Saturday, November 13, 2004

   frustration...
Not much to really say today. No, I didn't get to go on that date I was so excited about. Work and school kinda conflicted the both of us. We were supposed to hang out a bit after work, but he decided to go and get a little tipsy with his friends... Now that I think about it... this isn't looking like something to be super happy about. Hay, at least he called and told me so I wouldn't be waiting after close for him to get his ass over here like a bump on a log... Oi. (okay there's IS alot to say:P) Yeah, I kinda went a little... crazy last night, for some reason I got sooo frustrated with what's been going on and what wasn't going well. It seems that EVERYTHING that I want to go at least "okay" gets shot to hell. So I sorta had a mini breakdown at work. Yeah, tears and such. It had a lot to do with him, BUT, BUT... I think that I would have snapped even if it was something else that had gone wrong that week. The toilet in my house exploded, mom almost got hit by a car, "I" almost got hit by a car, I got sick on the day of my "date", I burned my hand, I cried at work in front of EVERYONE, I still have a huge report due AND to top it all off I feel like I've been getting the brush off from men ONE TOO MANY TIMES... >__< Can you understand the frustration here? This all happened since my last post... Anyway. I sorted things out, bowled some games last night with the girls from work (I felt better later). Ick, but I still gotta talk to him later on in the week. It really just occured to me last night that he doesn't have a clue that I have this little crush on him... hmm, I suppose that's important, huh? ::sweatdrop:: I'll post Tuesday night, guys. Thanks for all your support and advice. Now critize away, I've got enough ben and jerry's ice cream to take you all and your criticism (i think that's how you spell it?)on! MWAHA!
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Wednesday, November 10, 2004

   ::happy dance!!::
::blushing:: Yay! I gotta date tomorrow evening with the guy! Go me! Okay. I know you girls (and guys) want details so I'll fill you in, k? Here's how it went down: K. We have the same science class and we're dissecting the fetal pig (anti-animal abusers throttle back I hate the idea too...). Anyways, I was all trying to think of a subtle way to ask. Lucky me that HE started talking about horror movies that he's seen. I asked him if he had seen the Grudge or Saw at all... "No, ya wanna go?" I swear to god I turned 80 shades of red. Here I was all worried that he was gonna say no. :P After class he kinda goes thru my stuff and puts his home number and his work number in my phone... I JUST saw what he did like at 10:00 tonight. I just got off the phone with him. 5 minutes turned into 42 minutes! And he won't lemme pay for my ticket... ::blushing:: SO HAPPY! Dunno how the night's gonna go... I'll give you all the details tomorrow! Wish me luck!!
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Tuesday, November 9, 2004

   jitters suck
wak... It's been a week almost since I've seen him. I see him tonight in class. I don't think that I'm going to just straight up ask him. I'm going to try and be a little subtle about it and see if he gets the hint... if not... then I'll tell him. boys are so dense, ne?
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Monday, November 8, 2004

   ? Advice? Please?
K. Here's the thing. There's a guy in class that I'm kinda crushin' on. ::yeah, yeah, quit with the awwwws:: We've all had crushes before, ne? Some we look back on and go: "what the crap was I smoking???" or "Gaah, why did I think about hiiim/heeer? Sooo cute..." But, yeah... I've had a few that have truly lived up to the name. And I'm STILL licking the heart wounds from 2 years ago. It's been a long time since someone had actually made me laugh, smile (without a crude joke. we're all jaded. anything that has to do with some kind of funny sex joke, were all on the floor laughing). Anyway, we all have masks right? This time I really felt... good. Like I didn't HAVE to laugh, I just did. I'm a little frustrated cause usually the good things end badly or painfully... I'm on a teeter totter here and I'm not sure what to do. After what happened a few years ago, I'm not sure if I could ask him out or whatever... I want to, but DON'T want to. And if I don't i feel like I'll be missing out on a HUGE opportunity here... i don't think he'll ask. He's got my # for help in class so it's there.i dunno what to do. If I ask... ARGH. ::sigh:: Life sucks sometimes...
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Sunday, November 7, 2004

   Better mood today, thank god.
Thanks to Lunacrypt for her... "offer". Naw, I don't need to kill anybody... yet. And I stress "yet". Today though was a little better that yesterday. I was still getting BS from others. Got a new game today. Final Fantasy Crystal Chronicles... Dammit it's... hard!! I'm doing single-player mode... I have others in my village, but they don't fight with me... is that only for the multi-player mode??? Cause I'm getting SO killed here!
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Saturday, November 6, 2004

   Slightly better mood...
Well, I feel a little better after calming down a couple of hours. I have to go back to work later tomorrow though. But I swear, another day like this and I am gone. I know you've had your bad days where you want to take an AK-47 and shoot a hole into someone's head (it'll blow it clean off actually... but whatever...). I'm interested to hear about the bad days or good days, Maybe then I won't complain as much... Do you guys like the new format? It's very... fall-like... OHH! Some guy asked me for my number. I'm not getting my hopes up too much cause he needs help with biology... oh well... I think I'm just gonna let whatever run it's course... laters

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   .......
yeah, I know it's not october anymore.... I'll fix the post later on tonight when I'm not being such a bitch. ::runs off to play a bloody video game::
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   ................ ROWR.
I hate my freaking job. I cannot wait to get the hell out. I really don't know if I can take another 2 weeks there. I think mom has been able to snag me another job that doesn't make me do as much bullsh** that I have to put up with. GRRRRRRRRR. I am so SICK of all this favoritism crap! It's EVERYWHERE. I think I am one of the few who HAVEN'T gotten a damn raise or any kind of recognition... Hmm *sarcasm here* D'ya think if I give one of the owners a BJ then I might get something?! ARGH!! Jesus that HAS to be it. I mean how do you explain me: over a year of service, can work MULTIPLE stations, am GOOD at it= $6.oo an hour w/ no change. K. 'nother employee: 6 MONTHS, only can work counter, is getting paid $8. Oh yeah, did I mention that she's sleeping with the boss' little brother????? I fu**ing hate this.... any ideas what the freak I should do before I go WW 3 on these a**holes???
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Sunday, October 31, 2004

   Happy Halloween!
Okay, raise your hand if you've had WAY too much candy... I've had my fill... 'course... there's ALWAYS room for chocolate and jolly ranchers! I stayed home and gave out candy a couple of times... then I wanted to rip out my door bell... TOO. MANY. KIDS. My little brother went out with a bunch of his friends and scared the crap out of little kids. I asked if he made any of them cry... sadly yes. They were focusing on 5 and under. ::shakes head:: Hope everyone has enough room for turkey! Or... ham... or whatever your mom makes at Thankgiving...
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Friday, October 29, 2004

   The second time 'round...
Awesomeness... the ending lacked a little... and the treasure hunting and Ganon were a big fat PAIN IN THE BOOTAY... but I did it! Whooo hoo! And with 11 hearts too! I won't spoil the ending, all though I will give thanks to Lunacrypt and Heliocrypt... Hm... are you two like siblings or best friends?? I dunno, just a question. But thanks for hanging out and stopping by to say hello and give me tips and help with it... No, I haven't gotten to Bowser in PM or PM 2... My stinky little bro traded PM 1 for some football game, ick... I was almost done too! ::shrugs:: Well, right now I'm going to get back to finishing my fanfic. I'll be posting the site(s) it's on soon so keep a look out. It's Ronin Warriors so... if you like 'em stop by, if not... well, read it anyway cause it makes me happy... :P See you all next update!
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