Saturday, November 24, 2007

My Recipe for love...

Tell me...

What is Large and Pure, and love to hear your V O I C E?

What is a gift that cannot speak?

Now let me tell you...

it is my H E A R T ♥ .


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Friday, November 16, 2007

Mood:
Listening: Super Rabbit-Antic Cafe

Aiie! I'm going to solve this comment problem! Once and for all >:( I'm going to put halo scan at the bottom of my post! Or should I remove my layout all together? Please tell me what you think okies?Thanks so much!

Anyway, my life isn't getting much better -_- I failed 3 subjects and my average is a poor 62% I can't believe this is happening to me...I just wanna die, I have never had an average sooo low before it's killing me inside. So yesterday was parent teacher interviews right? OS my dad went and like, now I have to attend English, Math, and History tutorials -___-;; I never knew I have ENGLISH tutorials, I mean, what would you even do there D; seriously?! Same goes with History, and it really pisses me off because the only reason I'm failing English and History is because I don't hand in my homework...

Anyway, I just signed up to IMEEM, so I'd like to add anyone here if you have an account n_n
so please let me know ok? And here is my link if you want to add me ;) http://profile.imeem.com/Q3Trqup

alrighty...I got to go do work...bye~ PS hopefully the comments work -__- or I'm going to die...so kill me T__T


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Tuesday, November 13, 2007

Mood:

Listening to: Winter Hot Music-YUI

Ah!! Were having problems with the comments eh? I would like to say, that you MUST use Mozilla Firefox, because the comment link doesn't show up if you use Internet Explorer -_- I'm sorry, but yeah, I just feel kind of neglected...I don't want to sound..um..bitch or anything but lately I've only been receiving like 2 comments or something like that and it's kind of depressing.

Anyway, I'm really pissed right now! I hate coming home, because it's the same shit everyday! You walk in the door, and immediately you are bombarded with bitching and yelling! I'm so fucking sick of it! I just wanna go to school one day and like ditch going home all together...I just wanna get away, you know? It's a huge piss off going home, so that's why, I try to hang out in the metro with my friends as long as possible before I go home...to the utter...madness -_-

But, because I'm not grounded for 3 weeks, I can't do that anymore, or I'll get grounded for an additional month...which reminds me...I didn't want to eat something at diner today, but I ate everything else right? And my dad is all "If you don't eat that, I'll add an additional 30 days" so I'm all "WTF?" so he's all and don't give me excuses and then I'm all "So, I'm not allowed to not like something?" and then he gets mad and raises his voice then...yeah..not very pretty.

I have a feeling my week is about to get even worse, I'm getting my report card tomorrow...and I know I did very bad this term >.< and I completely failed both those tests I had today =S I mean, for math I did one half and then left the rest blank (cause I kinda lost hope in ever passing)and then with the science test I left everything blank because I...just really didn't care anymore you know?

So, life is pretty much a downward spiral so far...Today after school, my friend wanted to get something to eat, so we were all going with her when some other people called them to come, but they said that they were going somewhere else but then the other people said, "oh c'mon! We'll buy you food" so they ditched my friend and I...So I was a little pissed by that..I mean, they would ditch there friends for food? Seriously wtf?

So I didn't follow them, and went with my friend.

Well...I gotta go...
Bye~

[EDIT 7:18PM]: I've decided to avoid my guy friend that is getting really close...I really don't want to hurt him, so I figure avoiding him will be the easiest thing to do...I hope it's not a bad decision, I figure, if I avoid him, he'll forget me, and move on..you know? I mean, he gets really comfy with other girls too but me just a little more -__-...so it shouldn't be to hard for him to move on right? I told my friend this on MSN and she says that she'd miss me and that it wouldn't be the same....but...I think she's wrong, I think it's actually a positive thing n__n I mean, it will still be fun without me....I mean, if they could ditch me and my friend after school today they probably could go on without us right?
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Monday, November 12, 2007

Hello my loves ♥,
Thank you all so much for your support the other day. I'm also glad that you guys like my new layout...it's actually dedicated to someone very special and dear to me... well, enough about that. When I came home today, all I felt like doing was crying; but I refused to, I just couldn't let myself do that, I didn't want my friends to ask me what was wrong, I didn't want him to ask me what was wrong...because, I wouldn't be able to explain myself.

Well, I'd like to give a shout out to Kelsey! Today is her birthday! I just wanted to wish her "A very Happy Birthday" n__n I sent you a card I hope you go it!

Well, I'm gonna make this post short...because i have two tests to study for, and I really don't get math.

