Tuesday, June 22, 2004

   Hey guys ^_^
I don't have too much to post about, and I'll try to keep this short. most of the afternoon my dad was over at Best Buy with my cousin Vut and I think he was with my aunt and uncle from Philly too...Anywayz...my cousin works over at the Best Buy in Gainsville and he knows a lot about technicle stuff. But the four of them came to our house (which I wasn't expecting) and he came home with a new camcorder and my aunt was checking out the lucky bamboo. She started pulling and cutting off the dead leaves and jus taking care of them.

But while they were over, my dad told my my aunt and uncle that my brother and I couldn't speak much Cambodian but can only understand some. I understand more than my brother and I can speak the language better than he can! How could my very own father put me down to HIS level?!?!

Well we found out that my cousin has plans for going boating tomorrow with some of the family. I don't know for sure who's going, but I guess it'll be fun. But if my family goes, it'll probably jus be my brother and I since my dad works from 5 to 5 and he'll need the sleep. My cousin will be looking for a boat to rent today to get ready for tomorrow, but oh gosh....he's gonna be driving it XD!!! And then a bit later, two more of my cousins came over.....too many pplz were over and I wasn't even expecting it -.-

Not much happening now at the moment, but I called my mom's celli a bit ago and left a message saying "Mommy, there's nothing I wanna eat in the house, can you go to McDonalds please? I love you! bye!" haha you know she can't resist that....well she can, but let's hope she doesn't. Seriously though, there's food, but I don't like what's left....and also, no more instant noodles >.<

I guess that's all for now....thax for reading pplz and I'll ttyl ^_^
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Monday, June 21, 2004

   hmmmm...what to post about....
Uhm...well not much happened today, and there's nothing really worth posting about. I've always hated Mondays anywayz ^^; If something comes up, I'll edit maybe.

Also here's a poem from a while ago, I still haven't been able to think of anything yet....but yea...I jus need to wait for the right time and right emotions to flow in ^_^...i think....


I dunno if I've put this up yet.....but I guess it wouldn't hurt to put it back up again ^^;

you've shatter and torn apart-
kicked and stepped over this heart.
then you threw the remainings into the sea-
turned back and walked off...hating me.
a smirk to top off the night,
thinking now that i'm gone things will be right.

this tired soul suffers along the crashes-
against the rocks and only receives gashes.
not knowing of any hate...
but believing i can start on a new slate.
the waves come down in all directions-
Pummling my body with rejection.
no hope left for this weak spirit...
but to continue to cry hoping you hear it.

after you break there seems to be no way to heal...
but you shouldn't give up cuz there are many who feel-
feel the same way and are able to just walk through...
your not alone and there's many who care for you too.

my soul comes to see the fact that there is pain no more,
and finaly finds my way back to shore.
i hold my head up high for another tomorrow...
that will be spent with happiness and will be anti-sorrow.
all my life i've been asking for rescue...
to find that special someone and i thought he was you.
but now i find myself needing help more than ever…
I thought that you would put away the nightmares forever.

I was idiotic and in denial…
I didn’t think that it was only a trial.
A game that turned to be a waste.
My heart and soul was only being chased.

Lies to cover my wounds and cuts-
You start to apologize with a “but…”
You didn’t think I would be so hurt-
But think about it…you threw my heart into the dirt.

You had the easy part,
You pretty much just said sorry for breaking my heart.
I cried and you didn’t know,
I loved you…but it didn’t show.

But I can’t help it…
And these words no longer seem to fit…
But I just want you to know…
That I once loved you…and that feeling will never go.

I’ll start this new life…but I won’t end the other.
I can’t replace my tears and memories so this life won’t count as another…
But it’ll be a new look on things,
And my heart will change the tune that it sings…
My eyes left unclosed and I won’t let you out of my sight,
It’s a new feeling of happiness that appeared as a light-
It leads the way and tells me that my ‘someone’ will be here soon.
And by then I would have already hatched out of this depressing cocoon.

Thanx for reading and I'll ttyl!!! [and this was like from a couple months ago, don't worry, no bastard will ever break me down again !]
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Sunday, June 20, 2004

   WooT!! Beach Party!!!
First of all before I start, I'd like to say happy birthday to DevilGril666 If you guys have the time and don't mind, would you please wish her a happy B-Day?

Also today's father's day. We had a small party over at Fort DeSoto Park with my family and a friend of theirs, and my cousins and I went swimming and we had so much fun. I was able to see my other cousin from Philadelphia, Sokha, and the first thing he said to me was "Hey Dany, you grew" I'm jus glad he remembered my name ^^;

Well I had this other post typed up, but when I looked over it, it was extremly long. So I decided to not type out so much. Also there was so much that happened over at the beach and it'd be a pain for you guys to read even half of it.

