Friday, March 4, 2005

   My lesson learned. Beware long post.

*HISS*
Baby, I's on FI-YA!

This post is for all the girls out there that have been through a relationship of some kind and have it freakin BLOW UP at them. There is a God and she/he/it... is lookin' out for us.
Why do you ask? Well... For those of you who have been a frequent and know about my LAST "relationship" you will get mondo kicks out of this.
For those of you who don't know... Go back read December posts 1st-9th... It 'splains it.
ANYWAY... He called. 3 times in 2 days! "Let's hang out 'cause I'm sorry I was a jerk" was the basic jist of what happened to bring on a "date" of sorts. The reason why I'm calling it that is b/c well, he showed up for one thing and paid for it. Well "I" paid for it. His debit card wasn't working. Go figure. Anyway. The bloke owes me $6. We saw Constantine. Good movie. Go see it if you are bored. He didn't try any "cheap" moves during. And whenever we talked and the convo turned to "Seeing anybody?"... I used ::in old man asian wise guy voice:: "Cold Shoulder move for pesky boy who don't take hint first time 'round." My apologies to anyone who is Asian or speaks with an accent. I was in Mr. Miyagi mode there. But basically I was indifferent to him. Basic yes or no answers and told him that I was really way too busy! Which is true.
But girls... indifference is a good thing. Especially if you have them opening doors for you and well.. attempting to pay for everything. I was polite. He knows that he's in hot water with me. Well I'm sitting on the rim laughing my head off... but still after how he treated me, he's very lucky that I even went out with him at all.
Mouse so kinda reminded me that people like that who before blew you off, smoked and liked to get high rather than see you, will more than likely not change. I ered on the side of great caution as I told Mouse. If you're gonna consider going back out with a guy, here's 3 things to do. YOU HAVE TO:
1) Have your own ride home. Drive, asked for a ride with a friend some one NOT him. B/C if you end up getting a ride with him, most of the guys that I know will want a little "payment" for the ride home. He doesn't deserve it after what he's done (well to me anyway).
2.) If he offers to pay, let him and if you followed #1 you won't be in debt, just be sure to not let him try to back into a wall. Had avoid him rather abruptly when he got WAY too close. And finally:
3.) Do NOT call him. AT ALL. They feed of your need to talk to them.

Sorry for sounding so ANTI-MALE. I LOVE BOYS. I DO! Guys like Yamcha and Mouse and Akayo Kanachi are guys you take home to mom. ^ ^ They're nice... So thanks for the Valentine AK! Thanks for the advice Mouse, and I'll be thinking about you Yamcha when they stick me with that needle in 2 weeks! I LOVE YOU THREE!
Ladies. I did this because the boy needed to be somebody's lap dog for once. You would not believe the hell this guy put me through and all the loops he made me jump. You're probably thinking: "Why go out with him?!" Well, it's simple. He needed to know that what he did was wrong and I told him straight up "why I hadn't called, why most of my friends don't like you, and that I'm here just for the sake of MAYBE you'd understand the crap you did". I went for 2 reasons beside the latter: I wanted to see a movie and... maybe the off chance that he might have changed. He hadn't. Though he doesn't know that I really do dislike him. Not hate. I forgave him. I just don't choose to see him again. Should he call "I'm not home" and perhaps he will get the hint. I won't straight up tell him don't call me ever again... because he doesn't deserve me to have to tell him that. I think that he's smart enough to figure out how I feel. If he doesn't. Now he'll know what it was like when he ditched me all those times::shrugs::

Feeling good. Kento is my carefree favorite bishie ^ ^. The kind of guy that you just wanna hug or take a nap with to keep the bad dreams away.
So cuddly! "Like mashed potatoes!"-Ed for Ed, Edd, and Eddy. Good show!

Got an A on my micro test to make this day even better!
I know that this type of cruelty isn't becoming and I really hate that side of me. It's just... no one really looks out for me over here. So I decided to take matters into my own hands and deal with it. I don't deserve trash. Just like all of you don't deserve to be treated like that. Revenge can be a good thing. Just don't keep obessing over it. I'm over now. I just wanted to share the glory about how you can overcome the pain when a heartbreaker beats you down to nothing...

For those who have read and are in this situation, my heart goes out to you all and I hope you find the courage and strength to stand up for yourself. I love all of you guys and thanks for being apart of my life! ::GREAT BIG HUGS!!::

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