Thursday, December 2, 2004

I blame Syk3.
Man, I'm looking at these myOtaku rankings, and I seriously wonder how many of them are actually legit. I haven't even heard of these people.. and yet they somehow whore out the top 15 spots?! :O Are they posting a lot of fan art, or what? That seems to be how most of them gain popularity, I think. James has fallen down to 18th, and the highest person that I know is Sara at 16. I've basically given up on following the rankings for the most part, save a glimpse a couple minutes ago, ever since I fell all the way from a peak of around 5, to 105 right now. No luck on the fan art, either, since I've kind of learned from my art teachers not to draw things like anime, and Hell if I have enough free time for random sketches! Some people, like Shinmaru, really deserve their rankings because of continuously clever and interesting posts. On the other hand, you have people like SonicBlaster who made their way to number 1 using some sort of cheat program, and God knows how many members are using those now.. I have my own suspicions. Like the number 1 spot right now: no fan art and I've never even heard of them! You know you’ve hit rock bottom when you cheat in order for someone to look at your site on an anime site. :p Onto the comments from the last post..

Mimmi: A little.
Shin: It’s especially stressful when you have yet to send in your applications to colleges, but I’ll get into that later. Is college really all about essays, though?
Azure: Yeah, she’s lenient, luckily. And I tried that route last year with not doing homework, and it didn’t work very well. ~.^
Karmi: Aww, Karmi, you’re so easy to fool. :p
Ryudo: Yeah, the loneliness blew over, and I’ll get into that later.
Arc: Anime and video games are the only things that can keep me occupied for a couple hours! And if you get RahXephon, prepare to be confused out of your mind the first time through. :D

I’ve created a finalized Christmas list, in order of most wanted. :D And strangely enough, they all begin with an ‘m’…

Metroid Prime 2: Echoes
Metal Gear Solid: The Twin Snakes
Metal Gear Solid 3: Snake Eater
Mario Power Tennis
Monty Python and the Holy Grail
Monty Python and the Life of Brian
Money

Yeah, I want money. So what? Wanna fight about it? Last on the list, though; you know, if they get everything above it (:O!) and have money left over. XD Yeah, I’m greedy. Wanna fight about it?! >:O

A lot had happened since my last post. ..not really, but it makes it sound like I have somewhat of a life, right? In all honesty, though, we did go through Thanksgiving break, in which I exploited as much sleep as possible, going to bed at 2 and getting up at like 1. I’m actually still recovering from that, lol. The past 3 days, I haven’t gone to bed earlier than 1:30, despite having to wake up at 6:45 and drive to school. I also have reason to believe that the same thing is going to happen again tonight. >.o As long as it doesn’t get into a habit like it did last year, heh.. oh man, sleeping through every class. :o I blame the late-night AIM chats. <_<

Moving on, I didn’t really eat much on Turkeh Day, surprisingly, since I filled up on punch early in the day. ^.^; And for good reason; if any of you have ever had Mocha Punch, you’d know that it’s addicting as hell. The punch is made from a half gallon each of vanilla and chocolate ice cream, as well as coffee mix, and probably crack, too. If you have it at night, it’ll keep you wired well into the morning for sure. So I filled up on that and didn’t eat much for dinner, where the turkey was kind of dry anyway, and I ended up letting the dog pig out on my plate, lol.

On Saturday, I went over to my friend Wesley’s house. He lives in my old neighborhood which is about an hour’s drive away, so it was cool to reminisce about the old days a bit as well. We chilled for a while with other friends of his, then went to this pool hall place where my friend had some major luck on his side (read: I lost <_<). It was pretty cool hanging out with him again, which was the first time that I’ve seen him since summer, but he hasn’t really changed much. His hair is short, dyed black, and curly so it looks like a wig, lol, but that’s basically all that changes whenever I see him. Admittedly, my hair was a lot longer than it had been last time we saw each other, but I was wearing a hat so you couldn’t really tell. Yada yada yada, I went home on Sunday. :D And had a shit load of homework to do that kept me up until 3:30. -_- I didn’t even finish the damn stuff, but it’s better than nothing.

So if you read my previous post, you would have been able to see that I have been under a lot of stress. Not only because of massive schoolwork, but also because I was feeling particularly lonely, since I had a taste of companionship a few weeks ago and saw what I was missing. Well, luckily for me, those feelings have all but disappeared - or, at least, they’ve gone to the back of my mind to think about for another time. Last Wednesday, I talked to the girl that I had the “fling” with, Molly, and I must say.. my opinions of her changed for the worse. It’s not that I still liked her before we talked then, but I respected her, and thought of her as a friend. She IMed me saying that she was really happy and everything, and I thought that was great, since we’d been talking about her depression a lot lately and I was trying to help her quit cutting. Upon further explanation, however, she went on to tell me about how she had just fooled around with one of her guy friend and was “really dirty.” Now, this is the third guy that she’s been with (not that way, mind.. though it wouldn’t surprise me with this latest one), including myself, in just as many weeks. Not only that, but the guy has a girlfriend, and she knows it, and is fine with being a “friend with benefits.” I really hate myself for coming to such conclusions, but I just can’t feel sorry for someone who is going to treat themselves as objects of pleasure for momentary happiness, even if they do cut. How could I let someone who was using me as a way to find temporary pleasure cause me to feel so lonely? Exactly, so I’m fine now. :D

Right now, I really have to start finalizing all of my information for colleges. I need to get my recommendation from my English teacher, find out what essays the other school I’m applying to wants, edit my one for the other school as such, write a resume of my high school “career”, apply to Salisbury University and University of Maryland Baltimore County, send my other information into my guidance counselor, and write thank you letters to my two teachers that gave me recommendations. At the moment, I’m leaning more towards UMBC for a number of reasons, most notably location. It’s a lot closer to home, just in case there’s some sort of emergency, and freshmen can drive (though my parents might not let me because of the insurance). The school is about 10 minutes away from a fantastic mall with many job opportunities, a great movie theater, and a DDR machine. ~_^ The atmosphere, as described, seems to be a place where I would fit in, as well. It’s a culturally diverse campus, with strong ties to both anime and DDR, apparently, which means there are clubs that I can meet people in. The buildings are nice and very.. natural, as well. They made it so that you can access all of the buildings indoors, so when it gets really cold and snows you can get around without much trouble. The only real problem I see is that it wasn’t quite the type of classes I was looking for. I really wanted a school were they had small class sizes and compact things to stress on the individual, rather than lecture halls where it was clearly the opposite. It’s a very big point that is influencing my decision, but I don’t know.. what do you guys think?

Oh yeah, I also have a recent picture of myself. And considering there’s really no other way to put it up.. since the picture site is down and everything, I’ll just post it here:



Har har.. such hat hair. I look at pictures of myself a year ago, though, and I seriously look like 3 years older now. O.o Cray-zeh. That’s it for now. Syk3-out.
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