if what I am saying is over the top or not!
Thank you Bloodmire yet again for a painfully honest opinion. Always a pleasure!
And the people that didn’t even have to lift a finger to get into school, you wear make up and scream and get sang to! You know who you are!!! Hehe
Have a great weekend everyone!

Ciao!

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Thursday, December 1, 2005

Shattered


Gentle as the feel summer rain her breath envelopes him;
Her skin is the silver moonlight her hair black velvet.
Every night she crosses the bridge of reality and walks into his dreams.
Wrapped in the silk of her skin, her eyes captivate him, his body trembles
The sent of orchids invades his tranquil heart and strengthens its desire.
He reaches out to her, and as his fingers touch her dark hair
The morning shatters her apart like glass, leaving only her scent.

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Good Evening All,

I want to thank you all for the lovely comments and the many hugs! I return them all to you double! I have to say that the most interesting answers were Bloodmire’s and he made a very good argument about harmony in life, it is something I am going to explore a little more and then get back to you. Thank you Blood for starting this string of thought!
I am having a strange kind of writers block at present, and I was hoping that you guys could help me out a little bit. I need to write a personal statement for my university application….yes I haven’t filled that out yet don’t pester me! I am suppose to describe who I am, why I want pursue this course, what my future plans are, my achievements, it goes on and on, and I have only 4000 characters spaces included to do this in! I cant even start it, I have never had to “sell” myself in an academic light before! HELP!

Last but not least, I got bored of my site colours so I changed them, along with my Avi, I think this is a lot more me, what do you think??

Ciao!

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Wednesday, November 30, 2005

Perfect


The dream of achieving happiness haunts us like the ghost of Christmas past. We strive for that perfect balance in our lives, the perfect house, partner, children, car. Our own desire to be so perfect, is the one thing that pushes us to achieve, to work hard for what we want, it is our strength, and our weakness. Walking the path of ultimate perfection is endless, you know deep in yourself that you will never reach that point where everything is exactly how you want it, and that can drive you to insanity, it can push you over the edge to a place where you sabotage your own identity to be something you believe you should be. It is modern society that tells us what we should be, achieve and obtain to be perfect; how we should act and how we should live. Why does this modern “easy” way of life not feel natural, why do I want to oppose everything that I am told and cause havoc and mayhem in the perfect routine of daily life? I am an animal, and so are you, we have adapted to an environment harsher than any nature can throw at us, one that we have created ourselves; a jungle that is deeper and more treacherous than any existing in the world. A mental maze of should and should nots that cause us to loose track of what is really important and follow that path of perfection that society has drawn out for us. Well, I refuse to; I will do what I enjoy, I will raise my children to be respectful of both the human nature, and mother nature, I will enjoy the warm feeling of the sun and the smell of grass, I will be hypocritical and use the shortcuts that human inventions have provided me with, but I will also make my own, and if that means stepping on the toes of the power-hungry and perfection crazed man of today then so be it. I will be who I am, I will make mistakes, I will cry and laugh, throw tantrums, and accept the fact that perfection is only for the gods of all religions and mother nature, and therefore I will be perfect.


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Morning Everyone,

Now that I have moved I live in a university town, I am sure you have all heard of the University of Oxford, well as you can imagine there are more intelligent people than is natural to in this one small place, and there are a lot of very interesting conversations that you can overhear, be it in a café somewhere or on the bus or just walking along on the street. I wrote the little paragraph on top while in a café listening to two men talk about their strive to perfection. They both had the perfect suits, the perfect hair, manicures hands, accents, and vocabulary. And they both looked so pompous and so repulsive in their perfection; they kept looking down on everything around them and finding fault. It made me angry, and it made me write, which I guess I should thank them for. Anyway I thought I will have a little Q&A, here is what I want you to tell me

1. What is the one thing that makes your temper flare up like a volcano?
2. What would be a perfect day for you?
3. Would you want to be perfect?
4. What is the one thing in the world that you want more than anything else?
5. Would you give up happiness if it meant that the rest of the world lives in harmony?
6. What’s your favourite food?
7. Can I have a hug? ;)

Looking forward to your answers!

Ciao!

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Saturday, November 26, 2005

The Return of the Damned one!


Hey there everyone, how are you all!

I have finally got my internet back! It felt like having my arms chopped off! So what have you been up to?? I haven’t managed to go to any sites yet, I thought I would update and then go and visit your sites!

I have been up to nothing interesting, just decorating my new house and trying to set things up, I am having my satellite TV installed right now, and no don’t worry I have TV before but it was freeview and all the good channels were off limits. I have been writing a lot, so over the next few days you should be able to see some of my new works. I have also had a lot of ideas for drawings that I would like to do, unfortunately none of my drawing utensils have come out of storage yet, so I haven’t been able to do anything.
The weather here has been absolutely bonkers, it was really cold last week, most of England had blizzards yesterday, and today we have the most beautiful bright clear sky, and its rather mild in comparison. Ok someone tell me what it is about us and the weather, the English do actually spend hours talking about the weather!!
Today I am going to leave you with some interesting art, unfortunately I don’t know the name of the artist, but I think it is a beautiful picture!

