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myOtaku.com: Sw33tSamurai90
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Wednesday, April 14, 2004
OMG!!!
Well first of all i'd like to thank everyone for visiting, commenting, and helping me through tough times, the last that i've checked i had 700 visits!!! and i jus wanted to thank you guys!!!^_^...moving on...
I should’ve known yesterday was too good to be true. I thought today would be as good, or better…but no…the total opposite! Things were really good from the morning, I didn’t get to make breakfast for him since I thought that I’d rather not set the house on fire for him, but there was only enough milk for one bowl of cereal…and I was kind enough to eat something else…so yea. *I’m right here with him and I just asked him if he’s excited at all about being 15…and he just said no* oh well…but a good thing was that I tried not to bug him or *dude he just got $50* T_T…all I got was a party…and then I got $80…small party though…but mommy didn’t give ME money!!! Well…yea...my mom just handed that over to him a minute ago. But anyways…I tried my best not to nag at him to hurry up and I just did what I could NOT to bother him. And for me and him…that’s a big thing. So the best that I can do for him is to not bother him…and give him his 15 punches. Of course I’m gonna end up hurting myself, like the saying “I hope you know that it hurts me more than it hurts you” or something like that…yea that’s how it is with me. *hehe*
Well the bad part came right at the end of school. Right after I was dismissed from 8th period and walked out of the double doors of the building I was in. ‘Twix’ was standing at his locker and I was about to go over to smack him for trying to stick a ‘Kick Me’ sign on my back on my way to 7th period. But right when I was about to call out his name…Amenda jumps out and she’s all talking to him and if this one guy Michael wasn’t in her way, she probably be up in his face. But yea, when I saw that…I just said to myself, ‘AGAIN???’ if some of you remember Dustin, I had a crush on him first…and then when she found out...she introduced herself to him and started talking to him, looking for him, and just hanging out with him more. And then when I told her that I had a problem with it she started acting mean to him trying to avoid him. Then after I stopped liking him…she ends up not talking to him as much as she use to and she just stopped messing with him. And now…it got out that I like ‘Twix’ and she’s bothering him. And also…there were only three other pplz at the school who knew about this. Chieu, Tara, and Monica. And for some reason…Linna found out, and Linna has a big mouth and even though she says she won’t tell, she’ll end up telling anyway. So Amenda found out, Janna found out, an 8th grader-Nikki found out *the bad thing is that she’s one of my brother’s friends* and next thing you know it my whole academic classes will know! Janna came up to me while I was walking to ‘Twix’ and while Amenda was talking to him and asked me if I liked him….and Nikki asked me when we ran into each other on the way to out busses. And when I asked them who’s been spreading it around, they just kept repeating the question. I know Chieu wouldn’t do something like that to me, and I know Monica wouldn’t and Tara wouldn’t either…but when Linna hears a good conversation…she’s gonna get nosey. But the funny thing was that before I got to the bus area, right when I was about to talk to ‘Twix’ Amenda passes by me and she whispers, “Twix likes you” and I know what she’s doing. She’ll say stuff like that and the person would believe it…and it’s not always true. So I won’t bother listening to her. And thanks to her…for taking up my time…I didn’t get to talk to him over there. I had to wait till I was on my way to the busses when he snuck up on me and I asked him what the other girls said to him. I know he lied to me, but all he said was, “Nothing” and yea…it’s like I can’t trust anyone now…that feeling has come and gone so many times…and now…I hate everyone that was included in that who wasn’t my best friend. But hey…I’ve been hating Amenda.
So now…I’m left uncomfortable with this feeling and this always seems to happen. So far, I’ve only liked two guys at my school. And when I liked Dustin, Amenda was always trying to get into our little conversations...and when I had something important to tell him…she would just jump in and interrupt us. It was like she would do whatever she can to ruin my life and try to make it that she is better than me. It only happened once so far…and it’s like it’s happening over. Hah! Linna says that she ‘promises’ that she won’t tell anyone when she asked me if I liked him, and I told her I ‘no’ but yea I kind of lied there but it was for my own cause so then not too many pplz would know. And then…I don’t know what happened…it all started on this one Friday, and then the next Friday Linna was bugging me about that and now this…watch this Friday turn out crappy too.