Well I can't think of anything else to type about now....oh well ^^ Oh, and I was eating some mango with this dip thing I made, and it was really spicy!! I started tearing up! But then it brought back the memory of when I was at An1m3's 'bye-bye party' and I put this mound of chili peppers on this slice of mango and I also started tearing up. It was so hilarious too. I miss her.......and I won't be able to see her on her B-day next week >.
I'll stop -.- Thanx for reading guys, and I'll ttyl! I don't know how many pages I'll be able to make it over to, but I'll see what I can do ^_^. Bye!!!!
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Saturday, June 19, 2004

   hey
I am currently typing this on the night of the party. It's about 9:30pm right now, and things aren't really going as good as I was hoping. But before I get into the rest of the details, over at this one Vietnamese store this afternoon when my mom and I were looking for some stuff we bumped into one of Anim13's sisters, Savi, and her boyfriend. We had a small chat with her, and she told me that An1m3 really missed me ^-^

[It's kind of weird how our names our. Two of my cousins, Sodany and Davy (not 'Davey' a short |a|)then me, Dany, then An1m3's sisters, Dani and Savi, And then Ric3's sister, Davee....This only proves one thing! I'm the only one without a sister T_T]

But about tonight, my cousin Davy couldn't make it since she's tired and she's sleeping, and of course Sodany couldn't come, she's still in California. But my mom told An1m3's sister that if they wanted to come over, they could. But so far they didn't come yet, which isn't such a biggie. I got to see two of my cousins from Philadelphia, Thyda (I think I spelled it wrong, but it's said like 'Tida'...I think 0.0) and Bopha but I haven't seen their brother yet. Also I heard that they might be moving down to Florida maybe, and if they do they'll move to Palm Harbor. If they do or don't, it doesn't really mean much to me.

My uncle (the one who went to Asia--my dad's older brother) he had this slideshow thingy prepared to show us on the DVD player, and I jus found out that they also went over to Hong Kong!!! That's no fair! My family hasn't even left this state since we came here! (which is about 10 years) ::sighs:: I jus hope that we'll be able to in teh near future -.- I mean it's no fun, my uncle and his wife went over to Italy for their anniversary--and they didn't even bring me >.< And this time they went over to Hong Kong, Cambodia, Vietnam, and Thailand (those are the ones I know of at the moment) But I even told my cousin that I would've fit in well with her luggage...but no...I had to stay home -.-

I'm really tired right now, and I'm trying my best not to pass out before the party's over. There was so much cleaning and shopping to do and walking and....all of that stuff. Also last night did no good for me. It had nothing to do with the poem, but it was like this bit of insanity stuck in the corner of my mind and it felt like it was spreading. I won't get into that since it's over with, and it's nothing a bit of anime won't cure ^_^

I guess it's ok to admit that I was kinda looking forward to this, but for some reason I have nothing to do but sit here and type this out. I spent some time around the kitchen--jus for no reason. I jus walked around and cleaned things up and looked in the fridge and freezer as if there was something I was looking for. But I was lucky enough to be able to find something to do when I noticed that there was a few dirty dishes in the sink. I finished that up, but then they started coming. I really ddin't have a problem with it since there wasn't anything for me to do anywayz, so I jus kept cleaning.

Uhm, Well it's about 9: 57 right now and I should get going. I'll see how many pages I can get to for tonight. Hope eeryone's Saturday went well, thanx for reading and I'll ttyl! ^_^
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   Izzy's keeping me awake..it's all her fault!!
haha..she's gonna kill me. I'm jus happy I was able to chat with her today. She left me for almost a whole entire week without telling me where she went ::sighs:: but it's all good I guess ^^

Okie dokie...I should get to some sleep since tomorrow's the big day. I have a feeling I'll be talking in my sleep saying "But I already cleaned up the bathroom....Make Sim do it" And I admit I have a thing with talking in my sleep, An1m3 would know. Last time she spent the night I kinda scared her a bit.

Uhm I don't know what else I should post about...well I should be getting to bed. Nighty night pplz and Sw33t Dreamz, I'll ttyl ^_^

-EDIT about 10 minutes later-

I know I should be getting to bed, and trust me I do, I don't want to be wasting my dreaming time. But a bit ago I decided to go to the site where I submit my poems. I haven't put up any for a while, but when I went to check, they were all gone.

