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Thursday, April 27, 2006

   Nightmare bleeding and cookies.
Late night woes return in this episode. I really hate my former beau. I've never really hated a person before to be honest. :( It's an awful feeling. I don't encourage anyone to divulge into it. Not good for the complexion [noting the bumps on face and sighing]. I keep having recurrent dreams about him. Some of them have been violent ones. [i.e. being taken against my will... sorry for the bluntness. It's late...]. The last few have been completely third person outside myself watching myself being an idiot and going to him for lousy companionship... not to mention "other things"... I can't really go to the folks with this and my home friends don't really want to hear it anymore... So I'm reaching out to you all. I don't think that a therapist will work. I can still function and sleep okay. I just want these dreams to stop. Maybe there is still some part of me that wants the bastard back, but it's not happening even if he begged... Maybe I need a new guy for an ego boost so I can get on with it or something...

Sorry for the semi lapse on my emotional grip. It's beat down.

Any ideas besides "It'll hurt for a while just bite the bullet." Um, it's not hurting rather it's just friggin annoying! Grrrrr...

On a MUCH lighter note. SomeGuy graduates on the 24th of May! Hooraaaaaaay! So proud of him! He's a smart cookie! The chocolate kind with the macadamian nuts. Yum!
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