So I'll end by posting Lyrics to a song I really like:

"You Are The Moon"

Shadows all around you as you surface from the dark
Emerging from the gentle grip of night's unfolding arms
Darkness, darkness everywhere, do you feel all alone?
The subtle grace of gravity, the heavy weight of stone

You don't see what you possess, a beauty calm and clear
It floods the sky and blurs the darkness like a chandelier
All the light that you possess is skewed by lakes and seas
The shattered surface, so imperfect, is all that you believe

I will bring a mirror, so silver, so exact
So precise and so pristine, a perfect pane of glass
I will set the mirror up to face the blackened sky
You will see your beauty every moment that you rise

I really like the lyrics to this song, cause it's kind of how I feel right now..my next post tomorrow will be much longer...cause it will have stuff from today and tomorrow.

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Sunday, November 11, 2007

Hello everyone, thanks so much for all your comments on my previous post there! My layout is pretty dull eh? Do you think I should add more to it? All opinions matter to me >.< I'm a crazy person haha! Well yeah, a lot had happened and yeah...I'll try to explain everything to you guys.

So, how should I begin? I'm feeling very depressed right now, my parents are completely ignoring me and it's really bugging me to no end right now. But there reason for ignoring me is valid...but it still hurts you know? I came home last night at 4 because ehh...it's kind of hard to explain (or I'm just very bad with English) Okay, um, on Friday I asked my parents if I could go shopping after school with my friends in the "underground city" (Sorry, it's hard to explain why it's called the underground city in one sentence...but it's uh...um, a huge place to go shopping and yeah) soo...I had fun shopping! We were eating and this random guy who looked around 23 or something comes up to us and says "I'm sorry to bother you two but, I'd like to become your friend so here is my e-mail, please e-mail me if you want, bye." O__O we wait for him to leave and then we crack up! Something even funnier happened, when we were laughing, this guy sitting across from us starts laughing too ( I guess he heard what happened ;o ) and then he asks us where the nearest bathroom is, and we look down and he wet himself XD I swear! I though stuff like that only happen in movies! It was sooo hilarious!

Anyway, back to why I'm in trouble...so we go shopping and we check the time and it's 10:00pm?! So we get to the metro and I go to her house because it's closer than mine...but by the time we get there it's 11:30pm so I call home and my parents are yelling at me say "Where are you?! Get home right now?!" and a bunch of stuff, so you see I asked if I could sleep over and uh.....yeah..now I'm grounded for 3 weeks -_- very much deserved..they don't trust me very much anymore.

Like, they think I'm a druggie o__O which is very disturbing because I'm NOT. I just happen to have friends who do smoke and drink ^^;

Anyway...I'm getting a little weirded out...so I'll go now..

PIC OF THE DAY

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Saturday, November 3, 2007

Bonjour tout la monde!
I hope everyone had a great Halloween, I know that I had an okay one. All I really did is watch movies, msn, and eat ice-cream all night ;p so it was ok, my friends really wanted me to go trick-or-treating with them, but I didn't go simply because I didn't feel like it (is that a bad thing?)


Well, there also was this Halloween Dance, I was asked to go by one of my guy friends who has gotten really close to me...but I didn't go either (Talk about bad Halloween Spirit eh?) well, you know it's a good thing I didn't go, so much shit happened that day that I'm glad I didn't get myself involved in that stuff! There was smoking (weed, pot etc.) and there was beer and some fighting...so I'm pretty happy that I stayed home. My friend Kathy told me all about it over the phone at 12:30am and I worried for them so much as if I were there...some kid got into a fight with a random guy passing through the park and some of my guy friends had to grab him and take him away and stuff >.< it was horrible....

Anyway, on a lighter note, how do you like this crazy colourful layout? Heey! Wait aren't I suppose to leave you guys ;__; what am I still doing here? Ha! ha! Anyway, yeah, I haven't used photoshop in months and I think I've lost my touch! So I need your opinions...

Okay, now about my day so far...
I'm suppose to go to see Saw 4 with my friends but the thing is, you know the guy friend that asked me to the dance and is getting a little too close? Yeah, my friend Kathy said I should never go to a movie with him (I don't blame her, the last time I did that he started holding my hand and made me rest my head on his shoulder and stuff)so...I'm debating whether or not I should go or not? What do you guys think?

Ohh! Yesterday! Brandon came into class high O__O it was kind of funny, cause when my math teacher would ask him to solve a question he'd stare and start laughing XD which was also a bit scary but funny you know?

Here I am skipping from topic to random topic!
Facebook has been so wonderful to me, I'm absolutely addicted to it! I love the haw the online world connects people! Heh, I know pretty random eh? Ha ha!

Anyway, I haven't asked you guys any questions in a while eh?

And I guess I save them for tomorrow ha ha!

Toodles my loves!

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Wednesday, October 31, 2007

Have a very nice day! Happy Halloween you guys~
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Thursday, October 25, 2007

GIRLS ONLY POST!!
I'm really sorry to all the guys, it's just that it's something that girls would most likely see eye to eye with me on (Unless you are a strange guy and go through this every month o.o)

Day after day, everything seems to get worse. I am utterly humiliated and depressed, I was in science this morning (second period), and we went down to the computer lab to do research and whatnot. During the class everything was fine, I was laughing with my lab partner/friend and I was having a pretty good time, until I stood up...