I have no idea what happened, and I know I didn't delete any. The site didn't e-mail me anything about it, so I have no idea what happened. I'm lucky that I have all of my poems in a folder on my computer, so I'm glad I didn't lose them. I'm jus kind of in shock, mad, and a bit sad all at once. Jus when I wanted to look back on a few of my poems and check out the comments, they're gone...

It's a bit past one and I should get going. Night guyz.
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Friday, June 18, 2004

   Hmmm....I wonder why things looks so....familiar...DAMN SUGAR!!! oh wait...not that ^^;
[First of all before I go on with this, for the slow pplz I wanted to say that Chii decided to stay cuz she couldn't pay her rent over at another web page, so I was glad to take her back ^^ ::shoves Yuna aside:: anywayz, this is a message if a certain guy jus happens to visit:

You know our argument yesterday? I didn't care that you gave me your opinion, but FORCING me to change my theme was what got me mad. Also I didn't change it because of you, this theme kinda grew onto me! SO UP YOURS!!!!

Okie dokie...and also it was weird because before I even put up my post, and before I even read any of my comments, when I went over to sign someone's G/B, I saw an entry with a dark chii avatar and I really did say to myself (and trust me I talk to myself a lot ^^) that I missed chii T_T...so here she is!!! ^_^

Once again I jus need to get working on the intro and we'll all be happy]

A lot has happened since my mom came home yesterday, to now. Main thing, yesterday was horrible but I got one of the new Hershey's Cookies 'n' Mint chocolate bars. Also I had this really bad nightmare but it might gross you out. But I'll tell you anywayz, the part that scared me was when I started throwing up blood....ewwy, right?

Other than that, we've spent this whole day cleaning up and puting up new curtains and lots of other house stuff. Also there's a branch from the trees in the front of the house (they were there wayyyy before we moved in and they're really tall) but a branch from one of them broke a few days ago and my brother and I had the job of cutting bit by bit of it down and we were able to do that.....but we weren't able to escape pretty easily -.-

We ended up with lots of misquito bites...I'll count them later XD...but also I was 'attacked' by a grass-hopper (not really attack since it jus flew on me for not even a second and went away..but you know) but then my brother killed it ^^; But don't look at me like as a killer!!! I prayed for it and apologized! I really did >.<

Well I'm jus waiting for my mom to come home from the store...or where ever it was she left me for. I took a nice cold shower and I'm sooo tired. Oh, and I forgot to emntion this in the beginning, but the reason for all of this cleaning [each and everyday] is beause we're having a lil cook-out, a party over at our house for our family. It's gonna be an early Fathers's Day thing. It's only gonna be our family, and I'll be looking forward to that since I'll be able to have my cousins over [even though none of them our my age] jus for a bit of fun. I better pump up my volleyball though ::throws volleyball at the ground....and it stays there:: hehe ^^;

Well thanx for reading guys! I'm gonna try my best to get to as many pages as I can for tonight, and hopefully I don't fall asleep on the keyboard.
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Thursday, June 17, 2004

   Uhm.....a title....?...This'll do...I hope 0.0
Hmmmm....I guess I don't have much to post about. It's jus the same things happening everyday. I'm gonna be trying my best with getting my page done today and whatever is left to do.

I think this is the shortest post I've typed out in a while. I'll jus edit if anything comes up. Thanx for reading and I'll ttyl ^_^
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Wednesday, June 16, 2004

   I'm bored...but there's too much to do -.-..zZ..zZ..
I'm still stuck with the problem with my intro on this page. The limit of characters that we can have on it is a party-pooper ~_~ and that's what I'm stuck on.

Anywayz, other than that I guess today is going ok, just the usual. But last night kinda made me think about my past. I had a dream and it was mostly about this one guy. I miss him a lot I guess I could say, but I dunno if he even remembers me.

In real life we started off in kindergarten together, and Ric3 was with us too, and his name was Jeremy (I forgot how to spell his last name and I'm a bit too lazy to look for class pictures ^^;) B. I didn't really know him that much at the time, and then we got reunited in 2nd grade, but I never had any classes with Ric3 since kindergarten. But in 2nd grade, that's when he told me he had a crush on me and Ric3 and we became pretty good friends....and we were still together in 3rd grade....until I moved T_T

I have no idea what he looks like now, and there's no way we're able to keep in touch. It's been about 4 years since we last spoke to each other and I didn't think it'd be this bad--cuz if I did I would've cried on my last day at the school. My last day there was at the end of January of 2000 and it was on a Friday. ::sighs:: my dream was jus haunting me, and I knew it couldn't be true cuz it was jus something I made up as the night went by. I don't think the chances of meeting him sometime soon are pretty big, but i guess I can still dream...