Ciao!

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Tuesday, November 8, 2005

Netless and Confused


Hello there,
How is everyone doing? I have been so busy, moving everything across to my new house. Do you know its easier to move your furniture and all your plates than it is to change your address with the bank and all the rest! I have been having a great time filling out forms, talking to people on the phone, spending HOURS on hold, it’s a laugh! Such a shame you people cannot hear the sarcasm in my voice right now! Hehe
Well I am going to be off MyO for a little bit, I wont have the net in the new house until the end of the month. I have no idea how I am going to cope! My life is all on here! Sad really, scary!
Well you all behave and I will see you as soon as I can! HUGS

Ciao!

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Friday, November 4, 2005

Hayaku
Just a quick one to let you all know. I failed my driving test. I am not upset about it, I dont really mind, I will get it next time. Plus I am maintaining that the examiner was too strikt and that he was out to get me :P

Ciao!
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Thursday, November 3, 2005

Tears


The tears fell down my face like rain
The pain I felt was sweet and deep,
The anger that I had spent my whole life cultivating faded away.
He understood me; he looked into my eyes and saw who I was.
As he pulled me near him I felt his soft breath,
It touched my soul and melted the dark ice within.

As our lips touched my heart could beat again,
The fear that paralysed me evaporated,
Holding on to him was holding onto life.
I was risking everything I am, to be everything I want.
I was throwing away everything I had, for everything I need.

This memory will haunt me forever.


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Ohayo mina,
Genki desu ka. I am well, I have my driving test today so I am not at work, I am sitting at home relaxing, finishing off some of my writing as you can see above, and if I have time and if I can find any of my drawing stuff I might do some of that seeing as how I find it relaxing. If I do draw anything I will let you guys have a look! I think I found an old one of Yu-Gi-Oh as well that I did I might post that too!
Well tomorrow is my moving day, after tomorrow I will have a nice house to live in. I am going to stay around in London for another week though, finish off the first half of my level 3 in Japanese, and finish off work. It is going to be such a sad time saying goodbye to all my colleagues, I know I say the are all boring old sods but I love them non the less!
Have a great day, I will let you all know tomorrow if I passed my driving test or not!

Ciao!

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Thursday, October 27, 2005

Hugs All Around



Hello Everyone,

Thank you all so very much for all your nice comments, and all of you that went to see my fanart, which is finally up, thank you. However the prize for the nicest MyOtaku friend at present goes to Ganymede, who has been leaving some of the sweetest comment. The prize is a big bear hug!!! The rest of you will just have to be content with regular hugs. Just in case you are all wondering what has happened I am running on adrenalin and exhaustion, hence the super cheery post.

Sorry you all couldn’t see the picture of my last post, it was a truly beautiful flower, however the host had a bit of a problem and the whole thing went *BOOM*

Well I am off to work and then swim and then work, and then have Japanese, and then hopefully get a couple of hours sleep before I work again…oh and there is some packing in there somewhere!

Ciao!

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Tuesday, October 25, 2005

Art Stugles


Konichiwa!

How is everyone?
I have been busy, packing! My moving out date is the 4th of November, and my driving test is the 3rd of November. PANIC! I know my last post said that I have some fan art coming through, well I don’t think it got “approved”…I have submitted it again, I just really want you guys to have a look and tell me if it is all ok! The only problem is the limited shape and size that you can submit, I cave tried to make it the right shape and size but it means that it ends up with a big black box at the bottom, it’s the only way it stays into proportions!
Anyway I have to go and do some more work, I leave you with this beautiful photograph!

Ciao!

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Wednesday, October 19, 2005

Art
Hi Everyone,

No picture today, I have a “poem” and a fan art to illustrate it. Please let me know what you think! All constructive criticism is welcomed.

PS. I gave the poem more of a shape, I didnt like the way it just sat on one paragraph! 20.10.05


Lust

She stairs into his eyes, a mirror to her soul.
The look of emptiness and despair drives her to the edge of reality
And gently pushes her over, not him it whispers.
There is nothing here,
The life she was promised was snatched away in an instant.
She didn’t mind, she never minds,
She has walked this world for hundreds of years trying to find peace.
It is all a blur, her wings bleeding black with the sin of the humans that touch her,
Her heart is hollow.
Her punishment is complete.

She was an angel once, the sun used to warm her skin,
The clouds combed her hair,
God himself used to whisper in her ear, but she fell into darkness,
One that she can never return from.
She fell into his arms, into his eyes, into his kiss.
Her lust is a carnal sin, the greatest sin,
Yet his emerald eyes fuelled a lust so great that even Lucifer himself had to bow before it.
He saved her from a death she dreams for now.
He was mortal, and she is not,
She wonders this world alone,
Looking for his soul, for his eyes, for his touch.
He is gone, but the curse of her lust will be forever by her side.





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