Right now I want to call Tara, Wanda, and Chieu or IM them…and tell them that ‘Pink and White’ day is gonna be moved to Friday again (since we moved it to Thursday today) and not let Amenda know about it and let her be the only one dressed up. But…no…I’m not like that. It’s not my style of doing that stuff. Plus it would just bring me down to her level…and I know I’m not like her. She’s the kind who talks big and can’t back up her words, and I think you guys know what I mean. I finally became sick of her talking behind this one girl’s back, I’m not best buddies with that girl, but it’s like…she’s got a grudge against Jeni and she’s always talking $h!t about her saying that she’s gonna get in a fight with her after fourth period and she would never do it or she would just laugh at her in her face as she passes her. Small stuff like that. But today in language arts when she was talking about her, I came out with, “You say you’re gonna do something to her, but that was like since last year. When are you gonna do it? Or are you even gonna do anything?” and then Jimmy who sits across from me shouted out, “Finally! About time someone asked her that!” and I know she heard me since she was looking at me when I was talking, and she just turned around acting like I didn’t say anything. Also before money was collected to go to Sea World, Amenda agreed with my idea to meet some pplz, and if we can, hang out with the. She would always make jokes abut that and we even planned out most of that day. Then next thing you know it, when the day to collect money comes-she tells me that she can’t afford to go. I mean…what? She says all these things…and then says that she wasn’t able to go. She should have to pay a fine for talking lies.
It’s always her and Linna and when Linna knows something…she breaks what ever promise and tells Amenda…and Amenda and her big mouth tells everyone. She’s got this guy, Justin…a John Hopkins basketball player, but you don’t see me going up to him trying to flirt and all that stuff. At least I don’t do that to my friends! Plus there’s something I know about that relationship that she doesn’t, but I made a promise not to tell, so I’m not gonna. Let me just say when it all falls down…she’s gonna end up running got me since I’m the only one who ever listens…and this time…she won’t have my shoulder. If she can’t respect my feelings…I have no reason to respect her’s.
Right when me and ‘Twix’ starts talking more and running into each other more often *well he’s actually skipping a few of his classes* and getting along better…in comes Amenda! I don’t know what’s her problem…she’s already gotten someone…why can’t she leave me alone!? I don’t do anything like what she does to me…to her. And she’s doing all this crap…and just ruining every awaken moment of my life and turning my daydreaming time into time to regret everything that I’ve done. I mean…there is a saying ‘Treat others the way you want to be treated’ so…should I do this to her? Or should I continue being me and let her learn herself? Right now…I really want to rearrange the pink thing…but…I can’t…and I won’t. It’s just gonna take her a long time to finally get this through her head. It must be the cheerleader thing getting to her head. Who ever she is going out with has to be popular, and in this case he’s a basketball player…I already know what’s happening between the tow of them when she doesn’t have a clue…so my revenge is not to tell her. I would only break a promise anyway.
Well sorry it’s so long *as usual* but there was a lot that happened today, and I needed to get it all out. I still have more that I held back, but I don’t know if cursing on a post would do any good ^^; but I do know that it’ll finally be over with once I have ANOTHER talk with her. But really, at the moment I want to just yell at her and do what I can to get to her pride…but I can’t really do much anyways. But if it things happen…they would only happened because they were meant to be. So I’ll just have to dust the results off my shoulders and move. I didn’t need any guy then and I don’t ‘need’ one now ^_~. Thanks for reading pplz! And I’m gonna get over this soon. I just need to look for the year book pic of her I cut out before and get a lighter. Bye guys, and I’d like to say happy birthday to my brother, gundam x…that meanie doesn’t deserve to be included in my posts…but oh well it’ll just be for today.
*also I’m sorry I didn’t get to anyone’s page yesterday. I was kicked off my computer since I had the music up too loud when my mom was busy. ^_^; how was I to know she was trying to sleep?-thanks for reading! Also I can’t say for sure if I’ll be able to make it to anyone’s page again since my mom is gonna be busy making phone calls to Cambodia and she’s gonna want me to talk with someone. So I’ll see what I can do and I’ll put my other page aside. Bye and ttyl*
**Ooh!!! CHICKEN!!!**
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