Thursday, September 8, 2005

   I NEED A HUG!!!
Sitting in the library...again. this is the second time today! and 4th time this week! i think its a conspiracy. I mean, i <3 reading, but this is crazy. and i'm starving. only had time to grab a rice crispy treat for breakfast. slept in late. I'm so hungy. SKINNY GURL GOTS TO EAT!!! i'm gonna pass out next class, i swear. i can feel my bloodsugar dropping. this is not kewl. sometimes fast metabolisims really suck. if you don't eat you pass out. i've almost done it a couple of times. getting the shakes REALLY sucks. luckily, i'm not quite to that point. ok, enough of my bitching about hunger. ugh. ROTC next class. i think i hate that class the most. It used to be my favorite. This evil school ruined it for me. I miss my J.O. Johnson H.S. JROTC family. 'cause thats what we were. I miss my friends. I miss getting hugs from guys. I used to get lots of hugs every day. now i feel lucky if i get one a week. All the guys are idiots except for a select few. at this rate, i'm gonna die an old maid. not that i ever had ne romantic interests at my old school. no one was interested, and frankly, neither was I. But i miss the tactile contact. I need Chief and Terrence, and Jamill, and all the other guys. I don't want a bf. I just want a hug. is that so much to ask? but instead i get idiots who make retarded jokes and sexual innuendos and think that i'm the spawn of the devil, just because when they harass me i retaliate...often violtenly. They don't touch me ne more. I can't help who i am and i refuse to change...especially for THEM. I don't liked to be poked constantly. I don't like you putting you hands on me and touching my hair w/out permission. I didn't used to be like this. but then i got stuck in a class of teenaged boys who act 5 years younger who can't keep their hands to themselves. I get twitchy when i walk in the class now. last year i accidentally bitch-slapped a guy when he put his hand on my shoulder. Thats how parinod i got. I'm not so bad ne more, because they learned not to mess w/ me. ugh. I'm so frustrated. just had to vent there a bit. thnks to all the ppls who actually read this whole thing. <3 and smoochies!

~Ellen~

"weep not, weep not, she is not dead...she's only just gone home."
~James W. Johnson~
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Wednesday, September 7, 2005

   i'm not sure how i'm feeling right now. I was pissed off earlier, but i ranted to some of my friends *hugs said friends* and now i feel better...even tho LtCol. is being a sexist MoFo....again. -_- Saturday is white water rafting. *happy dance* and Alena is coming over tomorrow to hang out and i haven't gotten to see her for real in weeks. and White water rafting w/ rotc is always fun. Chris (from new orleans) is ok i guess. he's kinda kewl. i have him for two classes.I'm wearing my my Inuyasha shirt right now. just thought i'd throw that tidbit in. OOHH!!! i got the most GORGEOUS plum colored Asian material for my Ball dress!!! Mommy is making it. its gonna be PRETTY! *inner girly coming out* Guys at ROTC being stoopid as usual. -_- oh well. ttyl ppls!!!!


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Tuesday, September 6, 2005

   Sitting in the school Library. I'm supposed to be working on a project about Yves Saint-Laurent. Did you kno that he got conscripted in the army and had a nervous break down? special isn't it? you pick up all sorts of odd and useless facts. kinda ironic. We got a new kid from New Orleans. He is one of the teacher's nephew. His name is Chris. I was supposed to show him to his next class and he so blew me off and followed one of the other girls. -_- Thnks dude. I kno you've had a rough time, but thats just plain rude. no excuses. *sigh* I don't want to do this project! i don't CARE about some spaztic French guy! (no insult to ne other spaztic French ppls) I had to dress up today for a project i have to present in Government class. The one i was procrastinating on. i finished it. Thnk God for 3 day weekends. So i'm wearing my Chinese dress w/ the black pants and my new flats (they're so cute! and only $2.50!!!) ok, i sounded so materialistic there. I'm not, i just like to look good for a minimum amount of money. 'cause i'm broke. (<- see occupation) I need to find a good new quote. i can't think of ne. the last one was by me. la la la . maybe I'll quote Becca...*evil grin* i figured out how to put a pic in the background last night, but i don't kno how to make it show up thru the other thingy. it kinda sucks. If you kno how, holla at me, will ya?

TOAY'S QUOTE UNTIL I GET A BETTER ONE IS...

"Cheese and Unicorns!"

~Rebecca Grimm~


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Monday, September 5, 2005

Katrina
ok, stealing this from you Myx! (never been one to waste a good idea!)


This bit of my site is for the Victims of hurricane Katrina. So say a prayer or have a moment of silence, or smthn. Just remember that every little bit helps. My family may be taking in a family from one of the military bases down there.

Angel of God
My Guardian dear,
To whom God's love commits me here,
Ever this day be at my side,
To light and Guard
To Rule and Guide.
Amen.


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   *blushes*
wow. I'm so embarrassed! (sp?) i accidentally put up a piece of fan art and it was the wrong one! so i ended up w/ a pic of Kagura that was named Daisuke. *blushes* I have fixed this...i hope. I'll have to check and make sure its right. Feel free to laugh at me. I have no idea how i did it. *gives self stoopid slap*...ugh. school tomorrow. joy -_- AND i have to dress up because i have a presentation. This is gonna suck. I have a new wallpaper up....have i mentioned that already? i think i did. I've felt like crap all day. Feeling better now tho. nothin much happend. saw the Samuri X movie last night. was dissapointed. didn't like the new voice actors and the drawing wasn't that good. Also saw Sin City. THAT was an interesing movie. not sure i liked it. the yellow dude was just kinda special.

To Myx
srry i didn't call you. didn't get your message till this morning. And then you weren't home. hope your doing ok.

TODAY'S QUOTE UNTIL I GET A BETTER ONE....

"There is nothing that good friends, chocolate, duct tape, and superglue can't fix."

~Margaret Anderson~


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Saturday, September 3, 2005

   hey there ppls! nothin much going on here. I drove around all day w/ my friends and bro. I so almost got us killed. (I only have my driver's permit, so thats why we brought my big bro) Saved Myx from evil kin-folk. almost cussed out said kin-folk when they got on the IM and pretended to be her and were rude. The bitch doesn't even kno me. She sure as hell best not hurt Myx's feelin's again, or i'm gonna kick her ass! *calms* sorry. no one messes w/ my friends. EVER! *EVIL GLARE OF INSTANT DEATH*
ok, on to happier things!
i got a wallpaper up. Go eye ball it. i like it mucho! (wow, bad spanish grammar) trying to get a job...still. have to go set up a time for an interview. -_- joy. I want to work at Hot Topic. That would be great. I have a project due Tues. i am so procrastinating. i really don't feel like doing it. *sigh* it'll get done eventually!

TODAY'S QUOTE UNTIL I GET A BETTER ONE....

"If it ain't broke, don't fix it."

once again, i have no idea who said it first, but i use it fairly often.
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Friday, September 2, 2005

   IT MAKES NO SENSE!!!!
OH MY GOODNESS. this thing hates me. If ne of you ppls noticed that i just dissapeared about 3 days ago, its cause I DID! my site just up and DISSAPEARED!!! IT MAKES NO SENSE!!! but after 2 days of trying i got it back!!! ALSO (drumroll plz) ! I finally got some of my art work up. so go eyeball it. Its under original anime. Hopefully in the future this will hate me less and i won't pull another dissapearing act on y'all. love and smoochies!
Ellen


TODAYS QUOTE UNTIL I GET A BETTER ONE IS....

"I don't want stupid. If I wanted stupid, I could get it, and I could get it for FREE!"
my mother to my lil bro.





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