Wednesday, January 19, 2005

A rare, non buisy evening has finally approached me.
I sit here in this chair.
I do what one does when staring at a computer screen: I vegetate, which was one of my vocab words, it means to live with little or not movement.
I think about what I am to say.
I deside.
I spread my fingers across the keys and type a way.
This is what I feel now as I talk to you, my trusted, never-seeing, never-imposing friends.
If I for some reason don't like you, I delet you.
One click and you are gone forever.
How nice, huh?
It's as if none of us actually exsits.
We could all be lieing, lots are.
This place we know is a dangerous place because of that. Because of the lieing.
The only way to protect ourselves is to lie, furthering the danger.
Help save what could be a happy place.

Sorry, that just came. I think I can do better, just a sec. One more then on to other buisness, k?

They tell you to be careful. You don't know who is really out there.
"They could be lieing." They say, "They mean you harm."
Why? Because you can't see Them?
You can't hear Them? You can't feel Them? Is that why?
You can't see the wind, yet you can see what it does.
You can't hear the light, but it shows you the safe path.
You can't touch your emotions, but those are more real than anything else.
So why should be not trust Them?
We can't see Them, we can't hear Them. And we sure can't touch Them. But They are real. We can tell by the effect They leave. Here, within our chests.
They leave sorrow, and joy. Anger and tranquility.
They are real. Why can't we trust Them?

Okay, how was that? You "vote" k? 1 or 2, which one is better, and if you want, why? Well, let's see, last time I was on was Friday I think. Yes. Saturday was really fun with Renee-nee and her family and Elaina-sama. I couldn't find this one store that Daniel told me about though. It's an anime store. Glen and ..... Ryan! found it though. They bought Sessy. action figures. But I did get 2 mangas. Kill Me Kiss Me. I read the first one 'bout mid-year last year I think. Anyways, I got 1 and 2. And a chinese book bark. I know it's Chinese cuz it has a Chinese proverb on the back. "One joy shatters a hundered griefs." That's why I got it. I've kinda been fallowing that proverb for a good number of years now and I love it. I hate being mad or sad. I just don't like the feeling. Being happy ~makes~ me happy. Weird, I know. Then I also got this coloring book, a stained glass coloring book, a Japanese Geishas *doesn't know how to pronouce last word* Anyway, they are all pictures of women. I can't wait to color one, but I want it to look nice, ya know? Elaina-sama and I also got party favors. We both got cool picture frames that look like stages and when you press the button on the back the stage lights light up! ^_^ We also got earrings. I don't have my ears pierced so they got me gold clip-on's. ^_^ I like them. I've worn them 3 days now straight. (I take them off at night of course.)

Sunday was the Variety Show. It was really fun. Sissy was there, she said that if it were a competition, then our show chior would've gotten 2nd place. After this really funny act. We got lots of comments. ~Good~ ones! Mrs. D says that some people said that they believe that we are the best middle school show chior in years. ^_^ Everyone was nervous. I wasn't. I don't get stage fright. *shrugs* I don't know why, but I really don't care if people laugh at me when I mess up or not. I don't see why everyone does. But while we were performing, it focused my attention of April, one of my friends in the crowd. When we were doing the bow, i heard her yell "GO KATE!!" That made me feel extra good. But having to wear those shoes for over 5 hours straight! (I had to stay for the second showing, which I wasn't not in) my feet ~hurt~!

Monday... I can't think of anything special that happened...Oh wait. I think it was that day that Daniel came to school with black hair. Oh no... that was....Friday. He died his hair black with a few dark blue highlights that you can only see when the sun is shinning through his hair. But ~everyone~ loved my hair that day (Monday) too. I didn't do anything specially different, but it was different. Mom says that it was the earrings. When she got her new pair of glasses everyone asked if she got her hair done. *shrugs* Oh well. I felf really pretty. It made me feel soooo good about myself. I was beaming!

Nothing happened Tuesday.

Maya has been wearing more "girly" type clothes. She's been wearing less athletic stuff cuz either her sport seasons are over or cuz she has time to change before practice. I think it looks good on her. She is really skinny. Skinny enough to make E-chan jealous, but not enough to be ab-normal. And she is a size B or maybe C cup and those tight fiting clothes look good on her.

Other good news: We got new seating again. I like where I sit. April is in front of me, Daniel is to my left, and Maya is behind Daniel, who unfortunetly followed by Colin. But other wise all is good. Since I sit last row to the right, it only makes sence that I turn towards my left (plus the bar that holds up the desk part is to my right so it makes a good backrest) so I get a perfect veiw of Brain. Which leads me to my conclusion that I'm getting close to my "monthlies" as they are called in the Tamora Pierce books. See normally I just think that Brian is cute, but today I thought he looked eseptionally well. I think it's because he looks like Haruki-kun. See I've never acctually ~seen~ my Haruki-kun, but to what he described to me, it matches up quite well with Brain's appearance. Plus Brain is nice, he calls me Friend Kate. I don't- oh supper time. I'll try to finish this after super. Bye! ^_^ *hugs*
~Taleybo (sorry this is so long, but as I've been saying I've been busiy, which means there is a lot to report on. Good bye.)
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