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myOtaku.com: Sw33tSamurai90
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Friday, May 14, 2004
*weakly* yay the weekend is finally here...
I’m pre-typing this letter, so in between I’ve probably taken one hour breaks or something.
But anyways, today was dissecting day in science, which is my first period class…and it wasn’t that bad…until I saw the frog! But the main thing was that it was ok except the odor part. Chieu was my partner and Tara and I were kind of fighting over her…but then she took Wanda.
Not much happened in second period. We read the class novel, and the sub is still a bitch. Luckily we missed about 10 minutes of that class since we had to finish up with the frogs and cleaning up. In third period Mrs. McRobert allowed everyone to pass around their year books for signing, and she just let a movie play. Fourth period…it was just notes and work, but no surprise there.
Fifth period was pretty much like third, but I just stayed at my seat and spoke with the people who were around me. Sixth period…we just watched a movie and Mara, Isabel, and I were talking about the year book…and just talking about other stuff. I went to seventh period, but by the time it got to 3pm I showed my note to Mrs. McCollum and I left with Chieu to the cafeteria for the ‘Shining Star Award’ ceremony thing.
I was the 8th person called up, and what my teachers put about why the chose me was because of…blah...blah…blah…and I have a great sense of humor. While I was up the lady at the podium asked me if I would like to tell a joke, and I said a very weak no. but yeah…that was pretty fun. Chieu was the 25th person to go up, and before she left the spot light I shouted out “GO CHIEU!!!!” and wow…I can scream (but for the fact that I had a sore throat, the pain got to me just a bit later). The funny thing was the expression on her face when she looked to her side at me with. We had pizza, a drink, and cookies afterwards, and I walked with Chieu so she can thank her Gifted teacher who nominated her.
But the thing was…before we left…and while we were still eating in the cafeteria and having our little talk-the afternoon announcements came on and they were announcing the members of the NJHS. Good news…Tara and Chieu and a few other friends got in. Bad news…I didn’t. At the moment it wasn’t much of a big deal, and I was really happy for them and I was acting like I didn’t care, which it really wasn’t that much of a big deal. But when I heard that I didn’t get in since I turned it in a bit too late…that really got to me.
Next thing you know, I’m being overpowered by negative energy and all that crap. And for some reason on the way home from the bus, just half a minute before it was time for our stop, my eyes start getting watery and I’m about to cry. Near the turn for our stop my eyes were totally filled with water and I had to try my best to get them gone without having them streak across my cheek, and luckily I was able to do that. But I was also sniffling. But I had a reason, I’m kind of sick-I just have watery eyes and a runny nose…but those weren’t any of my symptoms…but still they didn’t know that.
Right now I feel like such a quitter though. I feel like I’m a total loser, the ones who grow up living their lives with a big ‘L’ on their forehead. I fail in everything I attempt to do, and I can’t seem to do anything right at all. It’s like out of the whole six of us in the clique, I’m the little freak who won’t stop hiding. I’m the one who always gets stuck behind and is never included in anything and can never thing for herself. But if I was put into another stereotype, I’d be a nerd/geek…people would only want to be my friend so I can help them with my homework and give them test answers. I’ve been called‘computer geek’ before-several times-so I guess I better get use to it. No one seems to like me for who I am, but only because they want to use me for their own good. And even though I’m living with this kind of shit going on in my life…I still haven’t made much of a change no matter what others say. I’m still being picked last.
But with this stupid health situation, I’m just in big pain. And the frogs kind of made things worse during science…but the feeling didn’t get to me till a bit later in the day….luckily it didn’t get worse than a headache and dizziness though. Today was the last day I’ll be seeing igoturric3 at school, so I’ll be missing her, but then An1m3 x An93L is leaving a bit later too. by May 19th, I’ll be friendless and I’ll have no one to be with…and there’ll be no one worth talking to on AIM or on the phone. My life will be dead till one of them come back.
Well…if things went from good to bad that easily, hopefully things can go from bad to good as fast. My mom said that if she has any free time she’ll take me and my brother to rent a few games and movies. my cousin might be coming over later on tonight to take me and my brother to Electronic Boutique or just somewhere to hang out before she’ll be too busy packing up to be with us. Well, the weekends finally here…and there’s not much to do when I think about it. Only two days left of school…Monday and Tuesday…maybe I should just skip those days…I wouldn’t want anyone to get sick, now would I?
I’m gonna get going, and right now I haven’t taken my medicine since I got home…so I’ll have to get to it soon. If I have enough time (which I doubt) I might be heading over to igoturri3’s page and doing a little thing….but not sure yet at the moment.
thanx for reading, i'll ttyl i guess
[EDIT] Well i guess i have to change plans. i can't do what i wanted to do for IgOtUrRiC3, so i'll jus call her later if i get the chance. well...yea...ttyl guys
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