Okie dokie now that I got that over with ^_^ uhm...I'll try and finish up my page and get a few other things done with. Thanx for reading and I'll ttyl!



I got a bit bored and I wanted to see if I can make a lil banner thing like the Final Fantasy logos...and this is what I got ^^; Now if onli I can clean up the kitchen....later. Bye pplz!

-edit- sorri guys, I hate time, and I don't have enough of it. I barely got to any pages today, but i will make it up tomorrow. ttyl!
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Tuesday, June 15, 2004

   Pancake!
I knew my cousin and her parents would be coming back from their vacation, but I didn't think that my other cousins and their family would be coming down from Phillidelphia! It was kind of weird this morning when I woke up because I found out that we had to spend the rest of the day getting the house all organized and clean before they come over. I also found out that they brought this box of lucky bamboo for us and there was a lot in it. So we decided to put them in these vases that we never bothered to use in the past 4 years ^_^

It's been about.....I think 2 or 3 years since they last came over, and that time it was jus two of my cousins. This year it's gonna be their whole family so I'm looking forward to that.

I can't really think of anything else to post about.....except about how awful it is to spend my afternoon cleaning the house -.- But I don't know why my brother did this to me, but while I was vacuuming my room (my back was facing the hallway so I wouldn't have a clue if something came sneaking from behind me) my brother comes up from behind me about 2 feet away and shouts out in this weird voice...something I can't remember...and then I got scared and scream pretty loud^^; It was in this high pitched voice and he started running away from me cuz I was chasing him around the house. Even my dad was laughing at me....T_T

Well I gotta get back to cleaning -.- Thanx for reading and I'll ttyl ^_^

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Monday, June 14, 2004

   Hey Guys!!! Thanx so much for my 1002nd visit! I LOVE YOU!!!
Yup I missed my '1000th moment' and got here when it was on my 1002nd. Same thing with my 100th visit a bit ago....I didn't know about it till it was like 109 or something. But it's all good ^-^! Also I got some sleep last night!! Yay me!!!

Ok...anywayz...not much has happened today....jus the usual. I dunno if it's jus me, but whenever I see the ending of Final Fantasy X....it makes me wanna cry T_T *sighs* it's all good ::sniffles:: And then the stupid thing that ryuins the moment is that my brother is the one who's playing it so I'd be around him--which means I can't cry cuz then he'll think I'm...::whispers::crazy...

Well tomorrow my cousin's gonna come back from Asia and I'm so happy right now ^^ She and her parents went over to Vietnam, Cambodia and Thailand so I'm expecting so see pictures. Also my other cousin and I kinda thought of a few things to do with her. She's been gone for a while so we're hoping to get to some movies (since she's always been our ride there cuz our parents are too busy for their own children >.<)

Also last night I was so bored that I walked a mile on the treadmill. I did it on purpose cuz I knew that if I was wiped out and jus plain tired, that would make it a bit easier to fall asleep. And then I realized that when my cousin comes back....she's gonna torture my cousin and I with doing stretches 0.0

I want to be able to let this week and next week pass by fast without missing out on too much. By the end of this month several Pplz will be coming back from their vacation--including Ric3, An1m3, and Lil Psycho ^_^ And since my cousin is done with college she's gonna have more free time for us (unless she finally decides to get a job ^^;) so that should help pass the time around here.

I don't think there's anything else to post about, so I guess I'm done for now. I'll try my best to get to as many pages as I can today, then there's gonna be cleaning and grocery shopping--I have a craving for marshmallows....isn't that a bit weird? Oh well...thanx for reading guys and I'll ttyl ^_^

-EDIT-

Also I think I might be changing the theme tomorrow...sad to say it won't be as good as the Chobits theme, but it'll be on for a short while. I'll be changing it several times until I get to one that'll be good enough to stay on for a month or two. Bye bye chii T_T...

-Another Edit-

Jus to let everyone who knows my brother, if he puts up a picture in his intro or somewhere on his page sometime soon that's like a welcome pic with FFX the scene where Suteki Da Ne plays, he stole my idea!!!! I was the one who thought of the whole banner and button and welcome signs thing between the both of us!!! He found out how cuz he was watching each step, and I didn't think it'd be such a big deal until now!! GRRRR!!! I know where you live G-x!!!! (and where you eat and sleep...and all of the above)

But jus letting you know if he takes full credit of that, HE STOLE MY IDEA!!!!

Thank you, have a nice day

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