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• 2005-08-17
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• Nikki

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• I'm still Alive and Well!
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• Y2K (Introduced to Berserk)
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• Vampire Hunter D, Last Exile, Wolfs Rain, Naruto, Berserk, Full Metal Alchemist, Chrono Crusaide, Bleach! Angel Sanctuary!!!
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• Speak Japanese before I'm 25
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• I asked my friends, they said talking...haha...oh well




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Friday, June 2, 2006

Searching for myself



As I gaze upon the ruins of my self I wonder how I got here?
Did I lose my path?
Did I ignore the signs and walk into the darkness of night without realising?
I was caught unawares; my pride trampled my humanity destroyed.
As I pick up the pieces of my confidence and try to rebuild the person I once was I wonder if I will make this mistake again. I play the events of the past five months back and try to pinpoint the one instance where it all went wrong. One day, when I am wise enough I might just get there

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Evening all,
How are you all doing? As you can see from the little hastily written passage above I am not too well. It is that special time at my job when people make me fill small incapable and in general a right fool. I do wonder why I let people bring such emotions in me. I guess I am not as strong an individual as I imagined I am. I have learned a lot about myself during this past few months and about the sort of person I am. I now know that even if something is torturous if I have made the commitment I will see it through. I have learned that I do have integrity and pride. Well I don’t know I think I just need to put this all down and have people tell me what they thing, and if I am just being a silly mooh!

Can I just say thank you to everyone that replied to my last post and that keeps coming to visit me even though I am not always around and don’t always visit back! You guys keep me sane!!! Big Hugs to you all!!

Ciao!!

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