Tuesday, September 23, 2003

   Ugh....
Right now I feel a little annoyed. I'm annoyed with the people I'm living with right now. Those people being my dad, mom, and older brother. Don't get me wrong, I love them and never want anything bad to happen to them. But right now, they're getting on my nerves. I confused because I don't know whether that's just a part of life and is something that goes away after a while.

I'm currently not doing all that well in one of my classes, which is AP US History. My parents aren't exactly pleased with this. I want to stay in that class, but I need to study hard to stay in there. My parents are telling me the same things I keep hearing when I'm not doing well in a class. The same ol' "You should spend less time on video games/internet/watching TV and more time on studying." I really want to yell at them: "You think I don't know that?!" It's really ticking me off when they keep telling me the same things that I hear everytime. They have to know that I know the consequences and what I have to do, I don't need to be constantly reminded of this. I don't know what's going on in my life and I really don't want to bring that up because they'll just tell me stop consuming my time on those things as well, when they don't know that those things are really important to me. These things include a group I'm in that trying to create a video game and my friends. My mom is annoying me more and more with her loud chewing of food and the same goes for my older brother. Not to mention my brother is just about annoying as hell. When I need some peace and quiet when I'm watching TV my mom, dad, and brother are jabbering away and I keep telling them to at least lower their voices a bit, but do they? No, they don't. I'm really tired of being here. I like it when I'm alone in the house. I love going to school because that's where I'm with my friends.

I'll admit that if it weren't for my family, I wouldn't have most, if not all, of the things I have that I treasure the most. One family member that I love being around the most is my baby nephew, Tyler. I love that kid. He always manages to put a smile on my face. It's just too bad that I see him like every weekend, depending on my brother's work schedule. If you thought I just had problems at school with my friends, then you're wrong. In my house, we have our different problems. I'm surrounded by problems in like every place I go.

Okay, I'm depressing myself right now, heh. The truth is, I don't think I've been surrounded by so many problems as I am right now and it scares me. I guess a teenager can never have too many problems to deal with. I just really feel like breaking down right now.
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