Saturday, December 18, 2004

Goodbye Cassie, hello Christmas!
Read to the end of my post and all will be explained.

James: I'm looking forward to it. ^_^
Sen: Don't you think my list is long enough?
Shy: Hell yeah, I do.
Shin: I've had.. maybe 2 this year so far.
Juu: Yeah, it's been like a year since I put a picture up. And no, I'm not really there for her. :)
Annie: Oh man, that forum was really old, heh. :p Sure does take ya back.
Karmi: Ha, at least you like it. *glares at parents*
Mimmi: *_*;;
DDG: I like my hair. :D Haven't cut it in 6 months.
Shin: I love you. :-*
Wondershot: Yeah, that's the look I'm going for. ;p And Cobalt Flux, eh? Top of the line, right there.
Baron: Yeah, I prefer having hat hair.

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. Greg
2. Quiet Boy
3. Syk3 (online)

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
1. GohanSecretary
2. DARKgohan369
3. Syk326

THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. How I have an open mind about things.
2. My optimistic outlook on life.
3. I’m a very moralistic person.

THREE THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. I don’t talk very often.
2. When I talk, sometimes it seems like no one hears me.
3. I get nervous around girls I like.

THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
1. British?
2. German?
3. Hell if I know.

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1. Being alone for the rest of my life.
2. Death/Everlasting nothingness.
3. To do something out of my control.

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. Music.
2. Online gabbing.
3. Time to think.

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. My berserk pendant.
2. Grey Nike shirt.
3. Dark green cargo pants.

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS (or artists at the moment):
1. Incubus
2. 311
3. Sublime

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS AT PRESENT:
1. Pardon Me - Incubus
2. Beautiful Disaster - 311
3. Steppin’ Razor - Sublime

THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS:
1. Max 300 on Heavy (DDR)
2. Open up and talk to people more.
3. ..you want me to say sex, don’t you?

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP (love is a given):
1. Trust.
2. Understanding.
3. The ability to just hold each other in silence.

TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE:
1. I have read all of the Harry Potter books.
2. I have read all of the Lord of the Rings books.
3. I have read all of my summer reading books.

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1. Dark hair.
2. Braces.
3. Nice butt. :p

THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN'T DO:
1. Cheat someone.
2. Lie (unless it’s absolutely necessary, what’s the point?)
3. Escape to drugs and alcohol.

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. Watch Anime.
2. Play video games.
3. Chat on the net.

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. Cleanse my soul of now-worthless feelings.
2. Take a break from women.
3. Get off for winter break.

THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING:
1. An editor.
2. A movie reviewer.
3. Professional bum.

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1. Japan.
2. California.
3. Texas, I guess.

THREE KID'S NAMES:
1. Wesley
2. Tori
3. James

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. Experience love.
2. Find inner peace with myself.
3. Read the bible.

THREE PEOPLE WHO HAVE TO TAKE THIS QUIZ NOW OR DIE PAINFULLY:
1. Whoever is left.
2.
3.

One week until Christmas; is everyone ready? It’s just been quickly creeping up on me, and I haven’t even gotten presents for the rest of my family yet. Maybe it’s the fact that it’s lost the childish charm that was just so appealing when you were younger that makes time pass so fast up until Christmas, or just about anything lately, it seems. Not that I don’t like the holiday, in fact, it’s probably one of my favorites. But as my friend pointed out, it’s lost pretty much everything except commercialization, which is very hypocritical if you celebrate it in the first place. Of course, this is an obvious fact, and I think that it’s celebrated more in the sense that it allows people the chance to participate in the spirit of giving, and getting for that matter. There’s really no point to stand up against the holiday, either, because it’s impossible to escape and it would be your loss anyway. Ah well, just something to think about.

I’ll probably be able to update more often when I start break this Tuesday. There’s just a bunch of things that like to get in my way of updating, which, among procrastination and laziness, includes the massive amount of homework that my teachers give me. I also plan to stay home for the most part, save perhaps three days where I’ll be staying up at the beach house that we own to welcome the new year, so I’ll have plenty of time to post.

For those who I haven’t been chatting with on AIM, recently I had a crush on this girl in my school which has really escalated, especially over the past week or so. The stress that accompanied has been astounding, but I did my best not to get my hopes up. And.. it’s a good thing that I didn’t. I recently found out that I wasn’t the only one who liked her, and wasn’t the only one trying to make a move either, so I decided to explain my feelings at anime club at my friend Mary’s house yesterday in order to avoid some sick competition. I also wanted to get some things off my chest so that, if it wasn’t returned, I can relieve the stress I mentioned earlier.

So while we were watching anime, I finally worked up the courage to ask her to follow me into another room, and talk to her alone. I really wish I could have done this elsewhere, but we’re always surrounded by people and I didn’t want to explain it online. Through awkward silences and very nervous talking, I basically let her know that I’ve been stressing out a lot and wanted to know if it was worth it to do so. Apparently, she didn’t realize that this was a roundabout way of asking if she liked me back, but she did let me know that she “only like[s] [me] as a friend.” In hindsight, I really should have tried to read the signs a lot better to save us both the trouble, and maybe if I had more time to flirt or talk with her, feelings would have changed on her part.

Eh.. but I can’t change how she feels, and I’ll have to get over my own feelings. Love is too stressful; I’m taking a long vacation from women.

I really haven’t been up to anything else lately, except that today I decided to go around and clean up my computer and such to accompany a fresh new slate in my heart. And as such, I decided to write up this post, heh. I’ll see you guys again sometime after Christmas I expect.

EDIT: I changed the song, btw.
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