My period just decided to happen that day, now, I never saw this coming because usually my periods are very irregular, so I never know when there coming (If any guys are reading this...you probably figured out why this is a "girls topic" by now) so...you can imagine how embarrassed I am at this point.

My friend calls the teacher and tries to keep it "hush hush" but, another girl comes a long and says "What happened to her?" so my friend explains (considering she's a girl and that she would probably keep quiet about it) I go to the office to call home so I can get a change of pants and clean myself up >.< but no one is home, so I end up staying like this ALL THROUGH LUNCH!

Problem is, that some of my friends are guys, and one of them loves hugging me and cuddling with me (uh..don't ask) so I kind of had to try and avoid that, and I was walking behind me group of friends for a long time...

After lunch, I decide that I will try to call home again...my friend from science class comes running to me, she says "Don't go back into class, that bitch told the entire class about what happened!"
So i got really embarrassed and depressed and I came home...

Isn't that just great? What am I suppose to do tomorrow? I'm hoping my parents will let me stay home for one day (I figure hopefully people will forget about it over the weekend) I am in so much distress, not to mention my two other friends are still not talking to each other, well one of them wants to apologize, but the other keeps walking away.

Ugh! This week is sucking so bad -_-

I'm gonna go die somewhere ok? Oh yeah, thanks for your support yesterday...

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Wednesday, October 24, 2007

I AM FEELING SO FUCKING DEPRESSED
Today has just been the worst, as I type I'm crying because I can't handle any of this anymore...I'm leaving MyO when I need you most, isn't that stupid?!

So much drama today, it's driving me crazy, and to be honest I can't take it. One of my best friends got into a fight with another friend, and now she is depressed because she's afraid that Chrissy might hold a grudge against her...I'm depressed because I'm worried about them, and because I might have potentially ruined more than one friendship (I hate myself so much right now..)

Today, is Wednesday, at half day at my school, so I take this opportunity to visit my old friends at my "ex-high school" some of my friends from my school tag along with me. While I was going there, on the metro, (I only went with one guy friend...) he started going through my bag and he got into my English binder and happened to find the notes my friend and I pass in English class. Just so happens that we talk about him sometimes :) he reads it...in that note, my friend is dissing him up saying he's gonna rape my ipod and stuff.

I felt like such a bitch! Because I support everything my friend says because I don't want her to question me...

So, I then told him that She doesn't really like him very much (Because, when I'm alone with her she always bad mouths them..so I got the impression...) and he said it was ok, and that he doesn't like her very much either.

I was afraid something bad was gonna happen out of it, and he told me he wouldn't say anything...but what a liar...

I trusted him...and yet, I go on facebook, and he writes "i dont kno maybe becuz u dont like me?" and she goes "Says Who ?" so now...I don't know what to do...I don't even know what to say, I'm disappointed in myself.

I'm gonna end this so I can cry in bad...for some reason it helps...

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Monday, October 15, 2007

While I'm here I might as well post right?
Besides, I love you guys, and you should know that ;3 and if you don't, then you know now! I'll miss you guys I really will, so...I'll keep on posting until I have to go.

I have lots and lots to tell you guys! It's bad, but kind of good...? Lately, I've been hanging out with my friends' friends it's very weird :p I enjoy hanging out with them more than my 'main group' of friends (makes me feel like a bitch) but now I hang out with my friends' friends more, so they kind of have become my 'main group of friends' it's very weird.

Well, to continue without confusing you with my rather odd word choice...We have become very close, but the funny thing is, we have only known each other for like a month or so, but were already do close.

So, on Friday I went with my Anne to go pick up her cousin coming from Ottawa, Quan tagged along cause we kind of dragged him there (Laughs, hehe, were so evil) and we waited for about 3 hours...Anne got upset because she was suppose to be there at 5:00pm but we waited till 8 and she didn't show, so she kept on walking away looking for her. So it left me and Quan alone...

He got strangely close to me, and the weird thing was..that I liked it (Not in any dirty way people D:) I grew to like him as he likes me <3 he told me that he loves me...i find it hard to say it back, I don't really know why...

It's very odd, I don't know what is wrong with me, I'm so frozen. Do you have any idea why?


Now, on another subject, new layout! You like? It's for Halloween! One of my favorite holidays or the year, so I had to do something you know?

Nightmare Before Christmas remains to be one of my favorite childhood movies, it was made the year after I was born...and I still love it to this day, I found out there is a NMBC (Nightmare Before Christmas)manga! Sally looks adorable! I have always loved Tim Burton's creations! Like The Corpse Bride was so sweet~

I don't really have much to say, so take care you guys...

With much love,
-Mizuki

[EDIT]: I really should finish, get started on my homework...
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